Be optimistic. Dontchya be a grumpy... Smile smile smile! :-D BE happy..
Well I haven't updated, nor been on the internet for awhile due to the fact that I turned the internet off because I don't want to pay 30 some dollars a month. But, now I have the internet again because my father is going to pay for it like a good man.
Not much has really gone on I guess. I went to The Used concert during my 2day break...woo hoo. I hung out with Stephanie and my mom one night. Then I hung out with Melissa, Misty, Matt, Jeff and Bryant one other night. Then on Sunday I went to a family birthday party thing. It was cool to catch up with the family. I'm like a total family person, and I guess I was born in to the wrong family, because ours is not very..."friendly" but there are times when some of us get together and it makes me really...happy. I got to introduce them to Blake, which is something important to me. I feel that them meeting him, and him meeting them is a very important thing, and so that made me smile. Kind of embarressed at the same time too though. Like, his family...and then myyy family..I don't know. But, yeah. Um, oh yeah I went to a movie and IHOP with Michelle and Josh. That was alright. I went to the Taking Back Sunday concert on Wednesday...VERY VERY amazing!!! Hmm, other then that... not to much. You know how I do.
On my birthday Blake took me to As You Wish and I thought we were going to lunch with his parents. I had NO clue...and he secretly invited Kristen, which was way cool because Kristen is an important person in my life and for her to meet him meant a lot to me. That was very fun, Kristen painted these wood letter things that spelt "LOVE" (aww) and Blake painted a Garrafe (so cute) and I painted this plate with butterflie things on it. WELL, after that Blake decides to drive me crazy by going to my house to change out of my pink pants in to jeans beacuse what we were going to do next would get my pink pants dirty. Well, we drive and drive and DRIVE to God knows where...and I'm just like wow where the heck are we going... and we get to like some mountain and im like hmm we are eating a mountain for dinner for my b-day, awesome...welllllllllll Then we pull up to this ranch thinggy with horses and im like wow!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I didnt even know what to say. I was just in awe... And so his family and I go on this like hour horse ride during the sunset to dinner, and the whole night I was so like...speechless, I never really knew what to say. It was so special. Then on the actual day of my birthday he got me a promise ring... and the card he got me made me want to cry and... wow. I don't know. Some people are probably like wow brittany your a materalistic bitch because I'm writing about what he got me...but it's not WHAT he GOT me its the thought he put behind everything that means SO MUCH to me. Anyways.
It's funny when you realize why someone was actually your "friend" Ugh people are annoying sometimes. When you get into relationships it doesnt mean you need to fall off the face of the earth. Real friends are happy for you and don't care if your boyfriend or girlfriend are with you...just be sure to make time for your friends too. It's not like we don't miss you or anything. :/ I don't know. I just know that when my bf and I do things we usually like to involve our friends, or at least I do, but I don't know it just goes to show how people truely are... Oh, well. Whatever makes people happy.
Lately, like as in the past two days I've been in pretty good moods, overall. I've made like 10 new friends in the past two days. I mean it's not liek they will be my hang out all the time friends, but they are amazing. I'm glad I got the opportunity to go to this confrence thing today, I met a lot of awesome people. I've realized I just want to have fun. I don't want to sit around thinking about what to do, I don't care I just want to be free and i just want to giggle and be as stupid as i want and not have anyone say a word about it, but just be stupid with me, it kills the fun in fun when you don't enjoy everything about life. I mean shit, we are breathing, we are able to smile, we are able to laugh and have a good time, so why not take advantage of it. Man oh man, like seriously, Im ready to change. I'm tired of the insecure, scared of what people think, sad about the people that I've "lost," brittany. I'm so tired of thinking about the past, the past hurts SO much, so why think about it... If somethign comes up and it's going to hurt then you know what...bring it. I've been through hell and probably worse, so if you want to test me, do it. I don't care. Try and hurt me, try and bring me down, because I know that you will lose. :-) I'm just that strong. And you're just that loserish if youre waisting time in bringing someone down rather then enjoying your life here on this beautiful place where their is air to breathe and an ability to laugh and think. So, I'm just going to be Brittany Michelle DEVERS-Tanner. That's who I am. And I'm going to sing like no one is listening and I'm going to love everyone, and it's going to be great. I'm tired of being jealous and insecure...so i'm going to change what im insecure about for ME. And it might not be something you know about but who cares. I don't care if people see a change in me or not, im not going to waste my time thinking about it. :-D So, anyways. That's about all I have to say for right now.
