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11:53:18 PM John (colonelinblack): Hey, Stark...
11:53:52 PM Stark (recoveringace): Hey, you. So, talk to me. What can I do to cheer you up?
11:54:15 PM John (colonelinblack): Bring me ice cream?
11:54:28 PM Stark (recoveringace): I think I have some in the fridge actually...
11:54:53 PM John (colonelinblack): Those freaking freeze dried ice cream things are so not the same
11:55:27 PM John (colonelinblack): I remember thinking they were really cool way back...
11:55:36 PM John (colonelinblack): Now I just want the real thing
11:55:55 PM Stark (recoveringace): If I knew a way to get it to you, I do have some Cherry Garcia and neapolitan in here.
11:56:31 PM John (colonelinblack): Ha, Pepper sent me some cookies on the Daedalus.. but don't worry about it, I'll live.
11:56:56 PM Stark (recoveringace): Well whenever I manage to haul my ass that direction, I'll bring the big tub of ice cream just for you. ;-)
11:57:08 PM John (colonelinblack): Thanks, dear.
11:57:26 PM John (colonelinblack): I fucked up, Stark.
11:57:41 PM John (colonelinblack): I mean, I fuck up all the time, but it's never.. this bad. I never feel this way
11:58:00 PM Stark (recoveringace): What happened?
11:58:21 PM John (colonelinblack): Oh, god, I'm so stupid
11:58:55 PM John (colonelinblack): I should just resign and fuck off Atlantis, the universe would probably thank me
12:00:25 AM Stark (recoveringace): Yeah and you would be miserable and bored for the rest of your life.
12:00:36 AM John (colonelinblack): And I would deserve it
12:01:15 AM Stark (recoveringace): No, you wouldn't.
12:02:17 AM John (colonelinblack): I beg to differ
12:02:27 AM Stark (recoveringace): What exactly did you do that's so horrible?
12:03:32 AM John (colonelinblack): I...
12:03:51 AM John (colonelinblack): I lied to someone
12:04:00 AM John (colonelinblack): About something... epically stupid
12:04:09 AM John (colonelinblack): And then, I maybe would have been okay except that
12:04:12 AM John (colonelinblack): I told him I lied
12:04:30 AM John (colonelinblack): But I shouldn't have.. lied. Obviously
12:04:53 AM Stark (recoveringace): ...everyone lies about something now and then, John. It happens. For various reasons. It's not the end of the world.
12:05:57 AM John (colonelinblack): I kissed McKay.
12:06:03 AM John (colonelinblack): Jesus, what the fuck is wrong with me?
12:06:14 AM Stark (recoveringace): Nothing. I kissed my partner.
12:06:24 AM John (colonelinblack): That's not the same
12:06:54 AM Stark (recoveringace): Enlighten me.
12:07:43 AM John (colonelinblack): Well, you're dating him for one
12:07:52 AM John (colonelinblack): ... he isn't a girl, for another
12:08:06 AM Stark (recoveringace): Well I am now, I wasn't at the time he made me do it.
12:08:17 AM John (colonelinblack): He made you kiss him?
12:08:22 AM Stark (recoveringace): He sort of baited me into it.
12:08:28 AM John (colonelinblack): Great
12:08:39 AM Stark (recoveringace): Yeah, um, he's sort of a sneaky bastard on occasion.
12:09:13 AM Stark (recoveringace): But are we talking 'this is something that happened while I was drunk and it means nothing' or 'I actually have feelings for this guy' something.
12:09:47 AM John (colonelinblack): I...
12:09:54 AM John (colonelinblack): Is both an acceptable answer>
12:09:57 AM John (colonelinblack): ?*
12:10:03 AM Stark (recoveringace): Absolutely.
12:10:33 AM Stark (recoveringace): You can't help who you love, you know? It just happens. And I don't think it really matters who it is, if it's the person you really care about.
12:10:43 AM John (colonelinblack): I told him I didn't remember. I must be the biggest asshole this side of the Milky Way.
12:10:56 AM John (colonelinblack): Whichever.. side, that is..
12:12:07 AM Stark (recoveringace): It's understandable. Obviously it's something you're having a hard time figuring out. You freaked out.
12:12:55 AM John (colonelinblack): The device... it's getting worse. I can't do anything without the guy, and now he hates me.
12:13:37 AM Stark (recoveringace): I would say you two need to figure out how to stop that thing and then, when it's all over, then you can sit around and talk about it. But you're not going to get anywhere when you're being all messed up by whatever that...thing...is.
12:14:42 AM John (colonelinblack): Well, it's a catch-22
12:14:52 AM John (colonelinblack): Because we can't fix the device without each other
12:15:00 AM John (colonelinblack): I know that much
12:17:53 AM Stark (recoveringace): You guys need to put everything else aside right now and work on it, then. Whatever is going on between you, taking care of the issue at hand should be the priority. I mean...you can't fight each other while everything just gets worse.
12:19:25 AM John (colonelinblack): Hell if we can't... then again, I know McKay will come around. He can't stand being miserable for long. But I.. this is my fault and I should fix it, but he doesn't want to see me..
