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i'm fixing things in my life
i loved the way everything use to be...the boy, the morals, the life, and the friends...
i want it like that again..but i've lost a lot..actually just one person..but he meant more to me than anyone else
hey! what's meant to be is what's meant to be
i just wish he would talk to me and not hate me so much.. i wish he would care about what is going on in my life.. i wish he would care about me
i wish he would understand how hard i tried and i wish he would know that i know i fucked up
i don't want to be with him, but i do want to be on good terms
i don't want him hurt and i want him to be happy
but if he wants nothing to do with me, then so be it
i didn't mean to hurt him...i know what i did despite what he thinks
but he doesn't even see somethings he did to me on purpose or not..and i don't care
i just wish i would mean more than a highschool sweetheart
and i wish he could be one of my best friends
but wishes are wishes and don't always come true
it sounds like i want him back...but i don't...i just dont want him to hate me...i want him to gain enough respect for me to listen to me and actually believe me....i don't know if that sounds fair..but it is
i don't want him to have any shame in ever seeing me...i'm more than what he thinks...unfortunately, he met me at the wrong time... i wish we would have met when we were older...when we knew more and figured more out... or i wish he would have been willing to figure things out with me...but what happens happens i don't really care anymore
i'm just in love with him..and always will be... but i don't want to do it again....not if he doesn't....not anymore
i can fall in love with others anyways...its just sad that i have to
i thought it was normal to fall in love more than once...i thought it would be weird to not fall in love with more than one person..until i felt love...then i realized there is no reason to...unless the other person doesn't love/ did love you like you always did and will love them....
i miss the way things were...but i don't care
i'm just hurt and confused...and i want to find someone else...but more importantly...i want to fix things with him (not relationship wise)....he was too big of a part in my life to just forget about...
it kills me that he wants nothing to do with me...everything was blown out of proportions