it could just be that im always wrong....
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guess what..i cant do this anymore....
so this weekend has been really beautiful. im starting to understand alot of things that were unclear to me before. Alot of frustrations, and emptyness ive felt, have all somehow made me upset for the past 2 weeks, but after talking about how i feel, and writing it out....i feel alot better.
i wont let myself forget
This rain has been beautiful. Just listening to it really makes me feel grateful for all the good things i have in my life, all the people that i know care about me and my well being, my family (even though they annoy me), and all the opportunities that come my way, that i know other people deserve. im just sorry i dont always show how much i appreciate everything.
there are two beautiful people in my life...and no matter how much they do things that annoy me, or upset me...i love them to death, and would always take a bullet for them. im sorry for all the times ive let you guys down, or frustrated you because im so stubborn sometimes, or just never followed through on my word...i just wish i could be a better friend/girlfriend. i love you guys
<3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3
So, now lets discuss my week/weekend....ive been sick pretty much since the day i stayed the nite at britt's in her haunted room. haha, but i went to the doctors on friday and found out i have an ear infection in my right ear, and a sinus infection. wonderful!!!! haha and since its been raining there really hasnt been a break for me to get much better...but im determined to suck up all my medicine because i have that idlewild thing this weekend...and i cant go sick!! ill get worse, and i have a huge feeling im in for seeing snow for my first time. im a snow virgin! woooot!
so friday at school was pretty cool...i performed my drama thingie with rudik and got an A+, and i did it sounding like a man!!! so i was happy about that..and then afterschool my mom dropped me off at the doctors office, so i was there for the appointment alone, i waited so long, for such a short visit and then i went home..and talked to emilio online. all the past week i havent really talked to him much, and that really got me down, cuz i started feeling like he didnt have time for me and i thought maybe he'd wanna break up with me....so online i asked him if he wanted to break up with me, and he got upset because i felt that way...and then he signed off cuz i guess his mom needed the phone..so i called him and we talked about things, and i guess i was really wrong about things, and it made me seem like i was gonna break up with him, and then since ive been talking to bill alot lately, he thought i was gonna leave him for bill...but we talked things out, and then he asked if i wanted to go with him to help him pick out a new cell phone. so i got dressed and wore my scarf and slippers cuz i was lazy and sick, and we went to the mall to the cingular booth. he finally got a new little tiny phone, so now when i call him, it wont die on me!! yess!! and then he took me home, cuz i didnt want to stay out late. he asked if i would help him on saturday with his USC application and then he asked if he could take me out for dinner for my birthday. i told him sure, but call me after 12, cuz i had things to do with my mom in the morning...
so on saturday, i went with my mom and sister at 10 to pick up my medicine, then we went shopping and back to the mall, i got some more clothes, and my sister needed an outfit for her pin and ribbon and then my mom had to run some other errands, so i got home about 2:30. and i ate and called emilio and he was kinda upset, because he thought id be home earlier and he'd been waiting for me. So he came over and picked me up around 5:30 and we headed off to his house...but we couldnt work on his application cuz his mom was on the phone, so we sat in his room bored. our reservations werent til 7:30, so we just sat around. then we left at 7..and it was pouring and cold...and we got to the resturaunt. It was called the el cholo cafe, ((hahah cholo ahhhaha)) it was really nice and the food was great!!!! i wanted to be home early, which i did get home early, just no as early as i hoped too :-/....but we hung out in his car for while in the warmth and cuddled and talked about things...it was really sweet. its nice to feel like i have some one perfect for me..and no matter how much he aggrivates me...i can forget all about it and like him more each time. we were listening to the rain in a sort of awkward silence and then he said...
emilio: "hey becky..."
me: "yes?"
emilio: [pause]....."what would you do for a klandike bar?"
LMFAO omg, not what i was expecting, but that was hilarious!!!!!!!!!!!!! haha, he's such a nerd, but i love it. anyways, and then he brought me home, and i took alot of medicine and passed out. i got up today at one...i had about 14 hours of sleep, and i feel really tired still. it feels kinda nice actually. haha.
