no friends = no LIFE!!!
well saturday i wen to the HOWARD game it was great they lost..but it was cool...im upset none of the howard guys try to get at me my sister or our friends..lol they were not getting at any of us we looked cute to all of us had on our jeans w/ no back pockets so they could see our PHATTYS but i geuss they were not impressed...dont know why lol but we were all like why are they not lookin at us."mad that they are talkin to their cheerleaders..dont they see us!!" sounds petty but thats what we wanted.....but after the game we went to georgetown to eat and urban outfitters, we were looking for parties but none were available
so sunday i relly did not have tooo much planed exept get my hair done study clean up and thats it..just a chill day at home as USUAL.. but my sister had went out to the mall made me feel a little bad cause of course shes not going by herself shes going with her friends..so anhnour past since she has left and my mom left to and came back to take me the salon while we were waitng she told me "dont you have any friends" i told her yes they are at work...for some reason she thinks i dont have friends WHY i dont know but MAYBE SHE IS RIGHT....i mean really all those people i social with in school roam the hallways with get loud at lund and at the end of day with...ARE THEY REALLY MY FRIENDS????they never call , nor ever asked to hang with me SO WHAT ARE THEY ?!??! ASSOICIATES ......i believe so ...my so called friends are assoiciates..though half of them DO WORK but they dont work all day they should hang with me IM HANGABLE lol....BUT TO MY MOM so i tell her they're at work and shes like oh ok ...but the whole say today i was thinkin about it do i have friends NO ONLY ASSOCIATES....i get my hair done though and come back home study wait for my sis to arrive CAUSE I DONT GET PHONE CALLS AND SHE LETS ME TALK MY ASS OFF ABOUT ANYTHING SOMETIME....
````````````````THE CONCLUSION TO MY PROBLEM IS..................
get a man lol.......yea thats what i need ...i like hanging with boys any way so having a boyfriend would be nice so we can hang and stuff....so thats what i need......BUT WHO i still love my "hims" though they never call or expect me to call or have new girls of there own now ...but dammmit ...i need to let them go!! yes let them go cause im wasting my time thinkin MAYBE this and that will happen when at the end it doesnt :(.......even the new "him" i think i need to let him go seems asif ever since school started he hasnt been callin me like usual we usually talked every day in when school almost ended last year on the phone or on aim but now even when hes on aim he doesnt say nothing to me HOPE HE CALLS TONIGHT i love this guy so much he is great and i know he feels the same way too but he likes t oplay the field too much he needs to settle with me before its too late....yea right lol............tomorrow is school and there are some guys im my classes that i will like to be friends with and i will talk to them tommorow and new "him" is the 1 i want more of if he could leave these hoes alone