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Tonight was quite possibly one of the worst nights of my life. Seeing the people I love in the states they were in just made me feel like total shit. It seems love is nowhere to be found, and it definately isn't where it should be. I just want everything to be ok with everyone, especially with myself. I don't want to worry anymore. I shouldn't have to worry anymore. These nights need to stop. I never want to see you like this again.
Lauren, I love you. It's your birthday but because of me, it isn't going to be so happy.
Lauren, I love you. It's your birthday but because of me, it isn't going to be so happy.