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I haven't updated in forever. But, there is times when I need to just write down stuff that can't really be expressed. It sounds jibberish, however it's for my own good.
I just got back from the experience of a lifetime. My first missions trip ever. And an amazing one. The reason im really writing in this thing is cuz i miss these kids i bonded with for a week so very much. They are so precious in every way. I was blessed with an opportunity to go to Agua Prieta, Sonora in Mexico to this orphanage which is called "The Ranch." Me and a group of 7 others from Word Of Grace played with these precious orphans who 5 years previous lived the life of hell. Not only did there living conditiosn make the life hell, but the girls were sold as prostitutes and were forced to be the moms, cooking and cleaning for the other kids. I mean everyone goes thru hell but some of the stories taht were told just makes us really look at life and realize how for granted we take things. Anyways we took about 12 of the orphans the new runners of the ranch named Ruban and Rosi and their daughter to Rocky Point to get away for 3 days. Every single one of these people have never in their life seen the ocean, let alone left the ranch excpet for church. So to feel their excitment on the 7 hour drive from Agua Prieta to Rocky Point was intese. We took them to their first resturaunt and that was really cute. Not only were they blessed with a beautiful vacation house right off the beach, but i was as well. Basically we bonded so much with these people leaving to go home was so hard. Now that I'm home i find myself sitting here crying cuz i miss these people. i felt like their family. Correction: I am their family. The last the girls wanted us to sleep in their beds as their only way to thank us, we eventually agreed. I cant even descibe how much these kids grew to trust us over the trip, not only trust but love and build a strong relationship which grew to a family love. When we first got there they wouldnt even say hi to us, the older orphans jsut stood there with arms crossed and observed how we were... by the time we left they were crying and running to the gate along side our van waving. You see things liek this in movies, or hear about it in books or something, but to actually experience something like i did.... there is no words to describe how blessed i feel. I cant wait to go back to see these people i grew to lvoe so much. I pray that i get to go and see Frankie again b4 his time comes to leave earth... He was my buddy man, we were tight. And i didnt get to say good-bye. anyways i dont know how to explain everything that i'm feeling right now. these words left me, as well as you with not even a brief discription of my experience. my heart knows tho and wow... it hurts. but life goes on, and im extremely happy that i left knowing that i completed my mission to make those kids feel like princes and princesses. Not only did i complete that, i completed so much more....
I miss them... More than I think I've ever missed anything before. Which is hard to believe.
Summer is going fine, I need a job so I can just move out. I need a vehicale more than u could believe. I need to move away from Gilbert. I need to start my life over... I'm doing very well, however there is somethings that The Lord knocked on my heart about this last week that i really need to get kicked into gear.... but life is much easier left being said than done. if that makes since to anyone but myself feel free to let me know cuz i feel like a weirdo. But hey. As the kids in Mexico agreed to I am "una chica loca." =) dang right.
Oh dear, It seems like I express a lot however the insides are still bursting at the seams with things left unsaid. I need to learn to express them to the right person and express with an open heart.
Im so thankful for my angel. Everything about him makes the sun shine brighter in different golden hues on my life and it's an amazing feeling. I can't stand a moment with out him jsut like a friend said today we are inseparable I hope that lasts a lifetime. And all girls talk of lifetimes in their lives. and i've lived that realaitonship b4 and it's nothing. this is more than something. this is not just some phoney relationship. I truely know this is one from God.
I miss all my friends. And sometimes find myself missing lots of things about the past. NOt that im not satisfied with the present. Just everyone says friends and family is all u have in life... maybe that's what is lacking. who knows man.
I got a job however im stressing out about it. Hours will own my face and that's not going to be good with being a senior as well as doing massage therapy. there is lots of things i could write about this but basically i just need to pray. Ive got faith.
Im excited but anxious in a nervous way about starting my life. Like my future. Im doing massage therapy at EVIT next year and that will be my support system. I'd really appreciate my father helping out a little more for my life but I guess i cant ask too much. um that's about it. Basically an update cuz im pretty upset over missing the kids in mexico.
