Pieces (15/16)
Title: Pieces
Pairing: Rachel/Santana, Shelby
Length:52,788
Spoilers: Up to season 3
Summary: Rachel never expected to find out she's a werewolf, and once the reality of it sinks in, she feels like a monster. Surprisingly enough there's someone unexpected who helps her keep onto the humanity inside her.
Note: This is written for the Glee Big Bang.
Rachel wasn’t sure what her and Santana had become, but she knew they had become more than just friends. They hadn’t told anyone at school or even their families about their new found relationship, they hadn’t even really talked about it with each other. At the moment, they decided not to put a name to it, even if they did kiss.
And kissing, they did a lot of. Santana had found out when Rachel wasn’t near a full moon, she wasn’t quite so dominate. It was after their kiss, the first kiss that both wanted and they were still in Rachel’s bedroom that Santana found out. She had started kissing Rachel again and started exploring her body, and Rachel froze all of a suddenly. Santana frowned and leaned back.
“What’s wrong?” Santana asked and Rachel bit her lip nervously.
“Well, you see, I don’t know what to do…” Santana raised an eyebrow at her.
“But you kissed me before, and you knew exactly what to do then.” Rachel shrugged and looked down nervously.
“Well, that was when it was close to the full moon, and my wolf always makes me do things like that, so…” Rachel said embarrassingly and Santana couldn’t help but laugh, making Rachel blush in embarrassment more. Santana had to admit, the sight of Rachel blushing like that was cute. When she stopped laughing, she lightly pushed Rachel down on the bed, careful of the bruise, and straddled her.
“Well then, let Auntie Tana take care of that for you,” She said, leaning in to Rachel’s face. “Just sit back and relax.” She said before kissing Rachel on the lips. Santana liked taking the lead and being dominate between the two, but a part of her couldn’t wait until the next full moon. She couldn’t help but think that a dominate Rachel was a turn on for her.
As the weeks went by, Santana had put cream on Rachel’s bruise everyday and as it got closer to the full moon, she started to believe more that Rachel was telling her the truth. She would ask little things about what being a werewolf was like, and Rachel would always hesitate, but in the end she did tell her. Santana made sure to never push it either, because Rachel was so sensitive about the topic and would close up easily.
In the end, nothing went wrong. Santana was starting to be able to believe Rachel and not leave her, and Rachel felt human around her. It wasn’t until it was the week up to the full moon that Rachel was starting to backtrack in their relationship. They had been on her bed, making out with Rachel on top of Santana. Rachel suddenly pressed up harder against Santana, deepening the kiss. Santana squeaked in surprise when she felt Rachel move her hands under her shirt, before that day they had been relatively slow and never went past making out. And even then, sometimes it was just cuddling or gentle kisses that they did. Rachel started to tug slightly on the shirt and Santana moved her hands to gently push Rachel away, but Rachel quickly grabbed her wrists and pinned them down to the bed. When Rachel finally broke the kiss for air, Santana spoke up.
“Rachel,” She said, remembering the last time this happened. “Rachel!” She said loudly, looking at the smaller girl’s eyes. Rachel froze and looked at her, finally looked at her, before scrambling off of her and falling off the bed in the process.
“You okay?” Santana asked as she stood up and walked to her.
“Don’t,” Rachel said, holding up a hand and moving backward. “Just… don’t come near me,” Rachel put her hand down and brought her knees up and wrapped her arms around them. Santana was silent, not knowing what to do. Rachel looked up, noticing her again before looking back down. “it’s close to the full moon and I tend to… lose control of myself, so you should go so-”
“Oh no you don’t,” Santana said and she walked to Rachel and kneeled down in front of her. She put her hands on Rachel’s knees, ignoring the other girl’s whimpers. “You can’t just leave me again, I won’t let you. That’s why we’re gonna talk about this.”
“I don’t want to hurt you or o something I regret.” Rachel said, trying to move away from Santana. Santana frowned and watched as Rachel freaked out over her wolf. Even though she hadn’t seen Rachel change into one, the reaction she got from her at times were too real to think she was lying, like this one. Sighing, Santana shifted closer to Rachel and placed her hands on her face, making her look up at her.
“It’s okay, I trust you.” Santana said softly and Rachel looked at her face, looking for any doubt, any fear, and found none. She gave Santana a small smile and nodded, making Santana smile back and lean in and place a lingering kiss on her forehead. Santana sat down next to Rachel, placing an arm around her loosely. After some time, she felt Rachel relax and lean closer to her. They stayed like that in silence for a few minutes until Santana spoke up.
