fanmix: it's been a long time coming (edward/bella)
title. it's been a long time coming
fandom/pairing. twilight / edward/bella
format/size. mp3/zip, 55mb
summary. This mix sees Edward and Bella in an alternate universe where after Bella is turned, her marriage to Edward deteriorates slowly over years until she seeks the thrill human blood can give her. This choice gives her the courage to leave Edward, demand a divorce and flee to Italy to join the Volturi. Naturally, Edward isn't able to let Bella go and travels to Italy to retrieve her and bring her home. However, Bella has her own agenda and she tempts Edward with the blood she's been feasting on. Edward -- being so very weak when it comes to Bella -- gives in and a reunion is made, with carnage left all over Volterra in their wake.
notes. The plot of this mix and excerpts below each song are part of a role-play I do with woven. Also, the manip in the tracklisting art is by her, as well. Half of this is hers, if not more. It's dedicated to her, and her ability to make me ship things I shouldn't. <3
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01patrick wolf - "demolition" ♪
since i met you, this house has started to decay and every wall that once was clean has turned a shade of grey.
She feels exhausted. She had tried. They had tried. They had put so much effort into trying and she'd gotten so sick of going nowhere after so much work. She couldn't play as much as he could. When he made love to her, it tasted like a lie. When he kissed her, it was for appearance's sake. They didn't touch anymore. What was the point? When you had forever, you had to make it worth it. Everything was so worthless now.
02glen hansard - "leave" ♪
and i hope you feel better now that it's out. what took you so long? and the truth has a habit of falling out of your mouth, but now that it's come, if you don't mind: leave, leave, and please yourself at the same time.
He wanted to hate her, to feel anything but the love that always consumed him, spilling over and screaming her name like it always had.
Never let her see you falter. Don’t give her the satisfaction.
He finally looks into her eyes again, the red threatening his composure and he realizes that she is right; he doesn’t know the person in front of him anymore. It had been so gradual at first but soon it was as if they were barely strangers, still laying together in the same bed, keeping a distance that felt so much more vast than it ever could be.
"I hope you feel better. Now that it’s out. No more secrets, no more lies."
He drops his head, finally moving, her hand hanging in their air before falling back to her side. He turns from her, looking out the window again, the twilight lingering but the night overtaking. It fills the room, the moonless night, every shred of light flickering out and icing over.
"There’s nothing holding you here, Bella. Just leave. Make it easier for both of us."
03stars - "a thread cut with a carving knife" ♪
baby close your eyes until tomorrow -- it could bring joy it could bring sorrow -- but it will come sure as light. try not to dream a dream tonight, imagine that you're standing here, and suddenly you disappear. a thread cut with a carving knife -- that is what they call our life
"I still love you." Eyes close, arms tighten, breath hitches. "Leave with that in mind. That even when you detest every single thing about me, I still fucking love you."
"Look where it got you." Nowhere but a rut. Did everything lead to nothingness?
Her hand was on the knob. She couldn't even feel the coldness of it but it was the door to an ending.
"You killed me." It tastes like ash in her mouth. "I killed us." Retaliation: an evil for an evil.
04portisthead - "over" ♪
i can't hold this day anymore, understand me anymore. to tread this fantasy openly. what have i done? this uncertainty is taking me over.
He had replayed the scene in his head a million times, picking it apart and trying to figure out where he has went wrong. Rosalie made sure to tell him that it wasn't him, but that meant it was Bella's fault, and he refused to believe that. This was his doing. After all, he was the one that drained the life from her, that watched the monster take her over as she screamed for it to stop, that held her when she wanted to cry but couldn't. Every second of their lives together was for naught now and that burned his skin.
05the kills - "kissy kissy" ♪
it's been a long time coming. i'm gonna stab your kissy, kissy mouth.
She makes good on her promise to herself. She does about everything in her power to erase him, sans dying her hair. And oh, she has power now. It bloats her, as good a toxin as any liquor she had scarcely touched when it would still have had any influence over her. Humanity is a whisper to her, but she can still remember it in short, vivid spurts of images and sensations.
06garbage - "vow" ♪
i came to shut you up. i came to drag you down. i came around to tear your little world apart and break your soul apart
It doesn't take long for her to notice he is near, and her change in appetite and style shows that. He wants to look away, but can't make himself. There is some morbid curiosity that craves to see and know what she's doing. He feels like a stalker in the shadows, and he supposes he is since he's yet to actually approach her. He wants to, wants to hold her and drag her home with him. He could care less if she curses at him, kicks and screams, attempts to tear him apart. He could at least say he tried his damnedest to fix her after breaking her so horribly.
