tonight won't make a difference........
cant you just give me a chance?
So i feel this week turning out crappy just like last week, but i know these weeks have been going by pretty fast, so i hang onto the idea of just getting through the next four weeks as quickly as possible. Math is definitely going to be the death of me, i dreamt about it last night. i couldnt sleep so i took these asprins that have a sleeping enhancer in them, they were a pretty blue color, and then i had the weirdest dream about math killing me. maybe it's a sign or something? I know for a fact i did horrible on today's chapter test, and i have a huge feeling im not going to do well on my midterm on wednesday. but hey, if i fail it, then i dont have to come back to class for the remaining 3 weeks! (sarcastic.
This past friday my mom asked me to ditch class and go to the mall with her, and i did so. I got two cute hats, some awesome earrings and some makeup and other stuff. my sister got her ears pierced on top like mine. she didnt believe how painful it was at first, now she knows. i was gonna get mine done, but i figured it was pointless. That was a fun day. Emilio also called me on friday night, it was like 4 in the morning in Spain, he had just gotten in from a night out. That's funny. im barely beginning to go to bed, and mornings arriving over there. He's literally 9 hours in the future. that's pretty cool. Eric used to be my boy in the future, but he's a loser now. It was nice to hear from emilio, he told me he wants me to spend the last weekend of august with him in san diego so we can go to this two day festival, but im afraid to bring it up to my mom because i dont know exactly how...so im just gonna let him as her. Im not sure if i really want to go though.
I really miss him. But the days are passing really fast, and i know every day that passes, is one day closer to seeing him. but when i finally do, i know its not going to really be a big thing. Part of me feels like i really want to be with him, and the other part just feels like im fine by myself. Im kinda worried about the feelings im going to have when he comes back towards him, but we'll just wait and see. I forget what it feels like to have a boyfriend and someone to call everynight and tell everything to. But i know its better for me, so i can develope my own sense of self and deal with stuff on my own. In the end, i guess i'll face my own fear, being alone. so im all i have.
There are so many things i planned on doing this summer, and for the most part i acheived alot of them....but there are things that i havent, and i doubt i will. that kinda bums me out. Ive been listening to the new taking back sunday for the past few days, this cd really is something. its genuine tbs. but yet, its somehow different, i just can't put my finger on exactly why i feel that way. Also my new friend richard said he'll take me to see underoath and senses fail if i dont have beauty school, but i do both nights, so im really sad. but im gonna really try to go. I really want to see underoath, their new cd is like my savior. Mae was my savior last summer, underoath this summer.
Last night i saw real women have curves, it wasn't what i expected, i thought it was gonna be this amazing movie, but it was kinda a let down. It was ok.
Since im feeling quite down, i've decided to go to hawaii on vacation today. Since antarctica and australia are done.
and this is me hula dancing....
i hope everyone is having a great summer, and i apologize to those who i havent talked to, or hung out with, i hope you understand what ive been going through and feeling.
i've got a bad feeling about this....
So i feel this week turning out crappy just like last week, but i know these weeks have been going by pretty fast, so i hang onto the idea of just getting through the next four weeks as quickly as possible. Math is definitely going to be the death of me, i dreamt about it last night. i couldnt sleep so i took these asprins that have a sleeping enhancer in them, they were a pretty blue color, and then i had the weirdest dream about math killing me. maybe it's a sign or something? I know for a fact i did horrible on today's chapter test, and i have a huge feeling im not going to do well on my midterm on wednesday. but hey, if i fail it, then i dont have to come back to class for the remaining 3 weeks! (sarcastic.
This past friday my mom asked me to ditch class and go to the mall with her, and i did so. I got two cute hats, some awesome earrings and some makeup and other stuff. my sister got her ears pierced on top like mine. she didnt believe how painful it was at first, now she knows. i was gonna get mine done, but i figured it was pointless. That was a fun day. Emilio also called me on friday night, it was like 4 in the morning in Spain, he had just gotten in from a night out. That's funny. im barely beginning to go to bed, and mornings arriving over there. He's literally 9 hours in the future. that's pretty cool. Eric used to be my boy in the future, but he's a loser now. It was nice to hear from emilio, he told me he wants me to spend the last weekend of august with him in san diego so we can go to this two day festival, but im afraid to bring it up to my mom because i dont know exactly how...so im just gonna let him as her. Im not sure if i really want to go though.
I really miss him. But the days are passing really fast, and i know every day that passes, is one day closer to seeing him. but when i finally do, i know its not going to really be a big thing. Part of me feels like i really want to be with him, and the other part just feels like im fine by myself. Im kinda worried about the feelings im going to have when he comes back towards him, but we'll just wait and see. I forget what it feels like to have a boyfriend and someone to call everynight and tell everything to. But i know its better for me, so i can develope my own sense of self and deal with stuff on my own. In the end, i guess i'll face my own fear, being alone. so im all i have.
There are so many things i planned on doing this summer, and for the most part i acheived alot of them....but there are things that i havent, and i doubt i will. that kinda bums me out. Ive been listening to the new taking back sunday for the past few days, this cd really is something. its genuine tbs. but yet, its somehow different, i just can't put my finger on exactly why i feel that way. Also my new friend richard said he'll take me to see underoath and senses fail if i dont have beauty school, but i do both nights, so im really sad. but im gonna really try to go. I really want to see underoath, their new cd is like my savior. Mae was my savior last summer, underoath this summer.
Last night i saw real women have curves, it wasn't what i expected, i thought it was gonna be this amazing movie, but it was kinda a let down. It was ok.
Since im feeling quite down, i've decided to go to hawaii on vacation today. Since antarctica and australia are done.
and this is me hula dancing....
i hope everyone is having a great summer, and i apologize to those who i havent talked to, or hung out with, i hope you understand what ive been going through and feeling.
i've got a bad feeling about this....