All in a tizzy...

[collegebearny]

So I woke up this morning and went to check the computer. Jason said that there was a problem with the RAID array 1 on the computer and I had scheduled a rebuild overnight. Everything was fine and so I logged onto bear411 to see who was online. Not more than 3 minutes online I get a message that says "Hey. I knew I would run into you one of these days!". It was a guy from Boston that I was kind of seeing right before I had to leave Beantown for home. I left because I made some bad choices and I was seriously unhappy at the time. But this guy was nice and we had some good times. Until the end. He was (I am not sure if he still is, but being on bear411 I don't think so) seriously closeted and afraid of people finding out. I on the other hand didn't give a rat’s ass about other peoples thoughts. I had to leave, he was making personal choices and kind of had a melt down - so on my last night in Boston, I stood on the train platform crying, asking him to come say good-bye. It never happened. I was hurt and it took sometime to get over that. I can still recall standing at one of the stations on the Orange Line, in the middle of the night after getting off one of the last trains, asking him to say bye in person. My eyes red and swollen, the first real hurt from another boy, the kind of hurt that I thought he wouldn't give to me.

So it's been like 5 years and today he messages me. I am intrigued. I want to know what he did to better himself, did he come out to anyone, why did he move , how did he do it, all the details. I wanted to dry heave when I saw his pic and name. I want to know more still. This is just weird.

Oh yeah, and I will be in Brooklyn this Saturday at The Living Room Lounge!!!