"Peace up. A-town Down"
I just got back from the experience of a lifetime. My first missions trip ever. And an amazing one. The reason im really writing in this thing is cuz i miss these kids i bonded with for a week so very much. They are so precious in every way. I was blessed with an opportunity to go to Agua Prieta, Sonora in Mexico to this orphanage which is called "The Ranch." Me and a group of 7 others from Word Of Grace played with these precious orphans who 5 years previous lived the life of hell. Not only did there living conditiosn make the life hell, but the girls were sold as prostitutes and were forced to be the moms, cooking and cleaning for the other kids. I mean everyone goes thru hell but some of the stories taht were told just makes us really look at life and realize how for granted we take things. Anyways we took about 12 of the orphans the new runners of the ranch named Ruban and Rosi and their daughter to Rocky Point to get away for 3 days. Every single one of these people have never in their life seen the ocean, let alone left the ranch excpet for church. So to feel their excitment on the 7 hour drive from Agua Prieta to Rocky Point was intese. We took them to their first resturaunt and that was really cute. Not only were they blessed with a beautiful vacation house right off the beach, but i was as well. Basically we bonded so much with these people leaving to go home was so hard. Now that I'm home i find myself sitting here crying cuz i miss these people. i felt like their family. Correction: I am their family. The last the girls wanted us to sleep in their beds as their only way to thank us, we eventually agreed. I cant even descibe how much these kids grew to trust us over the trip, not only trust but love and build a strong relationship which grew to a family love. When we first got there they wouldnt even say hi to us, the older orphans jsut stood there with arms crossed and observed how we were... by the time we left they were crying and running to the gate along side our van waving. You see things liek this in movies, or hear about it in books or something, but to actually experience something like i did.... there is no words to describe how blessed i feel. I cant wait to go back to see these people i grew to lvoe so much. I pray that i get to go and see Frankie again b4 his time comes to leave earth... He was my buddy man, we were tight. And i didnt get to say good-bye. anyways i dont know how to explain everything that i'm feeling right now. these words left me, as well as you with not even a brief discription of my experience. my heart knows tho and wow... it hurts. but life goes on, and im extremely happy that i left knowing that i completed my mission to make those kids feel like princes and princesses. Not only did i complete that, i completed so much more....
I miss them... More than I think I've ever missed anything before. Which is hard to believe.
Summer is going fine, I need a job so I can just move out. I need a vehicale more than u could believe. I need to move away from Gilbert. I need to start my life over... I'm doing very well, however there is somethings that The Lord knocked on my heart about this last week that i really need to get kicked into gear.... but life is much easier left being said than done. if that makes since to anyone but myself feel free to let me know cuz i feel like a weirdo. But hey. As the kids in Mexico agreed to I am "una chica loca." =) dang right.
Oh dear, It seems like I express a lot however the insides are still bursting at the seams with things left unsaid. I need to learn to express them to the right person and express with an open heart.
Im so thankful for my angel. Everything about him makes the sun shine brighter in different golden hues on my life and it's an amazing feeling. I can't stand a moment with out him jsut like a friend said today we are inseparable I hope that lasts a lifetime. And all girls talk of lifetimes in their lives. and i've lived that realaitonship b4 and it's nothing. this is more than something. this is not just some phoney relationship. I truely know this is one from God.
I miss all my friends. And sometimes find myself missing lots of things about the past. NOt that im not satisfied with the present. Just everyone says friends and family is all u have in life... maybe that's what is lacking. who knows man.
I got a job however im stressing out about it. Hours will own my face and that's not going to be good with being a senior as well as doing massage therapy. there is lots of things i could write about this but basically i just need to pray. Ive got faith.
Im excited but anxious in a nervous way about starting my life. Like my future. Im doing massage therapy at EVIT next year and that will be my support system. I'd really appreciate my father helping out a little more for my life but I guess i cant ask too much. um that's about it. Basically an update cuz im pretty upset over missing the kids in mexico.
"Peace up. A-town Down"