Sooooo
kinda pissed off, i was supposed to go to florida on friday but now im not going. I really wanted to go and get the fuck out of here, i hate albany. I wanted to see someplace new, but i mean now i dont think im going to go at all. So that really blows.
We lost our lax game monday so we cant go to the championship game which salts the wound.
my job sucks ass today was the worst day ever there. i fucking hate everyone i work with. Except bill and james. everyone else is a real douche bag. my boss was screaming say i wasnt working when i did almost everything. everyone else didnt do half the shit i did. but because i wasnt running to everything i all of a sudden am not doing anything at all, fuck him idc he can suck my dick
me and alyssa are starting to talk more which is really cool, i really miss her, i didnt really realize it till i spoke to her though. it just takes one flashback and the memories just come pouring in. it was good and bad at the same time, because i was happy and then sad but i mean the happy point was the happiest ive been since ive been with her.
My finger is all fucked up, i guess its infected now. so now i have to focus on keeping it clean which blows cuz of work theyre constantly dirty.
next friday is my last day with c & d. i cant say i'll miss it at all. by far its the worst experience of my entire life. i hate the fucking place.
my rents are trying to work it out i guess, my moms back living with us but i wonder how long it'll last this time. i dont really care n e more cuz when theyre together they fight and when theyre split up they fight. and now my dad thinks hes some type of party animal so hes always out and i never see him. and because my mom doesnt usually live here i dont see her either.
my parents try to act like they know me so well. neither of em ever takes the time to sit down and talk to me, yea you speak to me briefly or get in my face and yell to try to intimidate me but neither of knows shit about me. Ive just about given up on them, theyre hopeless. It sounds like their not so bad but youd have to see my whole life. ive always been the one who wasnt good enough, and imagine sitting their waiting for a ride home and then getting cursed out because they didnt have time to fit you into their schedule, although all they were all doing was laying down. or all ur money constantly stolen and not returned. barely n e thing at all. theyre in their own worlds and im tired of trying to fit in with them
i went to see spiderman 2 with shanna, it was a good movie, really enjoyed it, deff better than the 1st, kept you wondering as to what was going to happen.
ive been going to lake george the last to weekends, theyres a lot of pretty girls there but im not even really interested. im looking for that certain something, so far ive only seen it once
i feel like im such a pest, i feel like all im doing is bothering people. i dont know i wanna get the fuck out of n.y. i dont really feel like i have n e thing holding me back here n e more, theres just nothing really benefitting me at all here. i hate the area and i hate the way it seems like i cant get anything accomplished.
my rents are flipping out now, w.e going to bed pz
We lost our lax game monday so we cant go to the championship game which salts the wound.
my job sucks ass today was the worst day ever there. i fucking hate everyone i work with. Except bill and james. everyone else is a real douche bag. my boss was screaming say i wasnt working when i did almost everything. everyone else didnt do half the shit i did. but because i wasnt running to everything i all of a sudden am not doing anything at all, fuck him idc he can suck my dick
me and alyssa are starting to talk more which is really cool, i really miss her, i didnt really realize it till i spoke to her though. it just takes one flashback and the memories just come pouring in. it was good and bad at the same time, because i was happy and then sad but i mean the happy point was the happiest ive been since ive been with her.
My finger is all fucked up, i guess its infected now. so now i have to focus on keeping it clean which blows cuz of work theyre constantly dirty.
next friday is my last day with c & d. i cant say i'll miss it at all. by far its the worst experience of my entire life. i hate the fucking place.
my rents are trying to work it out i guess, my moms back living with us but i wonder how long it'll last this time. i dont really care n e more cuz when theyre together they fight and when theyre split up they fight. and now my dad thinks hes some type of party animal so hes always out and i never see him. and because my mom doesnt usually live here i dont see her either.
my parents try to act like they know me so well. neither of em ever takes the time to sit down and talk to me, yea you speak to me briefly or get in my face and yell to try to intimidate me but neither of knows shit about me. Ive just about given up on them, theyre hopeless. It sounds like their not so bad but youd have to see my whole life. ive always been the one who wasnt good enough, and imagine sitting their waiting for a ride home and then getting cursed out because they didnt have time to fit you into their schedule, although all they were all doing was laying down. or all ur money constantly stolen and not returned. barely n e thing at all. theyre in their own worlds and im tired of trying to fit in with them
i went to see spiderman 2 with shanna, it was a good movie, really enjoyed it, deff better than the 1st, kept you wondering as to what was going to happen.
ive been going to lake george the last to weekends, theyres a lot of pretty girls there but im not even really interested. im looking for that certain something, so far ive only seen it once
i feel like im such a pest, i feel like all im doing is bothering people. i dont know i wanna get the fuck out of n.y. i dont really feel like i have n e thing holding me back here n e more, theres just nothing really benefitting me at all here. i hate the area and i hate the way it seems like i cant get anything accomplished.
my rents are flipping out now, w.e going to bed pz