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Look what I've fuckin done to myself.
I can't drive, I can't get these fuckin braces off. I have no friends. I'm fucking alone. And you know what, I've done it all to myself. Because I let my fucking self esteem or whatever get so low in junior high I hit highschool and people actualy wanted to be my friend? I was so extact...and let it get to my head. I got bitchy...I lost myself but yet I gained a boyfriend. Now how selfish is that?.
Life is just waking up, eating and trying to go numb all day without any friends.
the worst part...the things that I had when I was truely happy...moved on. I think that's what hurts the most...maybe they didn't care in the first place.
I apologize for being emo, just you wouldn't get it I guess. Not having anyone to turn to, not even my own mom or sister can kill...literaly. The feeling that you have no one to turn to, plus the sadness already built up makes you want to combust or slash your chest open and tear your heart out. So maybe I am mental, it does run in the family just...it's still so wrong for anyone to have to feel this way.
I can't drive, I can't get these fuckin braces off. I have no friends. I'm fucking alone. And you know what, I've done it all to myself. Because I let my fucking self esteem or whatever get so low in junior high I hit highschool and people actualy wanted to be my friend? I was so extact...and let it get to my head. I got bitchy...I lost myself but yet I gained a boyfriend. Now how selfish is that?.
Life is just waking up, eating and trying to go numb all day without any friends.
the worst part...the things that I had when I was truely happy...moved on. I think that's what hurts the most...maybe they didn't care in the first place.
I apologize for being emo, just you wouldn't get it I guess. Not having anyone to turn to, not even my own mom or sister can kill...literaly. The feeling that you have no one to turn to, plus the sadness already built up makes you want to combust or slash your chest open and tear your heart out. So maybe I am mental, it does run in the family just...it's still so wrong for anyone to have to feel this way.