Oct 13, 2005 21:48
112 pages that say exactly what I've thought of you all these years.
14 napkins that say everything I could never say to your face.
31 postits that reveal my secrets, my lies, my dissapointments and regrets.
4 hardly pressed pages smudged by tears and eraser marks.
11 drawings on pages that told me I still loved you.
172 pages that lied to my face.
and one person was all it took to show me you are worthless to me...
myself.
I was misguided by my taped heart and smeared eyeliner.
I was abused by a friend, a lover, a childhood memory.
I was haunted by the thought that you had changed...
this is the last thing I will ever write about you.