12:20:44 AM John (colonelinblack): I forgot what the panicking was like. We were.. having so much fun.
12:22:14 AM Stark (recoveringace): I think at least for everyone else, you two have to put that aside and fix the problem. Then just sit down and be honest with him. Tell him what's going through your head. People make mistakes, especially when it comes to really important and scary things. I've screwed up a lot of things in my life. More than you probably know.
12:23:19 AM John (colonelinblack): What if he doesn't forgive me? I don't want him to be reassigned... I don't. I won't work with anyone else. No one's as smart as he is, and he'll tell you so himself
12:26:21 AM Stark (recoveringace): I think you're getting ahead of yourself.
12:26:35 AM Stark (recoveringace): Besides, you don't want my advice on how to deal with office politics.
12:26:52 AM John (colonelinblack): I think this steps a little beyond "politics"
12:26:58 AM John (colonelinblack): Far beyond "office"
12:27:06 AM Stark (recoveringace): You know what I mean.
12:27:09 AM John (colonelinblack): Maybe
12:27:39 AM Stark (recoveringace): I've had my partner reassigned, remember?
12:27:48 AM John (colonelinblack): I know
12:28:13 AM John (colonelinblack): I'm sorry, I don't mean to be so melodramatic... but I can't help it, this thing. Amplifies emotions...
12:28:46 AM Stark (recoveringace): Not the good ones, apparently?
12:28:59 AM John (colonelinblack): All of them
12:29:08 AM John (colonelinblack): I don't have any good ones to amplify just now
12:30:38 AM Stark (recoveringace): I was going to say I haven't noticed any glee running around.
12:31:14 AM John (colonelinblack): It has you know, before this. I know I've been a little.. over the top recently
12:32:18 AM Stark (recoveringace): Admittedly, between my dye job and my...social calendar I've been a little less observant.
12:32:53 AM John (colonelinblack): It's alright, I don't even pick up the nuances in my own mood apparently
12:33:46 AM John (colonelinblack): Do you think I just should have... let him think I didn't remember?
12:35:40 AM Stark (recoveringace): I don't know him, but -- who knows? If he's having as confused a reaction as you are, then maybe yeah, you should have just let it lie. Take it slow.
12:35:51 AM Stark (recoveringace): I mean even John and I are still sort of...feeling each other out.
12:36:08 AM John (colonelinblack): Nice wording
12:36:57 AM Stark (recoveringace): What? It's true.
12:37:24 AM Stark (recoveringace): That wasn't a euphemism, I mean that we really don't know what we're doing.
12:38:31 AM John (colonelinblack): I know, I was just being a dick
12:38:38 AM Stark (recoveringace): *laughs*
12:38:40 AM John (colonelinblack): It's what I'm good at
12:38:47 AM Stark (recoveringace): Oh you're good at a lot, John.
12:39:09 AM John (colonelinblack): I'm good at shooting people
12:39:15 AM John (colonelinblack): And fucking things up
12:39:23 AM John (colonelinblack): Sometimes the two coincide
12:42:21 AM Stark (recoveringace): I would think you're good at more than that, my friend.
12:44:46 AM John (colonelinblack): I don't want to hear it, Stark
12:44:51 AM John (colonelinblack): I lost my best friend
12:45:02 AM Stark (recoveringace): No, you didn't.
12:45:08 AM Stark (recoveringace): That's just giving up.
12:45:56 AM John (colonelinblack): You can count on one thing in the universe.... and that is that I don't give up. Not ever.
12:46:25 AM Stark (recoveringace): Then don't start talking like everything is over when it's not.
12:46:35 AM John (colonelinblack): But what if it is?
12:46:56 AM John (colonelinblack): I shattered his trust in me
12:48:24 AM Stark (recoveringace): You are seriously the most negative person on the planet.
12:48:43 AM John (colonelinblack): That's because you haven't met McKay
12:48:53 AM John (colonelinblack): And I'm not on your planet so.
12:49:00 AM John (colonelinblack): Not even relevant
12:49:21 AM Stark (recoveringace): Go ahead and give me attitude if it makes you feel better.
12:49:57 AM John (colonelinblack): Sorry, I don't mean it...
12:50:20 AM John (colonelinblack): I.. I should just go, I'm raining on your parade
12:50:53 AM Stark (recoveringace): I can only help you if you want to help yourself. But if you're gonna go down, I'm not going down with you.
12:52:56 AM John (colonelinblack): I wouldn't ask you to
12:53:06 AM John (colonelinblack): If Ship Shep is going down, it's a lone sinker
12:54:02 AM Stark (recoveringace): You need to decide if you're gonna fight or not. But you're the only person that can make that decision.
12:54:16 AM Stark (recoveringace): But I care about you too much to sit around while you hate yourself when there's no reason to.
12:54:59 AM John (colonelinblack): ...did I mention the device makes us miserable when we're apart? Because I totally remember disclosing that part.
12:55:29 AM Stark (recoveringace): And you need to look deep down inside yourself and be stronger than a freaking machine.