Much love to all.
Not much has really gone on I guess. I went to The Used concert during my 2day break...woo hoo. I hung out with Stephanie and my mom one night. Then I hung out with Melissa, Misty, Matt, Jeff and Bryant one other night. Then on Sunday I went to a family birthday party thing. It was cool to catch up with the family. I'm like a total family person, and I guess I was born in to the wrong family, because ours is not very..."friendly" but there are times when some of us get together and it makes me really...happy. I got to introduce them to Blake, which is something important to me. I feel that them meeting him, and him meeting them is a very important thing, and so that made me smile. Kind of embarressed at the same time too though. Like, his family...and then myyy family..I don't know. But, yeah. Um, oh yeah I went to a movie and IHOP with Michelle and Josh. That was alright. I went to the Taking Back Sunday concert on Wednesday...VERY VERY amazing!!! Hmm, other then that... not to much. You know how I do.
On my birthday Blake took me to As You Wish and I thought we were going to lunch with his parents. I had NO clue...and he secretly invited Kristen, which was way cool because Kristen is an important person in my life and for her to meet him meant a lot to me. That was very fun, Kristen painted these wood letter things that spelt "LOVE" (aww) and Blake painted a Garrafe (so cute) and I painted this plate with butterflie things on it. WELL, after that Blake decides to drive me crazy by going to my house to change out of my pink pants in to jeans beacuse what we were going to do next would get my pink pants dirty. Well, we drive and drive and DRIVE to God knows where...and I'm just like wow where the heck are we going... and we get to like some mountain and im like hmm we are eating a mountain for dinner for my b-day, awesome...welllllllllll Then we pull up to this ranch thinggy with horses and im like wow!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I didnt even know what to say. I was just in awe... And so his family and I go on this like hour horse ride during the sunset to dinner, and the whole night I was so like...speechless, I never really knew what to say. It was so special. Then on the actual day of my birthday he got me a promise ring... and the card he got me made me want to cry and... wow. I don't know. Some people are probably like wow brittany your a materalistic bitch because I'm writing about what he got me...but it's not WHAT he GOT me its the thought he put behind everything that means SO MUCH to me. Anyways.
It's funny when you realize why someone was actually your "friend" Ugh people are annoying sometimes. When you get into relationships it doesnt mean you need to fall off the face of the earth. Real friends are happy for you and don't care if your boyfriend or girlfriend are with you...just be sure to make time for your friends too. It's not like we don't miss you or anything. :/ I don't know. I just know that when my bf and I do things we usually like to involve our friends, or at least I do, but I don't know it just goes to show how people truely are... Oh, well. Whatever makes people happy.
Lately, like as in the past two days I've been in pretty good moods, overall. I've made like 10 new friends in the past two days. I mean it's not liek they will be my hang out all the time friends, but they are amazing. I'm glad I got the opportunity to go to this confrence thing today, I met a lot of awesome people. I've realized I just want to have fun. I don't want to sit around thinking about what to do, I don't care I just want to be free and i just want to giggle and be as stupid as i want and not have anyone say a word about it, but just be stupid with me, it kills the fun in fun when you don't enjoy everything about life. I mean shit, we are breathing, we are able to smile, we are able to laugh and have a good time, so why not take advantage of it. Man oh man, like seriously, Im ready to change. I'm tired of the insecure, scared of what people think, sad about the people that I've "lost," brittany. I'm so tired of thinking about the past, the past hurts SO much, so why think about it... If somethign comes up and it's going to hurt then you know what...bring it. I've been through hell and probably worse, so if you want to test me, do it. I don't care. Try and hurt me, try and bring me down, because I know that you will lose. :-) I'm just that strong. And you're just that loserish if youre waisting time in bringing someone down rather then enjoying your life here on this beautiful place where their is air to breathe and an ability to laugh and think. So, I'm just going to be Brittany Michelle DEVERS-Tanner. That's who I am. And I'm going to sing like no one is listening and I'm going to love everyone, and it's going to be great. I'm tired of being jealous and insecure...so i'm going to change what im insecure about for ME. And it might not be something you know about but who cares. I don't care if people see a change in me or not, im not going to waste my time thinking about it. :-D So, anyways. That's about all I have to say for right now.
Much love to all.