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I think I'd still end up getting a tumblr even after saying "HELL NO!!!" so many times. :p Yeah, I tend to do that a lot- eat my words and stuff. Anyway, I logged on today after a hundred years because I'm already brimming with pent up emotions. Yes, this is a rant. Well, no not really. I just want to release some of the energy I've been keeping for the sake of my future professional life.
:p
My first pain for 2012, finding out Morimoto Ryutaro isn't coming back. I mean, fine go on a hiatus or something for your studies. But I won't be seeing him at all. My brother said I should have gotten used to that even before the scandal because he doesn't show up much in anything anyway. The kid has a point, I know, and I have to be logical too. He did something wrong, what do I expect would happen to him? A miracle of course. I won't be seeing him at all anymore! That's just plain heartbreaking.
And I've mentioned before, right? I'm graduating this year (hopefully :p). So, now there are talks regarding my future between my two sisters. Their suggestion isn't really that bad, it's my chance to go where my sisters weren't able to go after all. I'm talking about taking my masters degree. Two of my sisters got a chance to start their's years ago but for some reason (one says time constraint, the other says no money) they couldn't continue. My other sister on the other hand, had not bothered with a bachelor's degree after a while of drifting through universities. This is my chance and, actually, my initial plan. And what's actually better is that they're willing to finance my further studies, I don't have to work yet. At first, they agreed to just staying unemployed until the licensure review and exams are done. They want to make sure I pass. But recently, they've been telling me I don't really have to work right away just because they keep complaining about our financial situation. There's a chance for me to grow more in preparation for my professional life and I should grab it. And I'm all for it if my chicken self isn't acting up. I don't know, I just keep thinking "Do I have enough braincells for that? Am I intelligent enough?" I don't like these thoughts plaguing me. You see, I have to make sure I choose something I won't regret in the end, something I'm sure of. This is my future, hello! If I'm not confident in that step, why should I take it?
Oh wait, that last statement just reminded me of my thoughts for the day. SOMEONE MY AGE SHOULDN'T BE SCARED IN TAKING RISKS. Okay, I was not the one who said that (an older friend) and I'm not that young anymore, I'm already twenty-one. But then again, I'm not yet old enough to pass up on adventures because my body and spirit can still match up. That's what he was trying to convince me with when I told him about it last week, and up until now.
Though my question is: How do you identify that border between courage (in taking risks) and the world telling you "Stop... Don't even try it because it's not for you." through your feelings (or what people would commonly call instinct)?
I guess you won't really find out unless you try.
:p
p.s.
I feel bad because Evanescence is coming to have a concert in our country on February. The exact date in which we will have our dooms day- our demonstration day. :(
:p
My first pain for 2012, finding out Morimoto Ryutaro isn't coming back. I mean, fine go on a hiatus or something for your studies. But I won't be seeing him at all. My brother said I should have gotten used to that even before the scandal because he doesn't show up much in anything anyway. The kid has a point, I know, and I have to be logical too. He did something wrong, what do I expect would happen to him? A miracle of course. I won't be seeing him at all anymore! That's just plain heartbreaking.
And I've mentioned before, right? I'm graduating this year (hopefully :p). So, now there are talks regarding my future between my two sisters. Their suggestion isn't really that bad, it's my chance to go where my sisters weren't able to go after all. I'm talking about taking my masters degree. Two of my sisters got a chance to start their's years ago but for some reason (one says time constraint, the other says no money) they couldn't continue. My other sister on the other hand, had not bothered with a bachelor's degree after a while of drifting through universities. This is my chance and, actually, my initial plan. And what's actually better is that they're willing to finance my further studies, I don't have to work yet. At first, they agreed to just staying unemployed until the licensure review and exams are done. They want to make sure I pass. But recently, they've been telling me I don't really have to work right away just because they keep complaining about our financial situation. There's a chance for me to grow more in preparation for my professional life and I should grab it. And I'm all for it if my chicken self isn't acting up. I don't know, I just keep thinking "Do I have enough braincells for that? Am I intelligent enough?" I don't like these thoughts plaguing me. You see, I have to make sure I choose something I won't regret in the end, something I'm sure of. This is my future, hello! If I'm not confident in that step, why should I take it?
Oh wait, that last statement just reminded me of my thoughts for the day. SOMEONE MY AGE SHOULDN'T BE SCARED IN TAKING RISKS. Okay, I was not the one who said that (an older friend) and I'm not that young anymore, I'm already twenty-one. But then again, I'm not yet old enough to pass up on adventures because my body and spirit can still match up. That's what he was trying to convince me with when I told him about it last week, and up until now.
Though my question is: How do you identify that border between courage (in taking risks) and the world telling you "Stop... Don't even try it because it's not for you." through your feelings (or what people would commonly call instinct)?
I guess you won't really find out unless you try.
:p
p.s.
I feel bad because Evanescence is coming to have a concert in our country on February. The exact date in which we will have our dooms day- our demonstration day. :(