12:56:29 AM John (colonelinblack): You're right, give me a sec...
1:03:16 AM John (colonelinblack): I'm sorry
1:05:16 AM Stark (recoveringace): It's okay. It's been a long day for me, I'm sure I'm a little snappish myself.
1:08:13 AM John (colonelinblack): Don't worry about it...
1:08:36 AM Stark (recoveringace): At least my hair looks normal now, and it could have gone a lot worse, I guess.
1:08:54 AM John (colonelinblack): Heh, yeah, blonde is not your color
1:09:26 AM Stark (recoveringace): It really isn't. Whenever Richards gets over the flu, she owes me bigtime. I had to drive an SUV and storm a practical PTA meeting.
1:09:56 AM John (colonelinblack): ...Wow
1:09:59 AM Stark (recoveringace): Not to mention, Paul in GTF is still laughing, and well...god only knows what my boyfriend thinks.
1:10:05 AM Stark (recoveringace): Yeah. Prep school drug bust. Yay.
1:10:48 AM John (colonelinblack): Yay indeed
1:12:36 AM Stark (recoveringace): Never, ever, ever again.
1:12:57 AM John (colonelinblack): Tell me about it
1:13:07 AM Stark (recoveringace): We do say that a lot don't we.
1:13:10 AM Stark (recoveringace): And then it happens again.
1:13:29 AM John (colonelinblack): Again and again and again and....
1:13:47 AM Stark (recoveringace): Yeah. The universe just doesn't like us somedays.
1:14:20 AM John (colonelinblack): Or anyday, really
1:14:46 AM Stark (recoveringace): I dunno, the last couple of weeks haven't been too bad of course I've been shutting up so I don't make you all sick with my happiness.
1:15:12 AM John (colonelinblack): I've noticed anyway - it's cute
1:15:35 AM Stark (recoveringace): *blushes and shakes her head* I keep thinking I'm gonna wake up.
1:15:51 AM John (colonelinblack): Here's hoping you don't
1:17:37 AM Stark (recoveringace): Yeah. I have no idea what I'm doing. I haven't been in love since...'97.
1:18:13 AM John (colonelinblack): I haven't been in love since... 199..around there, really
1:18:37 AM Stark (recoveringace): Oooh, Ripken just got named the greatest Oriole ever. *is quite pleased*
1:18:45 AM Stark (recoveringace): Yeah. It, um, I sort of skipped that for a long, long, long time.
1:19:10 AM John (colonelinblack): Difference is, I had sex and you didn't, right?
1:19:29 AM Stark (recoveringace): Pretty much, yeah. I had a decided lack of opportunities.
1:19:37 AM Stark (recoveringace): That later became complete apathy.
1:19:48 AM John (colonelinblack): Yeah...
1:20:35 AM Stark (recoveringace): I'm pretty sure you don't want to hear about my sex life, though.
1:20:45 AM Stark (recoveringace): Sorry, I'm watching the Orioles love on Baseball Tonight.
1:20:49 AM John (colonelinblack): I could do without, for the moment
1:20:53 AM John (colonelinblack): It's alright
1:21:01 AM John (colonelinblack): I know I'm not exactly fun tonight
1:21:25 AM Stark (recoveringace): Well, they're my team, you know, I sort of space out when they come up. It's not your fault!
1:21:33 AM Stark (recoveringace): Besides, you were there to listen to me cry like a girl the other day.
1:22:30 AM John (colonelinblack): Guess it's my turn
1:22:43 AM Stark (recoveringace): Anytime. You know there's nothing I wouldn't do for you.
1:23:03 AM John (colonelinblack): I do
1:23:42 AM Stark (recoveringace): When you get out here, I might even attempt cooking.
1:23:58 AM John (colonelinblack): Scary...
1:24:05 AM Stark (recoveringace): It can be!
1:24:08 AM John (colonelinblack): I can cook, you know
1:24:17 AM Stark (recoveringace): Well then you're better than me. *laughs*
1:24:27 AM John (colonelinblack): *lol* I'll help you
1:24:42 AM Stark (recoveringace): We should totally make brownies. Everything is better with chocolate.
1:24:56 AM John (colonelinblack): Wholeheartedly agreed
1:25:08 AM John (colonelinblack): I hope McKay comes to Earth with me
1:25:18 AM John (colonelinblack): He was going to help me soup up this great car
1:25:25 AM Stark (recoveringace): Really? Sweet.
1:25:53 AM John (colonelinblack): We have a plan to make a glorified bat mobile out of ancient tech, blood, sweat, tears, and a Mustang Shelby
1:26:03 AM Stark (recoveringace): Now that would be like the coolest thing ever.
1:26:11 AM Stark (recoveringace): I drive an Impala. It is not cool, but it is functional.
1:26:15 AM John (colonelinblack): Oh tell me something I don't know
1:26:19 AM John (colonelinblack): Ew, really?
1:26:23 AM John (colonelinblack): An Impala?
1:26:31 AM Stark (recoveringace): Yes, sadly. It's not bad.
1:26:33 AM John (colonelinblack): What does that top out at?