<3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3
so it brings us back to this....
tomorrow is my birthday....im turning 17...the years are going by so quick, i didnt feel like i was 16 long enough. emilio is gonna pick me up from school tomorrow and we're gonna hang out for a bit..im not sure if my mom is gonna do the cake thing for me this year...and if she is, she hasnt said anything about it. but it really doesnt matter to me: :-P .....im not really excited for anything this year. i didnt make any really big plans, maybe thats why...but im sure next year i will!!!!
anyways, im off to get some more sleep. hope everyone had a good weekend <3
guess what..i cant do this anymore....
so this weekend has been really beautiful. im starting to understand alot of things that were unclear to me before. Alot of frustrations, and emptyness ive felt, have all somehow made me upset for the past 2 weeks, but after talking about how i feel, and writing it out....i feel alot better.
i wont let myself forget
This rain has been beautiful. Just listening to it really makes me feel grateful for all the good things i have in my life, all the people that i know care about me and my well being, my family (even though they annoy me), and all the opportunities that come my way, that i know other people deserve. im just sorry i dont always show how much i appreciate everything.
there are two beautiful people in my life...and no matter how much they do things that annoy me, or upset me...i love them to death, and would always take a bullet for them. im sorry for all the times ive let you guys down, or frustrated you because im so stubborn sometimes, or just never followed through on my word...i just wish i could be a better friend/girlfriend. i love you guys
<3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3
So, now lets discuss my week/weekend....ive been sick pretty much since the day i stayed the nite at britt's in her haunted room. haha, but i went to the doctors on friday and found out i have an ear infection in my right ear, and a sinus infection. wonderful!!!! haha and since its been raining there really hasnt been a break for me to get much better...but im determined to suck up all my medicine because i have that idlewild thing this weekend...and i cant go sick!! ill get worse, and i have a huge feeling im in for seeing snow for my first time. im a snow virgin! woooot!
so friday at school was pretty cool...i performed my drama thingie with rudik and got an A+, and i did it sounding like a man!!! so i was happy about that..and then afterschool my mom dropped me off at the doctors office, so i was there for the appointment alone, i waited so long, for such a short visit and then i went home..and talked to emilio online. all the past week i havent really talked to him much, and that really got me down, cuz i started feeling like he didnt have time for me and i thought maybe he'd wanna break up with me....so online i asked him if he wanted to break up with me, and he got upset because i felt that way...and then he signed off cuz i guess his mom needed the phone..so i called him and we talked about things, and i guess i was really wrong about things, and it made me seem like i was gonna break up with him, and then since ive been talking to bill alot lately, he thought i was gonna leave him for bill...but we talked things out, and then he asked if i wanted to go with him to help him pick out a new cell phone. so i got dressed and wore my scarf and slippers cuz i was lazy and sick, and we went to the mall to the cingular booth. he finally got a new little tiny phone, so now when i call him, it wont die on me!! yess!! and then he took me home, cuz i didnt want to stay out late. he asked if i would help him on saturday with his USC application and then he asked if he could take me out for dinner for my birthday. i told him sure, but call me after 12, cuz i had things to do with my mom in the morning...
so on saturday, i went with my mom and sister at 10 to pick up my medicine, then we went shopping and back to the mall, i got some more clothes, and my sister needed an outfit for her pin and ribbon and then my mom had to run some other errands, so i got home about 2:30. and i ate and called emilio and he was kinda upset, because he thought id be home earlier and he'd been waiting for me. So he came over and picked me up around 5:30 and we headed off to his house...but we couldnt work on his application cuz his mom was on the phone, so we sat in his room bored. our reservations werent til 7:30, so we just sat around. then we left at 7..and it was pouring and cold...and we got to the resturaunt. It was called the el cholo cafe, ((hahah cholo ahhhaha)) it was really nice and the food was great!!!! i wanted to be home early, which i did get home early, just no as early as i hoped too :-/....but we hung out in his car for while in the warmth and cuddled and talked about things...it was really sweet. its nice to feel like i have some one perfect for me..and no matter how much he aggrivates me...i can forget all about it and like him more each time. we were listening to the rain in a sort of awkward silence and then he said...
emilio: "hey becky..."
me: "yes?"
emilio: [pause]....."what would you do for a klandike bar?"
LMFAO omg, not what i was expecting, but that was hilarious!!!!!!!!!!!!! haha, he's such a nerd, but i love it. anyways, and then he brought me home, and i took alot of medicine and passed out. i got up today at one...i had about 14 hours of sleep, and i feel really tired still. it feels kinda nice actually. haha.
<3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3
so it brings us back to this....
tomorrow is my birthday....im turning 17...the years are going by so quick, i didnt feel like i was 16 long enough. emilio is gonna pick me up from school tomorrow and we're gonna hang out for a bit..im not sure if my mom is gonna do the cake thing for me this year...and if she is, she hasnt said anything about it. but it really doesnt matter to me: :-P .....im not really excited for anything this year. i didnt make any really big plans, maybe thats why...but im sure next year i will!!!!
anyways, im off to get some more sleep. hope everyone had a good weekend <3