look me in the eyes and tell me you dont find me attractive
look me in the heart and tell me you won't leave me.
Today i got up grumpy but i don't know why cause i had loads of fun last night haha. but i cleared out my whole room and rearranged it and i must say... it is much more comfortable to hang in now and i got out my old laptop and hopefully by next week i'll have the internet working in my room :-).
Uncle V apparently left Sam and I some money so now hopefully i can afford to get to camp and at least start on paying my parents back.
I should be employed in the next few weeks.
The coffee shop had the greatest bostom creme pie today too.
I almost killed my pregnant cat today driving up my driveway... not to mention almost wrecking my dad's mercedez haha but luckily everything is still alive and in good condition but man am i glad nobody was with me! whew!
i have so much to do this week its insane but at least it keeps me busy. i like to be busy it keeps things off of my mind. i like to keep some things off of my mind. i'm trying real hard to move on and i think i'll make it.
SIDE STORY:
so today i was in movie gallery and i was trying to find a movie NOT about love and that is nearly impossible in today's movie world but anyway as i was waiting in the long line to check out i was thinking about how people say when you say a word over and over it loses its meaning and you know, that is so true. i mean take any word and say it like 20 times and it no longer means anything... it is just a word and no matter what anyone says even the word "love" loses it's meaning. it's just a word that's it. i mean you meet someone, you fall in love, you take the good and the bad, you laugh and fight, and then one night one of you gets your heart broken, then you hurt alot and can't get it off of your mind and then a few months later you meet someone else, you fall in love, etc. etc. its a horrible cycle filled with a few happy moments and alot more painful ones for what? just to get hurt. i know what you're thinking.... what about marraige? i mean people who marry eachother love eachother forever. well...WRONG. marraige isn't love. it is an obligation. you are obligated to come home to the same person and sleep next to the same person all your life but come on.... after awhile youre just going through the motions and love isn't a factor its just routine. so why go through all this pain to just become obligated to be someone else's routine. i don't know about you but this is a waste of my time. i'd rather just be alone and independent and happy than to be with someone who is only with you because at one point in their life you gave them butterflies that eventually, too, got old and died.
yeah, yeah, yeah i'm a cynical bitch...bite me haha. i am just putting out there what all you hopeful romantics are too afraid to admit. so beleive me or not but someday you will find out for yourself. you have been warned... the whole notion of love and hearts being bound, and soul mates blah blah blah is just a lie to bring a male and a female together for all of their lives so they can keep the human race growing and the cycle goes on forever and ever and ever ....you get the idea.
Today i got up grumpy but i don't know why cause i had loads of fun last night haha. but i cleared out my whole room and rearranged it and i must say... it is much more comfortable to hang in now and i got out my old laptop and hopefully by next week i'll have the internet working in my room :-).
Uncle V apparently left Sam and I some money so now hopefully i can afford to get to camp and at least start on paying my parents back.
I should be employed in the next few weeks.
The coffee shop had the greatest bostom creme pie today too.
I almost killed my pregnant cat today driving up my driveway... not to mention almost wrecking my dad's mercedez haha but luckily everything is still alive and in good condition but man am i glad nobody was with me! whew!
i have so much to do this week its insane but at least it keeps me busy. i like to be busy it keeps things off of my mind. i like to keep some things off of my mind. i'm trying real hard to move on and i think i'll make it.
SIDE STORY:
so today i was in movie gallery and i was trying to find a movie NOT about love and that is nearly impossible in today's movie world but anyway as i was waiting in the long line to check out i was thinking about how people say when you say a word over and over it loses its meaning and you know, that is so true. i mean take any word and say it like 20 times and it no longer means anything... it is just a word and no matter what anyone says even the word "love" loses it's meaning. it's just a word that's it. i mean you meet someone, you fall in love, you take the good and the bad, you laugh and fight, and then one night one of you gets your heart broken, then you hurt alot and can't get it off of your mind and then a few months later you meet someone else, you fall in love, etc. etc. its a horrible cycle filled with a few happy moments and alot more painful ones for what? just to get hurt. i know what you're thinking.... what about marraige? i mean people who marry eachother love eachother forever. well...WRONG. marraige isn't love. it is an obligation. you are obligated to come home to the same person and sleep next to the same person all your life but come on.... after awhile youre just going through the motions and love isn't a factor its just routine. so why go through all this pain to just become obligated to be someone else's routine. i don't know about you but this is a waste of my time. i'd rather just be alone and independent and happy than to be with someone who is only with you because at one point in their life you gave them butterflies that eventually, too, got old and died.
yeah, yeah, yeah i'm a cynical bitch...bite me haha. i am just putting out there what all you hopeful romantics are too afraid to admit. so beleive me or not but someday you will find out for yourself. you have been warned... the whole notion of love and hearts being bound, and soul mates blah blah blah is just a lie to bring a male and a female together for all of their lives so they can keep the human race growing and the cycle goes on forever and ever and ever ....you get the idea.