let's set our hearts at self-destruct...

[collapseinstyle]

tonight didn't go as well as it should have or as i hoped it would. i hung out a jessica's for bit, i didn't really feel like going out because my allergies are really kicking my ass but i was really looking forward to hanging with someone that didn't even show up, so i could have just stayed home and rested...oh well...it happens. so i just drank a little, then didn't feel like drinking, talked to gabe at length, he rules, then lisa showed up and made me drink a little bit more, then pablo and i went to the red eye for some dinner and a chat. he's good people, i really like that guy. he really makes me think and see things much more clearly, and i feel as though i do the same for him...he's a good person to be emo with.

i recieved a drunken call from ashley and amanda tonight, that was fun!! they're coming up next weekend, it's gonna be fucking rad, we're gonna make the streets of this city run fucking red with rivers of blood!!!

my allergies are bugging me and i can't breathe...i look i've been crying all night and people keep asking me what's wrong...but i'm just fucking sick, leave me alone!!!

all these drinks and drugs no longer help....