07rasputina - "tourniquet" ♪
take your hatred out on me, make me your victim tonight. you never ever believed in me. i am your tourniquet.
She wants to drag him back, hook him into this and what lights up -- or, to be correct, dims -- his eyes. The want erupts in her suddenly. She can feel the loneliness that inspires it faintly in her empty chest. A part of her is aroused by the promise of seeing him be anything but himself and his perfect restraint. Abstinence is overly advertised. She's always been intrigued by an Edward without control and confining rules, even indulging in fantasies.
08a perfect circle - "the noose" ♪
recall the deeds as if they're all someone else's atrocious stories. now you stand reborn before us all; so glad to see you well.
He breathes out, the blood oozing from the gentle scratches on her neck placed by Bella. He leans in, his mouth so close to the delicious blood he craves so very badly. He looks up at Bella again, their eyes meeting intensely. "I love you." At this, he descends upon the girl's throat, tearing it open and drinking it so fast it numbs his mouth. Bella lets go of the girl, Edward holding her in his arms, ripping at her skin and tearing even more into her. He can feel Bella's happiness, and for some reason, it drives him on.
09radiohead - "climbing up the walls" ♪
and either way you turn, i'll be there. open up your skull, i'll be there. climbing up the walls.
This is better than any time he's touched her, almost. It feels like he's reached her soul, as black and raw and shriveled as it now is. She's nearly gone when he bites down. He hasn't done that in so long. And if he stops now, she doesn't know what she'll do, so she brings a hand up to grab above her. First to get him to go harder, before she hurls them away from the wall so they land on the ground tarnished by age and abandonment, placing them between the carnage. Two dead bodies for their reunion. She's staring right down into his eyes. All she sees is him, not even their sins, as she raises from him, until he's no longer inside of her, waiting for him to beg.
10yeah yeah yeahs - "our time" ♪
it's the year to hated, so glad that we made it. 'cause all the kids in the street whisper sounds that sweet. the stars under their feet. well, it's the year to be hated.
He's trying his best to not beam at her, to not show just how elated he is that she's in his arms and without restraint. The hole in his chest from before is so full that it just might burst. Everything feels perfectly at home, despite what it took to get him here. He refuses to think of anything except how much he loves Bella, how after everything, he finally has her back, and that if all it takes is a small lifestyle change -- and right now, he's sure it is for the better -- then it is worth it to feel like this.
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fandom/pairing. twilight / edward/bella
format/size. mp3/zip, 55mb
summary. This mix sees Edward and Bella in an alternate universe where after Bella is turned, her marriage to Edward deteriorates slowly over years until she seeks the thrill human blood can give her. This choice gives her the courage to leave Edward, demand a divorce and flee to Italy to join the Volturi. Naturally, Edward isn't able to let Bella go and travels to Italy to retrieve her and bring her home. However, Bella has her own agenda and she tempts Edward with the blood she's been feasting on. Edward -- being so very weak when it comes to Bella -- gives in and a reunion is made, with carnage left all over Volterra in their wake.
notes. The plot of this mix and excerpts below each song are part of a role-play I do with woven. Also, the manip in the tracklisting art is by her, as well. Half of this is hers, if not more. It's dedicated to her, and her ability to make me ship things I shouldn't. <3
download zip file
01patrick wolf - "demolition" ♪
since i met you, this house has started to decay and every wall that once was clean has turned a shade of grey.
She feels exhausted. She had tried. They had tried. They had put so much effort into trying and she'd gotten so sick of going nowhere after so much work. She couldn't play as much as he could. When he made love to her, it tasted like a lie. When he kissed her, it was for appearance's sake. They didn't touch anymore. What was the point? When you had forever, you had to make it worth it. Everything was so worthless now.
02glen hansard - "leave" ♪
and i hope you feel better now that it's out. what took you so long? and the truth has a habit of falling out of your mouth, but now that it's come, if you don't mind: leave, leave, and please yourself at the same time.
He wanted to hate her, to feel anything but the love that always consumed him, spilling over and screaming her name like it always had.
Never let her see you falter. Don’t give her the satisfaction.
He finally looks into her eyes again, the red threatening his composure and he realizes that she is right; he doesn’t know the person in front of him anymore. It had been so gradual at first but soon it was as if they were barely strangers, still laying together in the same bed, keeping a distance that felt so much more vast than it ever could be.
"I hope you feel better. Now that it’s out. No more secrets, no more lies."
He drops his head, finally moving, her hand hanging in their air before falling back to her side. He turns from her, looking out the window again, the twilight lingering but the night overtaking. It fills the room, the moonless night, every shred of light flickering out and icing over.
"There’s nothing holding you here, Bella. Just leave. Make it easier for both of us."
