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I've never felt more weak and helpless than I do now.
Nothing else has ever felt too complex to solve, too vast to contain, too heavy to hold, too broken to restore.
Until now.
I never felt like something was so above and beyond me, so untouchable.
Until this moment.
I've never felt this unable to breathe.
And this is exactly where God wants me.
To show me just how incapable I truly am.
To blow me away with the enormity of my weakness.
And my faults.
And how He is everything I am not.
And how He commands and directs what I foolishly thought I could wield.
He is taking the wheel.
I am breathless, and excited.
Terrified and yet at peace.
Brokeness is more than pain and heart ache.
Brokeness is realizing you are a shattered vessel.
A messy array of scattered, miniscule, and incapable fragmants.
Good for nothing but a restoration that you yourself cannot perform.
It is realizing you are a pathetic mess of shards and dust -
Paralyzed in all your dishevelment.
It is realizing you are helpess.
It is realizing He is God.
Nothing else has ever felt too complex to solve, too vast to contain, too heavy to hold, too broken to restore.
Until now.
I never felt like something was so above and beyond me, so untouchable.
Until this moment.
I've never felt this unable to breathe.
And this is exactly where God wants me.
To show me just how incapable I truly am.
To blow me away with the enormity of my weakness.
And my faults.
And how He is everything I am not.
And how He commands and directs what I foolishly thought I could wield.
He is taking the wheel.
I am breathless, and excited.
Terrified and yet at peace.
Brokeness is more than pain and heart ache.
Brokeness is realizing you are a shattered vessel.
A messy array of scattered, miniscule, and incapable fragmants.
Good for nothing but a restoration that you yourself cannot perform.
It is realizing you are a pathetic mess of shards and dust -
Paralyzed in all your dishevelment.
It is realizing you are helpess.
It is realizing He is God.