“Hey, do you mind if I…” Santana bit her lip and spoke up again. “If I watched you, ya know, change?” Rachel looked up at her, gaping.
“What me transform into my wolf?” Rachel asked in disbelief and Santana nodded. “But…I could hurt you.”
“What did I just say?”
“That… you trust me?” Santana smiled and nodded and Rachel sighed. She looked at the ground as she thought about it. If she did let Santana watch, she couldn’t be sure that she was going to be safe. For all Rachel knew, she could attack Santana any second.
“Please?” Santana asked and Rachel looked at her, at the pleading look in her eyes and bit her lip. Then again, if she did, she would finally prove to Santana she really was a werewolf, that she wasn’t crazy.
“Only if you do exactly what I say.” Rachel said and Santana’s face lit up and she smiled.
“I will, I just want to see all of you.” Santana said and Rachel nodded.
“Then, on the night of the full moon, you have to go to the woods because that’s where I… transform,” Saying the word out loud was still odd to her, and it would take a while to get used to. “But listen, you have to stay far away from me when I change no matter what,” Rachel frowned and looked down. “It’s not going to be a pretty sight.”
“I can handle it.” Santana said but Rachel wasn’t sure. Instead, she nodded and they spent the rest of the day without talking about the wolf inside her.
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Rachel nervously stood in front of the classroom Shelby taught in, trying to calm herself. It was after school and Rachel had told Santana that she had to tell Shelby about Santana wanting to come. Santana had offered to come with her, but she told her it was best if she did it alone, and Santana gave her a good luck kiss before Rachel went to the classroom.
Taking a deep breath, she slowly opened the door and saw Shelby sitting at her desk grading papers. Shelby looked up at the sound of the door opening and smiled.
“Hey.” She said and Rachel gave her a shaky smile.
“Hi.” She greeted back as she closed the door and locked it. Shelby raised her eyebrow at the sound of the lock clicking, but didn’t say anything. Instead, she put her pen down and looked directly at Rachel. Rachel gave her a nervous smile and walked to her desk.
“Um, Shelby, I have something to ask you.” Rachel said.
“Does this have to do with Santana?” She asked, knowing how close the two had gotten. She had smelled Santana on her in the halls for the past month, and Shelby thought they were more than friends.
“No, well, yes and, um,” Rachel said nervously and Shelby frowned. Usually Rachel knew exactly what to day and say it confidently. Usually, she wasn’t a stuttering mess.
“Rachel, what is it?” Shelby asked, standing up and reaching over her desk to put a hand on Rachel’s shoulder.
“Um,” She started and gave her a small laugh. “This may sound crazy to you, but can Santana come with us?”
“With us?” Shelby asked, confused. Suddenly, it clicked and Shelby looked at her sternly. “Rachel, you aren’t talking about letting her come with us on the night of the full moon, are you?”
“Yes, I am,” Rachel said and Shelby let out a heavy sigh. “Please, it’s the only way to show Santana I really am a werewolf, that I’m not crazy.”
“Rachel, if she trusts you, then she should believe you.” Rachel frowned and walked around the desk and grabbed Shelby’s shoulders.
“Shelby, please, I’m begging you, let Santana come. She wants to come, she wants to see all of me and that includes the wolf. I will get on my knees if I have to.” Rachel said and Shelby shook her head.
“Rachel, no I- Rachel!” Shelby said loudly at Rachel getting on her knees and tugging on her shirt.
“I said I would,” Rachel said with a grin before pouting again. “Please, just this once. I want her to really see me because I… I love her,” Shelby’s face softened and she looked down at Rachel, who was staring up at her with pleading eyes. “I love her.” Rachel repeated softly and Shelby looked at her silently for a bit, thinking it over in her head.
Rachel was looking at her so desperately and she should say no, that it was too dangerous. However, with the way Rachel was looking at her, it was hard to say no. Finally, Shelby let out a sigh and nodded.
“Just once.” Shelby sand and Rachel broke into a wide grin.
“Thank you!” She said, hugging Shelby’s midsection tightly. Shelby couldn’t help but laugh lightly as she ran her fingers through Rachel’s hair.
“You have to do what I say though, both of you.” Shelby said and Rachel quickly nodded.
“We will, we promise,” Rachel said and gave Shelby another squeeze before getting up. “I have to tell Santana.” With that, Rachel practically ran out of the room, and Shelby watched, wondering if she did the right thing. She wanted Rachel to e happy, and letting Santana join seemed to do that, but she also needed to worry about Santana’s safety. She sat back down in her desk, hoping her decision wouldn’t come and bit her in the ass later.
