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well last week yall may know i tried to commit suicide it all started with all the things my siblings were doing and me not being like them so when i was writting the previous entry i started to get teary eyed and i while reading and typing that entry i started to think of suicide which at the time was lookin like the thing to do. So as i ended that entry i took some paper, pen, rope and headed straight outside to hang myself. as i was writing my note to the people whom i adored and wanted to say my last byes to i cried for a while and brought the lounge chair next to the tree and work my way up, and tried to fix the rope on the tree,just when i did that i heard my phone ring, which does not ring often and it was my EX and thats when i thought to myself while on the phone with him that killing myself was not the answer especially that he called too lol. so our convo ended and he said he will call me later which he did, and my bestfriend called just right after me and the ex ended our pre-make up session lol. i felt NEEDED i guess GOD really answers prayers that are truely needed if it wasnt for that phone call you would have never heard of me again. SO THAT WAS IT
i am a loser last week one of my friends read last weeks enrty and came to the conclusion that it was me!!! lol she came up to me last wednesday and whispered in my ear "COLORED_EMO ?? _____________ YOU ARE COLORED_EMO ?!?!" i turned around in shock like DAMN SOMEONE KNOWS MY SECRET IDENTITY !!! and i didnt say nuffin class ended and she confronted me on the user name and my problems which i told her to keep this between us 2 i dont want the rest of my friends on here to know who i am ..she agreed and just didnt understand how i was so torn inside but put on a act in school and decided from now on that she'll be hangin with me more i felt speacial.....now the ex and i are on the terms that we were before he asked me out but i dont know if i want to deal with him now.. theres a new guy who came from COOLIDGE and he remembers me from elementary school but i dont know him but me and him are talkin aswell a few girls are mad because since he's been to my school the first day i was the one wit hime ...YESS IT FEELS LIKE SOPHMORE YEAR ALL OVER AGAIN the friends the haters the boys it feels good ive been going pickin dudes tryin to find out wat me and the ex will do later its good for now hopefully it stays that way so this LJ may not been updated evryweek like i have been doin but ull never kno tomorrow is another day. . . .