1:26:40 AM John (colonelinblack): Speed-wise
1:27:27 AM Stark (recoveringace): 140, roughly.
1:27:45 AM John (colonelinblack): Ew.
1:27:54 AM Stark (recoveringace): I know, to you that's like, geriatric.
1:28:05 AM John (colonelinblack): It really, seriously is
1:28:14 AM John (colonelinblack): Not worth it unless its over 200 mph, as they say
1:28:16 AM John (colonelinblack): They being me
1:28:26 AM Stark (recoveringace): *laughs* I'll take you with me the next time I go car shopping.
1:28:35 AM John (colonelinblack): Sweet
1:29:24 AM John (colonelinblack): Although, I'm about to spend my life savings on this Shelby so, you may not want me around for sound judgments
1:29:41 AM Stark (recoveringace): *grins* You'd probably tell me to go buy something shiny and huge.
1:30:02 AM John (colonelinblack): Doesn't have to be huge, just fast
1:30:53 AM Stark (recoveringace): Well, the Impala's been holding up well over the years, then again it isn't my Bureau car so...yeah.
1:30:57 AM Stark (recoveringace): I have run the tires off a few of those.
1:31:19 AM John (colonelinblack): Nice
1:31:31 AM John (colonelinblack): But until you've wrecked a jumper...
1:31:41 AM John (colonelinblack): You haven't lived
1:31:48 AM John (colonelinblack): in a really close to death way, anyhow
1:32:08 AM Stark (recoveringace): *snickers* I meant to ask: what's up with the whole black leather thing, anyway? Is that like, militarily in vogue these days?
1:32:32 AM John (colonelinblack): Black leather's a classic
1:32:46 AM John (colonelinblack): Durable, stealthy and fashionable
1:33:16 AM Stark (recoveringace): I admit to owning the jacket, but when we get into full wardrobe territory I think I'd just look lame.
1:33:27 AM John (colonelinblack): Most people do
1:33:32 AM John (colonelinblack): I could so pull it off
1:33:51 AM Stark (recoveringace): You could. Me...eh.
1:33:56 AM John (colonelinblack): .....when I was 23
1:34:03 AM Stark (recoveringace): Oh please. You still have it.
1:34:13 AM John (colonelinblack): Yeah, we'll see
1:34:43 AM Stark (recoveringace): Well I think so.
1:34:49 AM Stark (recoveringace): I've never exactly been a fashion plate.
1:35:00 AM John (colonelinblack): It's overrated
1:35:24 AM John (colonelinblack): I'm in uniform 24/7 anyway
1:35:57 AM Stark (recoveringace): I'm in suits most of the time. Unless I'm playing a paintball match. I don't really bother to change when I get home.
1:36:04 AM Stark (recoveringace): 'Cause by then it's almost always late.
1:36:28 AM John (colonelinblack): Yeah, I know the feeling
1:36:53 AM John (colonelinblack): I mean, my "home" is a 10x10 cube on a corridor, but...
1:36:57 AM John (colonelinblack): Yeah
1:37:11 AM Stark (recoveringace): You can come over and crash at my slightly disorganized house.
1:37:22 AM John (colonelinblack): I was planning on it
1:37:28 AM John (colonelinblack): For a night or so anyway
1:38:00 AM Stark (recoveringace): I have enough room, I'll just have to make sure to clean up the organized chaos first.
1:38:20 AM John (colonelinblack): Don't go through too much trouble just for me, now
1:38:37 AM Stark (recoveringace): Please, you don't need to be surrounded by all this stuff.
1:39:26 AM John (colonelinblack): I like stuff
1:39:58 AM Stark (recoveringace): It's all notes, textbooks, issues of Sports Illustrated...except for the one I framed...
1:41:24 AM John (colonelinblack): Really, I'm like a dog. Give me a corner of the floor and I'm happy... if I bring McKay with me, however, then you're fucked. He'll never stop bitching about how inadequate the mattress is or how lame ...something else is. Always fucking something with Canadians, isn't it?
1:41:49 AM Stark (recoveringace): *laughs* I dunno, I met Ed Robertson once and he seemed pretty genial.
1:42:10 AM John (colonelinblack): Maybe it's just him then.
1:42:14 AM John (colonelinblack): I usually blame Canada
1:42:18 AM John (colonelinblack): For simplicity
1:42:33 AM Stark (recoveringace): To be fair, Ed Robertson is the lead singer of a band of crazy people.
1:43:42 AM John (colonelinblack): Hey, minus the singer, that's me
1:43:47 AM John (colonelinblack): So who am I to judge?
1:44:02 AM Stark (recoveringace): *grins* I'm a little crazy, but I have the sanest person in the world to balance me out.
1:44:23 AM John (colonelinblack): ...and I have the only man crazier
1:44:41 AM Stark (recoveringace): Well life works in mysterious ways, as I have learned well over the last couple of weeks.
1:45:02 AM John (colonelinblack): I'm not attracted to sane or normal, never have been
1:45:26 AM Stark (recoveringace): It works for me, though, to hear him tell it, it was his idea first.