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As soon as she left the school she walked to Santana’s house, where she knew the girl was home. She couldn’t help but grin, happy that Shelby let Santana come. After a few moments she heard someone walked to the door form the other side and it opened to reveal Santana’s dad.
Rahcel’s grin faltered as she saw him. Technically she had already met him and the rest of Santana’s family, though as a wolf and she was dangerously close to attacking them. She tried not to think of that night, and instead gave him a smile.
“Hello, Mr. Lopez, is Santana home?”
“Yeah, hold on.” He said and walked farther in the house. She heard him yelling for her to come down and it wasn’t long after that she heard footsteps again and Santana was at the door.
“Hey,” Santana said with a smile. “What’s up?”
“Hey, there’s something I need to tell you, about that… thing we talked about.” Santana nodded in understanding and grabbed Rachel’s hand.
“Lets go to my room.” She said and Rachel nodded, allowing Santana to lead her. As they went up the stairs, Santana had said to her father she was going to be with her friend in her room. Friend. Rachel tried not to take too much offense to the word, after all, they hadn’t put a name to what they had. When they finally reached her room, they sat on the bed and Santana turned to her.
“So, you had something to tell me?” Rachel nodded and grinned.
“Shelby said you can come along with us.” Santana smiled brightly at Rachel’s words and squeezed Rachel’s hands.
“That’s great,” She said and gave Rachel a quick kiss on the lips. “I can’t wait to see it, to see all of you, including the wolf part.” Rachel’s smile faded and she looked down.
“I don’t like that part of me.” She said quietly and Santana frowned.
“Why not?”
“It’s ugly and I’m… I’m a monster.” Rachel said softly, finally saying out loud what she had thought of herself. She felt hands on either side of her face and she was forced up to look at Santana.
“You’re not a monster, just different, and you’re definitely not ugly,” Santana said and Rachel smiled, never realizing how nice it was to hear something like that from Santana until now. “What you are, it’s something different and it’s part of who you are, it’s what makes you special.” Rachel leaned forward and gave her a quick kiss on the lips, careful not to let her wolf take over.
“Thank you, Santana.” Rachel said softly and Santana brought her hand to her lips and kissed it.
“No problem.” The rest of the time they were in Santana’s room, and were laying in the bed. Rachel snuggled in Santana’s arms around her, and for the first time since she had become a werewolf, she felt safe and loved, like nothing bad could happen to her again.
Pairing: Rachel/Santana, Shelby
Length:52,788
Spoilers: Up to season 3
Summary: Rachel never expected to find out she's a werewolf, and once the reality of it sinks in, she feels like a monster. Surprisingly enough there's someone unexpected who helps her keep onto the humanity inside her.
Note: This is written for the Glee Big Bang.
Rachel wasn’t sure what her and Santana had become, but she knew they had become more than just friends. They hadn’t told anyone at school or even their families about their new found relationship, they hadn’t even really talked about it with each other. At the moment, they decided not to put a name to it, even if they did kiss.
And kissing, they did a lot of. Santana had found out when Rachel wasn’t near a full moon, she wasn’t quite so dominate. It was after their kiss, the first kiss that both wanted and they were still in Rachel’s bedroom that Santana found out. She had started kissing Rachel again and started exploring her body, and Rachel froze all of a suddenly. Santana frowned and leaned back.
“What’s wrong?” Santana asked and Rachel bit her lip nervously.
“Well, you see, I don’t know what to do…” Santana raised an eyebrow at her.
“But you kissed me before, and you knew exactly what to do then.” Rachel shrugged and looked down nervously.
“Well, that was when it was close to the full moon, and my wolf always makes me do things like that, so…” Rachel said embarrassingly and Santana couldn’t help but laugh, making Rachel blush in embarrassment more. Santana had to admit, the sight of Rachel blushing like that was cute. When she stopped laughing, she lightly pushed Rachel down on the bed, careful of the bruise, and straddled her.
“Well then, let Auntie Tana take care of that for you,” She said, leaning in to Rachel’s face. “Just sit back and relax.” She said before kissing Rachel on the lips. Santana liked taking the lead and being dominate between the two, but a part of her couldn’t wait until the next full moon. She couldn’t help but think that a dominate Rachel was a turn on for her.
As the weeks went by, Santana had put cream on Rachel’s bruise everyday and as it got closer to the full moon, she started to believe more that Rachel was telling her the truth. She would ask little things about what being a werewolf was like, and Rachel would always hesitate, but in the end she did tell her. Santana made sure to never push it either, because Rachel was so sensitive about the topic and would close up easily.
