on the bright side...
so everything is going pretty well. i've decided that its just time to relax and chill out. i have come to the conclusion that being homesick sucks but that i'll just have to get over it and move on with my life. overall i see myself as a positive person but lately everything just seems so overwhelmingly negative. all my life i've wanted to detach myself from haddonfield but then i finally leave and i can't seem to shake it. i guess im just bitter that my friends are much closer to home and that im not. ahhh well...
ummm what else? thinking thinking...
crew workouts are kicking my ass. every time i get to the gym i lose my motivation. today, i had the hardest time on our 5 x 6 workout. its a difficult workout but its not that hard. im just gonna start getting serious now and drinking tons of milk. actually for the past week i've just been having these crazy cravings for milk. its kinda strange. any who ha, im having a really difficult getting this lightweight diet off the ground. its really sad but i really think im obsessed with eating...is that possible?!?! well basically i want to lose the weight quickly and then maintain myself until the season begins and then all the way until the end. the last thing we would need is one of us to step on the scale and go over the limit and not be able to row in our heat. its just a really big nerve thing with me and i want to have a huge comfort zone so i dont have a heart attack b/c of weigh-ins. i want to be focusing on my race and not my weight. and i find it extremely entertaining that as im writing this stuff about dieting, im munching on popcorn. ohhh soo entertaining.
ummm what else has been going on. the new neighbor girls are soooo obnoxious and loud. i dont mind loud music at all but they seriously have the speakers directed at our wall and you can just feel the bass blaring. ohhh well.
west wing tonight is gonna be awesome. im just nervous about toby resigning. i mean he's been one of the headliners of the show since the very beginning. i dont handle change very well and im thinking this could be a traumatic experience for me (not really but kinda sorta, i have been watching the show since the very beginning and i do get attached to these people. Josh and Donna just need to get over themselves and become a couple b/c they're in love and its pretty damn obvious! i find it really entertaining that i talk about these people as if i knew them personally.
wow this is a long entry...i guess i just have a lot to say tonight.
im losing my mind without a car. i mean people at home used to make fun of me b/c i would just get in the car and just go somewhere. people would get so confused as to why i would just go places by myself. especially during the summer b/c i loved driving at the shore and i would just go places. here at school i can't do that at all. there's no car and the fred sucks a lot! its never on time and just a mega pain. im working on getting my car down here for second semester b/c otherwise i can't go home from january until the middle of may and possibly the end of may if im so lucky to go to NCAAs in sacramento!!! but i highly doubt that will happen. my spring break is gonna be spent rowing, eating and sleeping and thats it! its gonna suck but it will make us faster.
well i gotta clean the room before the WEST WING PARTAY!!! haha its not much of party but still :)
ummm what else? thinking thinking...
crew workouts are kicking my ass. every time i get to the gym i lose my motivation. today, i had the hardest time on our 5 x 6 workout. its a difficult workout but its not that hard. im just gonna start getting serious now and drinking tons of milk. actually for the past week i've just been having these crazy cravings for milk. its kinda strange. any who ha, im having a really difficult getting this lightweight diet off the ground. its really sad but i really think im obsessed with eating...is that possible?!?! well basically i want to lose the weight quickly and then maintain myself until the season begins and then all the way until the end. the last thing we would need is one of us to step on the scale and go over the limit and not be able to row in our heat. its just a really big nerve thing with me and i want to have a huge comfort zone so i dont have a heart attack b/c of weigh-ins. i want to be focusing on my race and not my weight. and i find it extremely entertaining that as im writing this stuff about dieting, im munching on popcorn. ohhh soo entertaining.
ummm what else has been going on. the new neighbor girls are soooo obnoxious and loud. i dont mind loud music at all but they seriously have the speakers directed at our wall and you can just feel the bass blaring. ohhh well.
west wing tonight is gonna be awesome. im just nervous about toby resigning. i mean he's been one of the headliners of the show since the very beginning. i dont handle change very well and im thinking this could be a traumatic experience for me (not really but kinda sorta, i have been watching the show since the very beginning and i do get attached to these people. Josh and Donna just need to get over themselves and become a couple b/c they're in love and its pretty damn obvious! i find it really entertaining that i talk about these people as if i knew them personally.
wow this is a long entry...i guess i just have a lot to say tonight.
im losing my mind without a car. i mean people at home used to make fun of me b/c i would just get in the car and just go somewhere. people would get so confused as to why i would just go places by myself. especially during the summer b/c i loved driving at the shore and i would just go places. here at school i can't do that at all. there's no car and the fred sucks a lot! its never on time and just a mega pain. im working on getting my car down here for second semester b/c otherwise i can't go home from january until the middle of may and possibly the end of may if im so lucky to go to NCAAs in sacramento!!! but i highly doubt that will happen. my spring break is gonna be spent rowing, eating and sleeping and thats it! its gonna suck but it will make us faster.
well i gotta clean the room before the WEST WING PARTAY!!! haha its not much of party but still :)