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11:53:52 PM Stark (recoveringace): Hey, you. So, talk to me. What can I do to cheer you up?
11:54:15 PM John (colonelinblack): Bring me ice cream?
11:54:28 PM Stark (recoveringace): I think I have some in the fridge actually...
11:54:53 PM John (colonelinblack): Those freaking freeze dried ice cream things are so not the same
11:55:27 PM John (colonelinblack): I remember thinking they were really cool way back...
11:55:36 PM John (colonelinblack): Now I just want the real thing
11:55:55 PM Stark (recoveringace): If I knew a way to get it to you, I do have some Cherry Garcia and neapolitan in here.
11:56:31 PM John (colonelinblack): Ha, Pepper sent me some cookies on the Daedalus.. but don't worry about it, I'll live.
11:56:56 PM Stark (recoveringace): Well whenever I manage to haul my ass that direction, I'll bring the big tub of ice cream just for you. ;-)
11:57:08 PM John (colonelinblack): Thanks, dear.
11:57:26 PM John (colonelinblack): I fucked up, Stark.
11:57:41 PM John (colonelinblack): I mean, I fuck up all the time, but it's never.. this bad. I never feel this way
11:58:00 PM Stark (recoveringace): What happened?
11:58:21 PM John (colonelinblack): Oh, god, I'm so stupid
11:58:55 PM John (colonelinblack): I should just resign and fuck off Atlantis, the universe would probably thank me
12:00:25 AM Stark (recoveringace): Yeah and you would be miserable and bored for the rest of your life.
12:00:36 AM John (colonelinblack): And I would deserve it
12:01:15 AM Stark (recoveringace): No, you wouldn't.
12:02:17 AM John (colonelinblack): I beg to differ
12:02:27 AM Stark (recoveringace): What exactly did you do that's so horrible?
12:03:32 AM John (colonelinblack): I...
12:03:51 AM John (colonelinblack): I lied to someone
12:04:00 AM John (colonelinblack): About something... epically stupid
12:04:09 AM John (colonelinblack): And then, I maybe would have been okay except that
12:04:12 AM John (colonelinblack): I told him I lied
12:04:30 AM John (colonelinblack): But I shouldn't have.. lied. Obviously
12:04:53 AM Stark (recoveringace): ...everyone lies about something now and then, John. It happens. For various reasons. It's not the end of the world.
12:05:57 AM John (colonelinblack): I kissed McKay.
12:06:03 AM John (colonelinblack): Jesus, what the fuck is wrong with me?
12:06:14 AM Stark (recoveringace): Nothing. I kissed my partner.
12:06:24 AM John (colonelinblack): That's not the same
12:06:54 AM Stark (recoveringace): Enlighten me.
12:07:43 AM John (colonelinblack): Well, you're dating him for one
12:07:52 AM John (colonelinblack): ... he isn't a girl, for another
12:08:06 AM Stark (recoveringace): Well I am now, I wasn't at the time he made me do it.
12:08:17 AM John (colonelinblack): He made you kiss him?
12:08:22 AM Stark (recoveringace): He sort of baited me into it.
12:08:28 AM John (colonelinblack): Great
12:08:39 AM Stark (recoveringace): Yeah, um, he's sort of a sneaky bastard on occasion.
12:09:13 AM Stark (recoveringace): But are we talking 'this is something that happened while I was drunk and it means nothing' or 'I actually have feelings for this guy' something.
12:09:47 AM John (colonelinblack): I...
12:09:54 AM John (colonelinblack): Is both an acceptable answer>
12:09:57 AM John (colonelinblack): ?*
12:10:03 AM Stark (recoveringace): Absolutely.
12:10:33 AM Stark (recoveringace): You can't help who you love, you know? It just happens. And I don't think it really matters who it is, if it's the person you really care about.
12:10:43 AM John (colonelinblack): I told him I didn't remember. I must be the biggest asshole this side of the Milky Way.
12:10:56 AM John (colonelinblack): Whichever.. side, that is..
12:12:07 AM Stark (recoveringace): It's understandable. Obviously it's something you're having a hard time figuring out. You freaked out.
12:12:55 AM John (colonelinblack): The device... it's getting worse. I can't do anything without the guy, and now he hates me.
12:13:37 AM Stark (recoveringace): I would say you two need to figure out how to stop that thing and then, when it's all over, then you can sit around and talk about it. But you're not going to get anywhere when you're being all messed up by whatever that...thing...is.
12:14:42 AM John (colonelinblack): Well, it's a catch-22
12:14:52 AM John (colonelinblack): Because we can't fix the device without each other
12:15:00 AM John (colonelinblack): I know that much
12:17:53 AM Stark (recoveringace): You guys need to put everything else aside right now and work on it, then. Whatever is going on between you, taking care of the issue at hand should be the priority. I mean...you can't fight each other while everything just gets worse.
12:19:25 AM John (colonelinblack): Hell if we can't... then again, I know McKay will come around. He can't stand being miserable for long. But I.. this is my fault and I should fix it, but he doesn't want to see me..