In the end, nothing went wrong. Santana was starting to be able to believe Rachel and not leave her, and Rachel felt human around her. It wasn’t until it was the week up to the full moon that Rachel was starting to backtrack in their relationship. They had been on her bed, making out with Rachel on top of Santana. Rachel suddenly pressed up harder against Santana, deepening the kiss. Santana squeaked in surprise when she felt Rachel move her hands under her shirt, before that day they had been relatively slow and never went past making out. And even then, sometimes it was just cuddling or gentle kisses that they did. Rachel started to tug slightly on the shirt and Santana moved her hands to gently push Rachel away, but Rachel quickly grabbed her wrists and pinned them down to the bed. When Rachel finally broke the kiss for air, Santana spoke up.
“Rachel,” She said, remembering the last time this happened. “Rachel!” She said loudly, looking at the smaller girl’s eyes. Rachel froze and looked at her, finally looked at her, before scrambling off of her and falling off the bed in the process.
“You okay?” Santana asked as she stood up and walked to her.
“Don’t,” Rachel said, holding up a hand and moving backward. “Just… don’t come near me,” Rachel put her hand down and brought her knees up and wrapped her arms around them. Santana was silent, not knowing what to do. Rachel looked up, noticing her again before looking back down. “it’s close to the full moon and I tend to… lose control of myself, so you should go so-”
“Oh no you don’t,” Santana said and she walked to Rachel and kneeled down in front of her. She put her hands on Rachel’s knees, ignoring the other girl’s whimpers. “You can’t just leave me again, I won’t let you. That’s why we’re gonna talk about this.”
“I don’t want to hurt you or o something I regret.” Rachel said, trying to move away from Santana. Santana frowned and watched as Rachel freaked out over her wolf. Even though she hadn’t seen Rachel change into one, the reaction she got from her at times were too real to think she was lying, like this one. Sighing, Santana shifted closer to Rachel and placed her hands on her face, making her look up at her.
“It’s okay, I trust you.” Santana said softly and Rachel looked at her face, looking for any doubt, any fear, and found none. She gave Santana a small smile and nodded, making Santana smile back and lean in and place a lingering kiss on her forehead. Santana sat down next to Rachel, placing an arm around her loosely. After some time, she felt Rachel relax and lean closer to her. They stayed like that in silence for a few minutes until Santana spoke up.
“Hey, do you mind if I…” Santana bit her lip and spoke up again. “If I watched you, ya know, change?” Rachel looked up at her, gaping.
“What me transform into my wolf?” Rachel asked in disbelief and Santana nodded. “But…I could hurt you.”
“What did I just say?”
“That… you trust me?” Santana smiled and nodded and Rachel sighed. She looked at the ground as she thought about it. If she did let Santana watch, she couldn’t be sure that she was going to be safe. For all Rachel knew, she could attack Santana any second.
“Please?” Santana asked and Rachel looked at her, at the pleading look in her eyes and bit her lip. Then again, if she did, she would finally prove to Santana she really was a werewolf, that she wasn’t crazy.
“Only if you do exactly what I say.” Rachel said and Santana’s face lit up and she smiled.
“I will, I just want to see all of you.” Santana said and Rachel nodded.
“Then, on the night of the full moon, you have to go to the woods because that’s where I… transform,” Saying the word out loud was still odd to her, and it would take a while to get used to. “But listen, you have to stay far away from me when I change no matter what,” Rachel frowned and looked down. “It’s not going to be a pretty sight.”
“I can handle it.” Santana said but Rachel wasn’t sure. Instead, she nodded and they spent the rest of the day without talking about the wolf inside her.
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Rachel nervously stood in front of the classroom Shelby taught in, trying to calm herself. It was after school and Rachel had told Santana that she had to tell Shelby about Santana wanting to come. Santana had offered to come with her, but she told her it was best if she did it alone, and Santana gave her a good luck kiss before Rachel went to the classroom.
Taking a deep breath, she slowly opened the door and saw Shelby sitting at her desk grading papers. Shelby looked up at the sound of the door opening and smiled.
“Hey.” She said and Rachel gave her a shaky smile.
“Hi.” She greeted back as she closed the door and locked it. Shelby raised her eyebrow at the sound of the lock clicking, but didn’t say anything. Instead, she put her pen down and looked directly at Rachel. Rachel gave her a nervous smile and walked to her desk.
“Um, Shelby, I have something to ask you.” Rachel said.
“Does this have to do with Santana?” She asked, knowing how close the two had gotten. She had smelled Santana on her in the halls for the past month, and Shelby thought they were more than friends.
“No, well, yes and, um,” Rachel said nervously and Shelby frowned. Usually Rachel knew exactly what to day and say it confidently. Usually, she wasn’t a stuttering mess.
