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these past 2 days have been thrown at me like. im not sure. they have been chaotic, confusing, painfull, joyous, dreamy, unreal
thanksgiving needs to be over. work has been so chaotic and stresfull. i cannot believe what a bakery has to go through to prepare for one freaking day. its almost ridiculous.
last night my whole world was quickly jolted. a part of my life flying back and altered my reality for a quick moment. all the sudden it feels like the past three months have not happened. i am back in juinor year. were everything is safe and theres no worries of the future. all this work of enjoying my senior year and moving on and changing got thrown out the door. im not sure how to handle it. im so glad tory is back, but it has not fully set in. its going to take weeks for everything to make sense again. im still not quite sure what is going on. all i know is im ecstatic that tor is back and only time will tell what happens next. i guess you really cant plan anything out in life, shit just happens.
on other fronts of my life im not quite sure. my mind is packed full of issues and problems and love and hurt but i dont have the time to comprehend much of it. im a jumbled mess at the moment but surviving it pretty well. i dont really know how but im just living it day by day it seems.
im so ready for school to be over tommorow. thursday and friday are going to be my little sanctuary of hope. i need these days to sleep and get my mind back together.
the fact that im going to be 18 within a matter of days is also confusing my mind. where has my time gone? i used to be so innocent and now i spend my days schooling, working, homeworking, and never sleeping. bah. its too much
i am glad that i still have moments were my heart flutters and i get nervous and my hands get all sweaty. im glad that im not too old for that. i hope that feeling never leaves.
Everyday, Everyday with you
Every little thing you do the way you do
Little darlin' in your eyes
Got me all up and away
You get me high
All for you I give it all
Cause when I'm thinking of you
When I'm flying above the world
How I wish I was drowning in you
I must admit that I'm oh so in love you know
Please don't ever let me go
You've done nothing to me but up up and away you go
All up and away
Ah you take me baby
Yeah
Mmmmm baby
thanksgiving needs to be over. work has been so chaotic and stresfull. i cannot believe what a bakery has to go through to prepare for one freaking day. its almost ridiculous.
last night my whole world was quickly jolted. a part of my life flying back and altered my reality for a quick moment. all the sudden it feels like the past three months have not happened. i am back in juinor year. were everything is safe and theres no worries of the future. all this work of enjoying my senior year and moving on and changing got thrown out the door. im not sure how to handle it. im so glad tory is back, but it has not fully set in. its going to take weeks for everything to make sense again. im still not quite sure what is going on. all i know is im ecstatic that tor is back and only time will tell what happens next. i guess you really cant plan anything out in life, shit just happens.
on other fronts of my life im not quite sure. my mind is packed full of issues and problems and love and hurt but i dont have the time to comprehend much of it. im a jumbled mess at the moment but surviving it pretty well. i dont really know how but im just living it day by day it seems.
im so ready for school to be over tommorow. thursday and friday are going to be my little sanctuary of hope. i need these days to sleep and get my mind back together.
the fact that im going to be 18 within a matter of days is also confusing my mind. where has my time gone? i used to be so innocent and now i spend my days schooling, working, homeworking, and never sleeping. bah. its too much
i am glad that i still have moments were my heart flutters and i get nervous and my hands get all sweaty. im glad that im not too old for that. i hope that feeling never leaves.
Everyday, Everyday with you
Every little thing you do the way you do
Little darlin' in your eyes
Got me all up and away
You get me high
All for you I give it all
Cause when I'm thinking of you
When I'm flying above the world
How I wish I was drowning in you
I must admit that I'm oh so in love you know
Please don't ever let me go
You've done nothing to me but up up and away you go
All up and away
Ah you take me baby
Yeah
Mmmmm baby