12:20:44 AM John (colonelinblack): I forgot what the panicking was like. We were.. having so much fun.
12:22:14 AM Stark (recoveringace): I think at least for everyone else, you two have to put that aside and fix the problem. Then just sit down and be honest with him. Tell him what's going through your head. People make mistakes, especially when it comes to really important and scary things. I've screwed up a lot of things in my life. More than you probably know.
12:23:19 AM John (colonelinblack): What if he doesn't forgive me? I don't want him to be reassigned... I don't. I won't work with anyone else. No one's as smart as he is, and he'll tell you so himself
12:26:21 AM Stark (recoveringace): I think you're getting ahead of yourself.
12:26:35 AM Stark (recoveringace): Besides, you don't want my advice on how to deal with office politics.
12:26:52 AM John (colonelinblack): I think this steps a little beyond "politics"
12:26:58 AM John (colonelinblack): Far beyond "office"
12:27:06 AM Stark (recoveringace): You know what I mean.
12:27:09 AM John (colonelinblack): Maybe
12:27:39 AM Stark (recoveringace): I've had my partner reassigned, remember?
12:27:48 AM John (colonelinblack): I know
12:28:13 AM John (colonelinblack): I'm sorry, I don't mean to be so melodramatic... but I can't help it, this thing. Amplifies emotions...
12:28:46 AM Stark (recoveringace): Not the good ones, apparently?
12:28:59 AM John (colonelinblack): All of them
12:29:08 AM John (colonelinblack): I don't have any good ones to amplify just now
12:30:38 AM Stark (recoveringace): I was going to say I haven't noticed any glee running around.
12:31:14 AM John (colonelinblack): It has you know, before this. I know I've been a little.. over the top recently
12:32:18 AM Stark (recoveringace): Admittedly, between my dye job and my...social calendar I've been a little less observant.
12:32:53 AM John (colonelinblack): It's alright, I don't even pick up the nuances in my own mood apparently
12:33:46 AM John (colonelinblack): Do you think I just should have... let him think I didn't remember?
12:35:40 AM Stark (recoveringace): I don't know him, but -- who knows? If he's having as confused a reaction as you are, then maybe yeah, you should have just let it lie. Take it slow.
12:35:51 AM Stark (recoveringace): I mean even John and I are still sort of...feeling each other out.
12:36:08 AM John (colonelinblack): Nice wording
12:36:57 AM Stark (recoveringace): What? It's true.
12:37:24 AM Stark (recoveringace): That wasn't a euphemism, I mean that we really don't know what we're doing.
12:38:31 AM John (colonelinblack): I know, I was just being a dick
12:38:38 AM Stark (recoveringace): *laughs*
12:38:40 AM John (colonelinblack): It's what I'm good at
12:38:47 AM Stark (recoveringace): Oh you're good at a lot, John.
12:39:09 AM John (colonelinblack): I'm good at shooting people
12:39:15 AM John (colonelinblack): And fucking things up
12:39:23 AM John (colonelinblack): Sometimes the two coincide
12:42:21 AM Stark (recoveringace): I would think you're good at more than that, my friend.
12:44:46 AM John (colonelinblack): I don't want to hear it, Stark
12:44:51 AM John (colonelinblack): I lost my best friend
12:45:02 AM Stark (recoveringace): No, you didn't.
12:45:08 AM Stark (recoveringace): That's just giving up.
12:45:56 AM John (colonelinblack): You can count on one thing in the universe.... and that is that I don't give up. Not ever.
12:46:25 AM Stark (recoveringace): Then don't start talking like everything is over when it's not.
12:46:35 AM John (colonelinblack): But what if it is?
12:46:56 AM John (colonelinblack): I shattered his trust in me
12:48:24 AM Stark (recoveringace): You are seriously the most negative person on the planet.
12:48:43 AM John (colonelinblack): That's because you haven't met McKay
12:48:53 AM John (colonelinblack): And I'm not on your planet so.
12:49:00 AM John (colonelinblack): Not even relevant
12:49:21 AM Stark (recoveringace): Go ahead and give me attitude if it makes you feel better.
12:49:57 AM John (colonelinblack): Sorry, I don't mean it...
12:50:20 AM John (colonelinblack): I.. I should just go, I'm raining on your parade
12:50:53 AM Stark (recoveringace): I can only help you if you want to help yourself. But if you're gonna go down, I'm not going down with you.
12:52:56 AM John (colonelinblack): I wouldn't ask you to
12:53:06 AM John (colonelinblack): If Ship Shep is going down, it's a lone sinker
12:54:02 AM Stark (recoveringace): You need to decide if you're gonna fight or not. But you're the only person that can make that decision.
12:54:16 AM Stark (recoveringace): But I care about you too much to sit around while you hate yourself when there's no reason to.
12:54:59 AM John (colonelinblack): ...did I mention the device makes us miserable when we're apart? Because I totally remember disclosing that part.
12:55:29 AM Stark (recoveringace): And you need to look deep down inside yourself and be stronger than a freaking machine.
