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The other Lydia made me laugh when I was drinking my coffee today. Now I feel like I have a marble lodged in the right side of my neck. I hope she didnt break my throat. I just might have to stop being friends with her. You know how seriously I take my throat health.
Haha, not really. I love that girl.
In other news, college is getting better. I've developed a system for myself where all my work gets done right before it's due, as in minutes before. Let me put it this way, every wednesday I have a paper due for my Expository Writing class. It's due at 3:55 when class begins. I hit print in the college library at 3:40. It seems risky, but I actually think it really works in a way. It seems I work well under pressure... If I know my work is due within the next few hours, procrastination is no longer an option! haha. And this semester is almost over! And now with the priveledge to schedule my own classes I feel like I have more of a command over my life, except for the fact that half of my college experience will be dictated by an immeasurable number of required courses. Oh well. Didn't you know? We high school graduates aren't in college, we're in 13th and 14th grade. College starts 2 years from now.
It's getting better though. And one thing I've managed to sift out of the avalanche of lessons I've been buried in as of late:
The main obstacle and difficulty in going through trials is the object of our focus... which is almost unavoidably ourselves. We develop that feeling of hopelessness and distress because our main concern is how weak and incapable we are. Our minds run on a constant cycle of: "I can't, I don't, I never, I never will, I'm weak, I'm lost, I'm wrong"... All of this often remains true, but we will never rely on God if we continue to rely on what we know of ourselves, and not what we know of Him. All of a sudden our worry evolves into pride. We are too weak, too flawed, too fill-in-the-blank, to be redeemed and to be fixed. Instead of focusing on the largeness and omnipotence of our God, we instead dwell and obsess on the smallness and powerlessness of ourselves. We look to the infant to solve the infant's problems, instead of abandoning the impossibility of the infant's limitations, and relying on the power of the Father, of the caretaker, of the One who can when we cannot. To wade through the thick, murky, and endless waters of a trial, don’t look down, look ahead. Did we learn nothing of Peter’s experience at sea? If you continue to look at your faltering feet, you not only will gain nothing of God's character from your present situation (which after all is the point of any trial, to not only grow in character of yourself, but to grow in the knowledge of the character of your Maker), but you will find yourself wading in exhaustion for much longer than you have to. Even if the situation doesn’t alleviate from your justified perspective, your attitude and understanding of Who is in control will make it all the more bearable to endure. It's tempting, and instinctive to look down, but keep your eyes locked with your Maker's. It's the key to freedom from self obsession and eventually self deterioration.
Haha, not really. I love that girl.
In other news, college is getting better. I've developed a system for myself where all my work gets done right before it's due, as in minutes before. Let me put it this way, every wednesday I have a paper due for my Expository Writing class. It's due at 3:55 when class begins. I hit print in the college library at 3:40. It seems risky, but I actually think it really works in a way. It seems I work well under pressure... If I know my work is due within the next few hours, procrastination is no longer an option! haha. And this semester is almost over! And now with the priveledge to schedule my own classes I feel like I have more of a command over my life, except for the fact that half of my college experience will be dictated by an immeasurable number of required courses. Oh well. Didn't you know? We high school graduates aren't in college, we're in 13th and 14th grade. College starts 2 years from now.
It's getting better though. And one thing I've managed to sift out of the avalanche of lessons I've been buried in as of late:
The main obstacle and difficulty in going through trials is the object of our focus... which is almost unavoidably ourselves. We develop that feeling of hopelessness and distress because our main concern is how weak and incapable we are. Our minds run on a constant cycle of: "I can't, I don't, I never, I never will, I'm weak, I'm lost, I'm wrong"... All of this often remains true, but we will never rely on God if we continue to rely on what we know of ourselves, and not what we know of Him. All of a sudden our worry evolves into pride. We are too weak, too flawed, too fill-in-the-blank, to be redeemed and to be fixed. Instead of focusing on the largeness and omnipotence of our God, we instead dwell and obsess on the smallness and powerlessness of ourselves. We look to the infant to solve the infant's problems, instead of abandoning the impossibility of the infant's limitations, and relying on the power of the Father, of the caretaker, of the One who can when we cannot. To wade through the thick, murky, and endless waters of a trial, don’t look down, look ahead. Did we learn nothing of Peter’s experience at sea? If you continue to look at your faltering feet, you not only will gain nothing of God's character from your present situation (which after all is the point of any trial, to not only grow in character of yourself, but to grow in the knowledge of the character of your Maker), but you will find yourself wading in exhaustion for much longer than you have to. Even if the situation doesn’t alleviate from your justified perspective, your attitude and understanding of Who is in control will make it all the more bearable to endure. It's tempting, and instinctive to look down, but keep your eyes locked with your Maker's. It's the key to freedom from self obsession and eventually self deterioration.