03stars - "a thread cut with a carving knife" ♪
baby close your eyes until tomorrow -- it could bring joy it could bring sorrow -- but it will come sure as light. try not to dream a dream tonight, imagine that you're standing here, and suddenly you disappear. a thread cut with a carving knife -- that is what they call our life
"I still love you." Eyes close, arms tighten, breath hitches. "Leave with that in mind. That even when you detest every single thing about me, I still fucking love you."
"Look where it got you." Nowhere but a rut. Did everything lead to nothingness?
Her hand was on the knob. She couldn't even feel the coldness of it but it was the door to an ending.
"You killed me." It tastes like ash in her mouth. "I killed us." Retaliation: an evil for an evil.
04portisthead - "over" ♪
i can't hold this day anymore, understand me anymore. to tread this fantasy openly. what have i done? this uncertainty is taking me over.
He had replayed the scene in his head a million times, picking it apart and trying to figure out where he has went wrong. Rosalie made sure to tell him that it wasn't him, but that meant it was Bella's fault, and he refused to believe that. This was his doing. After all, he was the one that drained the life from her, that watched the monster take her over as she screamed for it to stop, that held her when she wanted to cry but couldn't. Every second of their lives together was for naught now and that burned his skin.
05the kills - "kissy kissy" ♪
it's been a long time coming. i'm gonna stab your kissy, kissy mouth.
She makes good on her promise to herself. She does about everything in her power to erase him, sans dying her hair. And oh, she has power now. It bloats her, as good a toxin as any liquor she had scarcely touched when it would still have had any influence over her. Humanity is a whisper to her, but she can still remember it in short, vivid spurts of images and sensations.
06garbage - "vow" ♪
i came to shut you up. i came to drag you down. i came around to tear your little world apart and break your soul apart
It doesn't take long for her to notice he is near, and her change in appetite and style shows that. He wants to look away, but can't make himself. There is some morbid curiosity that craves to see and know what she's doing. He feels like a stalker in the shadows, and he supposes he is since he's yet to actually approach her. He wants to, wants to hold her and drag her home with him. He could care less if she curses at him, kicks and screams, attempts to tear him apart. He could at least say he tried his damnedest to fix her after breaking her so horribly.
07rasputina - "tourniquet" ♪
take your hatred out on me, make me your victim tonight. you never ever believed in me. i am your tourniquet.
She wants to drag him back, hook him into this and what lights up -- or, to be correct, dims -- his eyes. The want erupts in her suddenly. She can feel the loneliness that inspires it faintly in her empty chest. A part of her is aroused by the promise of seeing him be anything but himself and his perfect restraint. Abstinence is overly advertised. She's always been intrigued by an Edward without control and confining rules, even indulging in fantasies.
08a perfect circle - "the noose" ♪
recall the deeds as if they're all someone else's atrocious stories. now you stand reborn before us all; so glad to see you well.
He breathes out, the blood oozing from the gentle scratches on her neck placed by Bella. He leans in, his mouth so close to the delicious blood he craves so very badly. He looks up at Bella again, their eyes meeting intensely. "I love you." At this, he descends upon the girl's throat, tearing it open and drinking it so fast it numbs his mouth. Bella lets go of the girl, Edward holding her in his arms, ripping at her skin and tearing even more into her. He can feel Bella's happiness, and for some reason, it drives him on.
09radiohead - "climbing up the walls" ♪
and either way you turn, i'll be there. open up your skull, i'll be there. climbing up the walls.
This is better than any time he's touched her, almost. It feels like he's reached her soul, as black and raw and shriveled as it now is. She's nearly gone when he bites down. He hasn't done that in so long. And if he stops now, she doesn't know what she'll do, so she brings a hand up to grab above her. First to get him to go harder, before she hurls them away from the wall so they land on the ground tarnished by age and abandonment, placing them between the carnage. Two dead bodies for their reunion. She's staring right down into his eyes. All she sees is him, not even their sins, as she raises from him, until he's no longer inside of her, waiting for him to beg.
10yeah yeah yeahs - "our time" ♪
it's the year to hated, so glad that we made it. 'cause all the kids in the street whisper sounds that sweet. the stars under their feet. well, it's the year to be hated.
He's trying his best to not beam at her, to not show just how elated he is that she's in his arms and without restraint. The hole in his chest from before is so full that it just might burst. Everything feels perfectly at home, despite what it took to get him here. He refuses to think of anything except how much he loves Bella, how after everything, he finally has her back, and that if all it takes is a small lifestyle change -- and right now, he's sure it is for the better -- then it is worth it to feel like this.
Individual music downloads are the little music notes by the songs.
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