“Rachel, what is it?” Shelby asked, standing up and reaching over her desk to put a hand on Rachel’s shoulder.
“Um,” She started and gave her a small laugh. “This may sound crazy to you, but can Santana come with us?”
“With us?” Shelby asked, confused. Suddenly, it clicked and Shelby looked at her sternly. “Rachel, you aren’t talking about letting her come with us on the night of the full moon, are you?”
“Yes, I am,” Rachel said and Shelby let out a heavy sigh. “Please, it’s the only way to show Santana I really am a werewolf, that I’m not crazy.”
“Rachel, if she trusts you, then she should believe you.” Rachel frowned and walked around the desk and grabbed Shelby’s shoulders.
“Shelby, please, I’m begging you, let Santana come. She wants to come, she wants to see all of me and that includes the wolf. I will get on my knees if I have to.” Rachel said and Shelby shook her head.
“Rachel, no I- Rachel!” Shelby said loudly at Rachel getting on her knees and tugging on her shirt.
“I said I would,” Rachel said with a grin before pouting again. “Please, just this once. I want her to really see me because I… I love her,” Shelby’s face softened and she looked down at Rachel, who was staring up at her with pleading eyes. “I love her.” Rachel repeated softly and Shelby looked at her silently for a bit, thinking it over in her head.
Rachel was looking at her so desperately and she should say no, that it was too dangerous. However, with the way Rachel was looking at her, it was hard to say no. Finally, Shelby let out a sigh and nodded.
“Just once.” Shelby sand and Rachel broke into a wide grin.
“Thank you!” She said, hugging Shelby’s midsection tightly. Shelby couldn’t help but laugh lightly as she ran her fingers through Rachel’s hair.
“You have to do what I say though, both of you.” Shelby said and Rachel quickly nodded.
“We will, we promise,” Rachel said and gave Shelby another squeeze before getting up. “I have to tell Santana.” With that, Rachel practically ran out of the room, and Shelby watched, wondering if she did the right thing. She wanted Rachel to e happy, and letting Santana join seemed to do that, but she also needed to worry about Santana’s safety. She sat back down in her desk, hoping her decision wouldn’t come and bit her in the ass later.
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As soon as she left the school she walked to Santana’s house, where she knew the girl was home. She couldn’t help but grin, happy that Shelby let Santana come. After a few moments she heard someone walked to the door form the other side and it opened to reveal Santana’s dad.
Rahcel’s grin faltered as she saw him. Technically she had already met him and the rest of Santana’s family, though as a wolf and she was dangerously close to attacking them. She tried not to think of that night, and instead gave him a smile.
“Hello, Mr. Lopez, is Santana home?”
“Yeah, hold on.” He said and walked farther in the house. She heard him yelling for her to come down and it wasn’t long after that she heard footsteps again and Santana was at the door.
“Hey,” Santana said with a smile. “What’s up?”
“Hey, there’s something I need to tell you, about that… thing we talked about.” Santana nodded in understanding and grabbed Rachel’s hand.
“Lets go to my room.” She said and Rachel nodded, allowing Santana to lead her. As they went up the stairs, Santana had said to her father she was going to be with her friend in her room. Friend. Rachel tried not to take too much offense to the word, after all, they hadn’t put a name to what they had. When they finally reached her room, they sat on the bed and Santana turned to her.
“So, you had something to tell me?” Rachel nodded and grinned.
“Shelby said you can come along with us.” Santana smiled brightly at Rachel’s words and squeezed Rachel’s hands.
“That’s great,” She said and gave Rachel a quick kiss on the lips. “I can’t wait to see it, to see all of you, including the wolf part.” Rachel’s smile faded and she looked down.
“I don’t like that part of me.” She said quietly and Santana frowned.
“Why not?”
“It’s ugly and I’m… I’m a monster.” Rachel said softly, finally saying out loud what she had thought of herself. She felt hands on either side of her face and she was forced up to look at Santana.
“You’re not a monster, just different, and you’re definitely not ugly,” Santana said and Rachel smiled, never realizing how nice it was to hear something like that from Santana until now. “What you are, it’s something different and it’s part of who you are, it’s what makes you special.” Rachel leaned forward and gave her a quick kiss on the lips, careful not to let her wolf take over.
“Thank you, Santana.” Rachel said softly and Santana brought her hand to her lips and kissed it.
“No problem.” The rest of the time they were in Santana’s room, and were laying in the bed. Rachel snuggled in Santana’s arms around her, and for the first time since she had become a werewolf, she felt safe and loved, like nothing bad could happen to her again.