let me see your insides....
i'll rip my heart out....
So this weekend has been the most relaxed weekend i think i've had in a long while. I LOVE IT. and im really sad to say that there's about a month left of summer break. Where did all the time go? aye there's the rub!!! STRESSING OVER MATH AND WORRYING ABOUT MY UPCOMING SENIOR YEAR. ARG
I took this friday off from school (again). I wasnt feeling well, and my mom said she wanted me to stay home, cuz she said its nice to see me when she gets home from work. So i stayed home. i slept most of the day, thanks to my handy sleeping pills. i dont know what i'd do without those suckers. My mom was kinda mad i slept the whole day, but i really just wanted to sleep. Thursday was my sister's birthday, so we had alot of left over cake and ice cream, so i ate alot of that too. All i remember was staying up last night listening to the early november looking at pictures. I felt really down again, but emilio emailed me, and he remembered that our anniversary is on monday, and the moon looked so full, even though my calender said the full moon is due out tonite, (i have yet to come to my conclusion whether it is correct or not!).
Emilio is going to call me monday morning, so im excited about that. Im really glad i'll be able to talk to him since we wont be able to celebrate our most special day together. I cant believe it's been a year already. Where did time go again i ask? Even though we've been going out for more than a year, it's still amazing to me. What an accomplishment. hahahah. Then i will resume going to second session, and finishing off math. Three weeks left, god. I know they are gonna go by super fast, but being there i hate. I have two cool friends there, and thats the only reason i like going. I know im gonna fall behind more, because i missed friday and i find myself gritting my teeth everytime i remind myself i should study.
Anywhoo, today i started school shopping, i love love love love buying school supplies. Every year i buy crayons and markers and erasers and all these notebooks i dont really need. I just like the feeling of opening a new box of crayons and seeing the perfectly sharpened edges. Tomorrow im going to the library cuz im cool. I also have been learning how to bellydance. that's so hilarious. i rented a dvd on how to bellydance, and omg, im so not flexible and i cant "shimmy" my hips. but it's fun as hell!!
So i hope this week is good, i have this feeling inside of some excitement, i never thought i'd feel. Im starting to think, maybe all those bad feelings i was feeling were just out of spite.
dont make me cry....
So this weekend has been the most relaxed weekend i think i've had in a long while. I LOVE IT. and im really sad to say that there's about a month left of summer break. Where did all the time go? aye there's the rub!!! STRESSING OVER MATH AND WORRYING ABOUT MY UPCOMING SENIOR YEAR. ARG
I took this friday off from school (again). I wasnt feeling well, and my mom said she wanted me to stay home, cuz she said its nice to see me when she gets home from work. So i stayed home. i slept most of the day, thanks to my handy sleeping pills. i dont know what i'd do without those suckers. My mom was kinda mad i slept the whole day, but i really just wanted to sleep. Thursday was my sister's birthday, so we had alot of left over cake and ice cream, so i ate alot of that too. All i remember was staying up last night listening to the early november looking at pictures. I felt really down again, but emilio emailed me, and he remembered that our anniversary is on monday, and the moon looked so full, even though my calender said the full moon is due out tonite, (i have yet to come to my conclusion whether it is correct or not!).
Emilio is going to call me monday morning, so im excited about that. Im really glad i'll be able to talk to him since we wont be able to celebrate our most special day together. I cant believe it's been a year already. Where did time go again i ask? Even though we've been going out for more than a year, it's still amazing to me. What an accomplishment. hahahah. Then i will resume going to second session, and finishing off math. Three weeks left, god. I know they are gonna go by super fast, but being there i hate. I have two cool friends there, and thats the only reason i like going. I know im gonna fall behind more, because i missed friday and i find myself gritting my teeth everytime i remind myself i should study.
Anywhoo, today i started school shopping, i love love love love buying school supplies. Every year i buy crayons and markers and erasers and all these notebooks i dont really need. I just like the feeling of opening a new box of crayons and seeing the perfectly sharpened edges. Tomorrow im going to the library cuz im cool. I also have been learning how to bellydance. that's so hilarious. i rented a dvd on how to bellydance, and omg, im so not flexible and i cant "shimmy" my hips. but it's fun as hell!!
So i hope this week is good, i have this feeling inside of some excitement, i never thought i'd feel. Im starting to think, maybe all those bad feelings i was feeling were just out of spite.
dont make me cry....