12:56:29 AM John (colonelinblack): You're right, give me a sec...
1:03:16 AM John (colonelinblack): I'm sorry
1:05:16 AM Stark (recoveringace): It's okay. It's been a long day for me, I'm sure I'm a little snappish myself.
1:08:13 AM John (colonelinblack): Don't worry about it...
1:08:36 AM Stark (recoveringace): At least my hair looks normal now, and it could have gone a lot worse, I guess.
1:08:54 AM John (colonelinblack): Heh, yeah, blonde is not your color
1:09:26 AM Stark (recoveringace): It really isn't. Whenever Richards gets over the flu, she owes me bigtime. I had to drive an SUV and storm a practical PTA meeting.
1:09:56 AM John (colonelinblack): ...Wow
1:09:59 AM Stark (recoveringace): Not to mention, Paul in GTF is still laughing, and well...god only knows what my boyfriend thinks.
1:10:05 AM Stark (recoveringace): Yeah. Prep school drug bust. Yay.
1:10:48 AM John (colonelinblack): Yay indeed
1:12:36 AM Stark (recoveringace): Never, ever, ever again.
1:12:57 AM John (colonelinblack): Tell me about it
1:13:07 AM Stark (recoveringace): We do say that a lot don't we.
1:13:10 AM Stark (recoveringace): And then it happens again.
1:13:29 AM John (colonelinblack): Again and again and again and....
1:13:47 AM Stark (recoveringace): Yeah. The universe just doesn't like us somedays.
1:14:20 AM John (colonelinblack): Or anyday, really
1:14:46 AM Stark (recoveringace): I dunno, the last couple of weeks haven't been too bad of course I've been shutting up so I don't make you all sick with my happiness.
1:15:12 AM John (colonelinblack): I've noticed anyway - it's cute
1:15:35 AM Stark (recoveringace): *blushes and shakes her head* I keep thinking I'm gonna wake up.
1:15:51 AM John (colonelinblack): Here's hoping you don't
1:17:37 AM Stark (recoveringace): Yeah. I have no idea what I'm doing. I haven't been in love since...'97.
1:18:13 AM John (colonelinblack): I haven't been in love since... 199..around there, really
1:18:37 AM Stark (recoveringace): Oooh, Ripken just got named the greatest Oriole ever. *is quite pleased*
1:18:45 AM Stark (recoveringace): Yeah. It, um, I sort of skipped that for a long, long, long time.
1:19:10 AM John (colonelinblack): Difference is, I had sex and you didn't, right?
1:19:29 AM Stark (recoveringace): Pretty much, yeah. I had a decided lack of opportunities.
1:19:37 AM Stark (recoveringace): That later became complete apathy.
1:19:48 AM John (colonelinblack): Yeah...
1:20:35 AM Stark (recoveringace): I'm pretty sure you don't want to hear about my sex life, though.
1:20:45 AM Stark (recoveringace): Sorry, I'm watching the Orioles love on Baseball Tonight.
1:20:49 AM John (colonelinblack): I could do without, for the moment
1:20:53 AM John (colonelinblack): It's alright
1:21:01 AM John (colonelinblack): I know I'm not exactly fun tonight
1:21:25 AM Stark (recoveringace): Well, they're my team, you know, I sort of space out when they come up. It's not your fault!
1:21:33 AM Stark (recoveringace): Besides, you were there to listen to me cry like a girl the other day.
1:22:30 AM John (colonelinblack): Guess it's my turn
1:22:43 AM Stark (recoveringace): Anytime. You know there's nothing I wouldn't do for you.
1:23:03 AM John (colonelinblack): I do
1:23:42 AM Stark (recoveringace): When you get out here, I might even attempt cooking.
1:23:58 AM John (colonelinblack): Scary...
1:24:05 AM Stark (recoveringace): It can be!
1:24:08 AM John (colonelinblack): I can cook, you know
1:24:17 AM Stark (recoveringace): Well then you're better than me. *laughs*
1:24:27 AM John (colonelinblack): *lol* I'll help you
1:24:42 AM Stark (recoveringace): We should totally make brownies. Everything is better with chocolate.
1:24:56 AM John (colonelinblack): Wholeheartedly agreed
1:25:08 AM John (colonelinblack): I hope McKay comes to Earth with me
1:25:18 AM John (colonelinblack): He was going to help me soup up this great car
1:25:25 AM Stark (recoveringace): Really? Sweet.
1:25:53 AM John (colonelinblack): We have a plan to make a glorified bat mobile out of ancient tech, blood, sweat, tears, and a Mustang Shelby
1:26:03 AM Stark (recoveringace): Now that would be like the coolest thing ever.
1:26:11 AM Stark (recoveringace): I drive an Impala. It is not cool, but it is functional.
1:26:15 AM John (colonelinblack): Oh tell me something I don't know
1:26:19 AM John (colonelinblack): Ew, really?
1:26:23 AM John (colonelinblack): An Impala?
1:26:31 AM Stark (recoveringace): Yes, sadly. It's not bad.
1:26:33 AM John (colonelinblack): What does that top out at?
