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Haven't been in school for a while. I think I had a sort of nervous breakdown due to this whole death thing. Actually it was more like a panic attack.
I just kept thinking that if someone my moo's age died even though she has always been healthy what is to stop her from doing the same? Then I was thinking about my Dad...he'll be 60 this year! and my Grandpa. I scared the sense out of me. So I just stayed at home until the funeral today.
It was more emotional than my Gran's funeral for some reason....I just cried more. Maybe because I'm older now.
Anyway it was horrific....I just lost it completely when they played 'Songbird' by Eva Cassidy.
I think I have lost my mind because the announcement in the paper from Carol's family said that they wanted donations to Macmillan cancer support rather than flowers so when I got home I signed up for the Women's 10k to raise money. I think that it is achievable though. Anyway I don't care what it takes I'll do it. I have to.
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I just kept thinking that if someone my moo's age died even though she has always been healthy what is to stop her from doing the same? Then I was thinking about my Dad...he'll be 60 this year! and my Grandpa. I scared the sense out of me. So I just stayed at home until the funeral today.
It was more emotional than my Gran's funeral for some reason....I just cried more. Maybe because I'm older now.
Anyway it was horrific....I just lost it completely when they played 'Songbird' by Eva Cassidy.
I think I have lost my mind because the announcement in the paper from Carol's family said that they wanted donations to Macmillan cancer support rather than flowers so when I got home I signed up for the Women's 10k to raise money. I think that it is achievable though. Anyway I don't care what it takes I'll do it. I have to.
xxx