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Is it really your place to say that I'm getting myself into a lot of trouble, or that I have no idea what I'm getting myself into with my little crush? Come on now. I'm a big girl. I'm 24. I have dated all sorts of boys. I can handle myself. Out of anyone I know, I protect myself so much more than others. I can drop a crush or a boy so fast it's not even funny. If anything or out of anyone, I think I'll be able to handle this. I'm not happy about the way you approached this. Telling Nikki that she needs to have a talk with me probably wasn't the best idea. Especially when it was just going to get a lot of people hot and heated. Now I want to conquer this even more. I want so bad to prove you wrong. He's told me in words you are wrong, but then again those are just words. They could be a lie. It all could be a lie. Often times it does all turn out to be a lie. But seriously, where do you get off? How is any of this your place? Yeah, I should really find out what kind of guy he is eh? Let me tell you what I know so far. I know what we've stayed up late into the night just talking, with a little cuddling mixed in. I know that he's asked me a lot of questions about myself. So either he likes hearing me talk, or he was really interested. I know that in the past four times that I've seen him, he has made me feel more like someone special than you have in six years. I don't trust him yet. In fact, with the mixed signals, I don't even know what he wants. I'm just tired of the games and the talking and all the bullshit.
So I asked him what he wanted for his birthday. He said all he wanted was for us girls to go to his party. Monika's sick and I don't want to go alone. I hate parties and people and such. I don't mix well in social environments. I back up and become a quiet little wallflower and end up feeling sad and alone. I baked him cookies, more because I owed him them. I bought him a book, but I don't know if I'll give it to him. In fact, I don't even know if I'll be in attendance at this party. I just don't want to be a bad friend or a bad person and wimp out of the party. Without Monika, I'll have to attend alone and I'm scared. I don't want to go anywhere alone.
I could resolve everything myself in a few weeks, regardless.
So I asked him what he wanted for his birthday. He said all he wanted was for us girls to go to his party. Monika's sick and I don't want to go alone. I hate parties and people and such. I don't mix well in social environments. I back up and become a quiet little wallflower and end up feeling sad and alone. I baked him cookies, more because I owed him them. I bought him a book, but I don't know if I'll give it to him. In fact, I don't even know if I'll be in attendance at this party. I just don't want to be a bad friend or a bad person and wimp out of the party. Without Monika, I'll have to attend alone and I'm scared. I don't want to go anywhere alone.
I could resolve everything myself in a few weeks, regardless.