1:26:40 AM John (colonelinblack): Speed-wise
1:27:27 AM Stark (recoveringace): 140, roughly.
1:27:45 AM John (colonelinblack): Ew.
1:27:54 AM Stark (recoveringace): I know, to you that's like, geriatric.
1:28:05 AM John (colonelinblack): It really, seriously is
1:28:14 AM John (colonelinblack): Not worth it unless its over 200 mph, as they say
1:28:16 AM John (colonelinblack): They being me
1:28:26 AM Stark (recoveringace): *laughs* I'll take you with me the next time I go car shopping.
1:28:35 AM John (colonelinblack): Sweet
1:29:24 AM John (colonelinblack): Although, I'm about to spend my life savings on this Shelby so, you may not want me around for sound judgments
1:29:41 AM Stark (recoveringace): *grins* You'd probably tell me to go buy something shiny and huge.
1:30:02 AM John (colonelinblack): Doesn't have to be huge, just fast
1:30:53 AM Stark (recoveringace): Well, the Impala's been holding up well over the years, then again it isn't my Bureau car so...yeah.
1:30:57 AM Stark (recoveringace): I have run the tires off a few of those.
1:31:19 AM John (colonelinblack): Nice
1:31:31 AM John (colonelinblack): But until you've wrecked a jumper...
1:31:41 AM John (colonelinblack): You haven't lived
1:31:48 AM John (colonelinblack): in a really close to death way, anyhow
1:32:08 AM Stark (recoveringace): *snickers* I meant to ask: what's up with the whole black leather thing, anyway? Is that like, militarily in vogue these days?
1:32:32 AM John (colonelinblack): Black leather's a classic
1:32:46 AM John (colonelinblack): Durable, stealthy and fashionable
1:33:16 AM Stark (recoveringace): I admit to owning the jacket, but when we get into full wardrobe territory I think I'd just look lame.
1:33:27 AM John (colonelinblack): Most people do
1:33:32 AM John (colonelinblack): I could so pull it off
1:33:51 AM Stark (recoveringace): You could. Me...eh.
1:33:56 AM John (colonelinblack): .....when I was 23
1:34:03 AM Stark (recoveringace): Oh please. You still have it.
1:34:13 AM John (colonelinblack): Yeah, we'll see
1:34:43 AM Stark (recoveringace): Well I think so.
1:34:49 AM Stark (recoveringace): I've never exactly been a fashion plate.
1:35:00 AM John (colonelinblack): It's overrated
1:35:24 AM John (colonelinblack): I'm in uniform 24/7 anyway
1:35:57 AM Stark (recoveringace): I'm in suits most of the time. Unless I'm playing a paintball match. I don't really bother to change when I get home.
1:36:04 AM Stark (recoveringace): 'Cause by then it's almost always late.
1:36:28 AM John (colonelinblack): Yeah, I know the feeling
1:36:53 AM John (colonelinblack): I mean, my "home" is a 10x10 cube on a corridor, but...
1:36:57 AM John (colonelinblack): Yeah
1:37:11 AM Stark (recoveringace): You can come over and crash at my slightly disorganized house.
1:37:22 AM John (colonelinblack): I was planning on it
1:37:28 AM John (colonelinblack): For a night or so anyway
1:38:00 AM Stark (recoveringace): I have enough room, I'll just have to make sure to clean up the organized chaos first.
1:38:20 AM John (colonelinblack): Don't go through too much trouble just for me, now
1:38:37 AM Stark (recoveringace): Please, you don't need to be surrounded by all this stuff.
1:39:26 AM John (colonelinblack): I like stuff
1:39:58 AM Stark (recoveringace): It's all notes, textbooks, issues of Sports Illustrated...except for the one I framed...
1:41:24 AM John (colonelinblack): Really, I'm like a dog. Give me a corner of the floor and I'm happy... if I bring McKay with me, however, then you're fucked. He'll never stop bitching about how inadequate the mattress is or how lame ...something else is. Always fucking something with Canadians, isn't it?
1:41:49 AM Stark (recoveringace): *laughs* I dunno, I met Ed Robertson once and he seemed pretty genial.
1:42:10 AM John (colonelinblack): Maybe it's just him then.
1:42:14 AM John (colonelinblack): I usually blame Canada
1:42:18 AM John (colonelinblack): For simplicity
1:42:33 AM Stark (recoveringace): To be fair, Ed Robertson is the lead singer of a band of crazy people.
1:43:42 AM John (colonelinblack): Hey, minus the singer, that's me
1:43:47 AM John (colonelinblack): So who am I to judge?
1:44:02 AM Stark (recoveringace): *grins* I'm a little crazy, but I have the sanest person in the world to balance me out.
1:44:23 AM John (colonelinblack): ...and I have the only man crazier
1:44:41 AM Stark (recoveringace): Well life works in mysterious ways, as I have learned well over the last couple of weeks.
1:45:02 AM John (colonelinblack): I'm not attracted to sane or normal, never have been
1:45:26 AM Stark (recoveringace): It works for me, though, to hear him tell it, it was his idea first.
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