May 25, 2007 00:43
Wow, things have been busy. In the past 5 days I have been to a wedding and a funeral. These events have sparked questions in my mind...so I thought I would put down, maybe someday I will be able to answer them.
Have you ever.....
...thought about your own funeral and what would be said...who would be there?
...thought you knew someone, only to start questioning yourself later?
...felt like you have lost one of the most important things in your life?
...wondered what your purpose in life really is?
...thought you would never lose touch with someone, only to feel so sad when you realize it has already started to happen?
...wished you could go back in time and change things?
...wondered if you would ever find someone that would complete you and make you happy for the rest of your life?
...wondered if any of the choices you made in the past were the right choices to make?
...wanted to contact someone, but not feel like you are in the way?
...missed someone so bad it hurt?
...felt left out of the world around you?
...felt like you don't belong anywhere?
...wondered if they miss you too?
...realized that you have more in common with someone then you realized when you first knew them?
...come to realize that you will never know anybody as close as you think you do?
...what it would be like if you just disappeared?
I just don't know things in my life have been crazy busy and it just seems as if things and people keep slipping further and further away from me. I don't like it, but what can I do. I am just treading water, hoping to stay afloat.