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aiight yo...b to the ecky here to update after a 329057239 years. well this week went by pretty super quick<3. i got over my little cold, but im left with killer cramps. i want to dieeeeee.
anyways...this weekend im staying home for once. but today i got a surprise visit from sir emilio, i was soo happy <3. hillside is in the studio recording til 2 in the morning, and today he wanted to go at 6 in the morning to wait in line for goldfinger and gc tickets, but i didnt want to cuz it was suppper early. so i told him 8 would be ok, so at 7:30 i called his cell and it died, so i figured if he wanted to go early, or if he even got up, he'd call me, and if not i'd get ready by 9:30 and then call him. so at 9:15 i hadn't heard from him so i called him and he answered and said he was on his way. and then we went to buy the tickets an there was already a little line, but we only waited in line for 10 minutes, and then these ganster guys in front of us bought a million tickets for the concert that came out to 500 bucks, how they bought so many i dont know, they are probably drug dealers, except they seel gc tickets instead of drugs. then we went back to my house and my mom wasnt home, so we laid on the couch and watched cartoons. we havent done that before so it was cute...then my mom came home with food, and me and emilio went in my room and ate and listened to some 311 cd i forgot i had, that i thought i didnt like, but he really got me into it. we just laid on the floor and talked and my mom was being dorky and told us we were too close, but then i think she started getting uncomfortable haha, oh well. then i started getting super bad cramps again, and he was rubbing my back and he said he wasnt gonna leave me until i felt better....<3 he always makes me feel better when i dont feel good <3. he was like.."im sorry you dont feel good" and this and that, and kept asking if i needed anything, it was nice to know he cared. then we started talking about our plans for next weekend, and i told him we were only going to go to my homecoming dance, and we made up a stupid dance, it was cute. but we're still not going to homecoming, if i wouldve went, i would have 3 possible dates. david told me he wanted to go with me, i feel bad about the whole situation, but he knew about emilio from the start, anyways...:-P i got some better plans in mind to make up for homecoming<3 and then emilio had to go, because he had to go rent some acoustic guitars for recording or something, and then that was the end of his visit. im really glad i got to see him again this week. he's my everything
let's see...there's quite a few things that have been going on that i havent really made any comments on or anything, just simply because i dont care, or because i know i shouldnt worry about anything. but i think its time i say something, just so some things stop and some people shut up....either make war or peace, if you have a problem, say something, otherwise take it up the ass and get over it. im tired of people's comments and shit, and school isnt the best place, but we are stuck there for 2 more years, so everyone has to make the best of it, otherwise its going to be hell. so far ive been making the best of it for myself, because i look forward to other things afterwards. im not going to complain about anything because i have nothing to complain about, im happy with my life and how everything is going. im only concerned about my life, and certain people i choose to have in it, because i feel i shouldnt be concerned about other people who dont give a shit about me, people im never going to see again after high school, if thats a crime, shoot me. its ok my world revolves around me, myself and i...because im so sick of worrying who said this about me, or who thinks this about me, or they said that about me...i really dont fucken care. no one knows who i am anyways, im not someone super important. i finally feel good about myself, this is the first time, i dont feel im better than anybody, but i dont feel like im a nobody. <3
last nite i got a chance to talk to eric on the phone, he made me laugh so hard i almost puked, i think he's the only one really capable of doing that...((yes eric, he wants to be a vampire doctor)) LMFAO...anyways, and this morning i got to talk to stasia after a long time! she's always so spunky...she told me that stephanie was voted president and terry one vice, and shes trying out for some little beauty contest, those girls are such cute-sie gals...today im going to finish watching super troopers and do homework, because i hardly get any, and when i do, i get really excited. hahaha, go figure <3. i like doing good in school, it makes me feel better about myself, i dont think im such a lost cause anymore, though i still plan to give up on myself too soon.
i want to go see thrice's acoustic set at the apple store wednesday, but then i think about the less than jake one, and think if its really worth it :-/....oh well, i can do without, IM GONNA SEE THEM ON HALLOWEEN ANYWAYS, im sooo excited..what could be better than thursday and thrice on halloween?!!! omfg, i cant believe after 2 years, im finally going to see thursday for the first time, im sure im going to wet myself, i've missed them more then 3 times, and finally, im going to get to see one of my favorite bands, with one of my favorite people. ahhhh i cant wait!!!!!
