and ya...
so the last few weeks have been pretty tense with school work and placement interviews. stress just seems to keep mounting up and up. i officially hate school and am ever so excited with the prospect of being done soon. i want to work; i need money. my life sucks b/c i am poor and stressed out. i have no interest in anything anymore and wish to spend my days in idle bliss; consumed by language and literature. i have been noticing that i am less and less interested in listening to music lately. while this might come as a sort of blow to my other half it is not because i no longer enjoy it; my life is far too noisy. my head is constantly filled with clatter of everyday life and i am becoming less and less enthused with the constant clang, clang of the mundane world. on my way to school now i enjoy sitting with the silence surrounding me while i dream away time in my imaginary world. i can find peace and excitement there that is at a controllable level and acts as the stress release i have so desperately craved. this past weekend actually afforded me some much needed down time as jay and i spent the entire weekend in the loving custody of sarah and drew. it was fantastic to spend that much time with friends i get to see so rarely. i need more down time and i fear going back to school next week. it will all start again; the bullshit, the nonsense, the stupidity, this could all be compounded by a possible strike...will i cross the picket line...some of my profs will be striking but others wont be....do i cross and pass some courses...or do i cross and fail some courses? i suppose we shall cross that line when we get there