how proud you are of being everything..but genuine...
anyways...this weekend im staying home for once. but today i got a surprise visit from sir emilio, i was soo happy <3. hillside is in the studio recording til 2 in the morning, and today he wanted to go at 6 in the morning to wait in line for goldfinger and gc tickets, but i didnt want to cuz it was suppper early. so i told him 8 would be ok, so at 7:30 i called his cell and it died, so i figured if he wanted to go early, or if he even got up, he'd call me, and if not i'd get ready by 9:30 and then call him. so at 9:15 i hadn't heard from him so i called him and he answered and said he was on his way. and then we went to buy the tickets an there was already a little line, but we only waited in line for 10 minutes, and then these ganster guys in front of us bought a million tickets for the concert that came out to 500 bucks, how they bought so many i dont know, they are probably drug dealers, except they seel gc tickets instead of drugs. then we went back to my house and my mom wasnt home, so we laid on the couch and watched cartoons. we havent done that before so it was cute...then my mom came home with food, and me and emilio went in my room and ate and listened to some 311 cd i forgot i had, that i thought i didnt like, but he really got me into it. we just laid on the floor and talked and my mom was being dorky and told us we were too close, but then i think she started getting uncomfortable haha, oh well. then i started getting super bad cramps again, and he was rubbing my back and he said he wasnt gonna leave me until i felt better....<3 he always makes me feel better when i dont feel good <3. he was like.."im sorry you dont feel good" and this and that, and kept asking if i needed anything, it was nice to know he cared. then we started talking about our plans for next weekend, and i told him we were only going to go to my homecoming dance, and we made up a stupid dance, it was cute. but we're still not going to homecoming, if i wouldve went, i would have 3 possible dates. david told me he wanted to go with me, i feel bad about the whole situation, but he knew about emilio from the start, anyways...:-P i got some better plans in mind to make up for homecoming<3 and then emilio had to go, because he had to go rent some acoustic guitars for recording or something, and then that was the end of his visit. im really glad i got to see him again this week. he's my everything
let's see...there's quite a few things that have been going on that i havent really made any comments on or anything, just simply because i dont care, or because i know i shouldnt worry about anything. but i think its time i say something, just so some things stop and some people shut up....either make war or peace, if you have a problem, say something, otherwise take it up the ass and get over it. im tired of people's comments and shit, and school isnt the best place, but we are stuck there for 2 more years, so everyone has to make the best of it, otherwise its going to be hell. so far ive been making the best of it for myself, because i look forward to other things afterwards. im not going to complain about anything because i have nothing to complain about, im happy with my life and how everything is going. im only concerned about my life, and certain people i choose to have in it, because i feel i shouldnt be concerned about other people who dont give a shit about me, people im never going to see again after high school, if thats a crime, shoot me. its ok my world revolves around me, myself and i...because im so sick of worrying who said this about me, or who thinks this about me, or they said that about me...i really dont fucken care. no one knows who i am anyways, im not someone super important. i finally feel good about myself, this is the first time, i dont feel im better than anybody, but i dont feel like im a nobody. <3
last nite i got a chance to talk to eric on the phone, he made me laugh so hard i almost puked, i think he's the only one really capable of doing that...((yes eric, he wants to be a vampire doctor)) LMFAO...anyways, and this morning i got to talk to stasia after a long time! she's always so spunky...she told me that stephanie was voted president and terry one vice, and shes trying out for some little beauty contest, those girls are such cute-sie gals...today im going to finish watching super troopers and do homework, because i hardly get any, and when i do, i get really excited. hahaha, go figure <3. i like doing good in school, it makes me feel better about myself, i dont think im such a lost cause anymore, though i still plan to give up on myself too soon.
i want to go see thrice's acoustic set at the apple store wednesday, but then i think about the less than jake one, and think if its really worth it :-/....oh well, i can do without, IM GONNA SEE THEM ON HALLOWEEN ANYWAYS, im sooo excited..what could be better than thursday and thrice on halloween?!!! omfg, i cant believe after 2 years, im finally going to see thursday for the first time, im sure im going to wet myself, i've missed them more then 3 times, and finally, im going to get to see one of my favorite bands, with one of my favorite people. ahhhh i cant wait!!!!!
how proud you are of being everything..but genuine...