(Before you get started reading this, you must know something. I'm hesitant about posting this blog entry and I don't know why. Maybe I'm way off base here. Yeah, I'm uncertain. Maybe a little crazy; I'm not sure. All I know is that when I woke up I thought I was doing OK and then someone said something that made me realize I need to check out my heart one more time and see where it's at.
I want to be a better person. I need to be a better person. So this is my last ditch effort. Flat out. Search your heart, pray to God, and go, please.)
I have an assignment for you, and it is this. If you think I'm hypocritical, negative, or otherwise un-Godly (note I didn't say "un-Christian") in any way, you need to be honest and tell me. If I'm doing something wrong I need to know. It just doesn't do many any good if I continue to sin and I'm not aware of what I'm doing. No?
If you're not comfortable with talking to me in person, email, or phone, I've created an anonymous contact form that you can use to submit your comments. It doesn't trace your IP or anything like that, so you are safe using it without me knowing who you are.
Contact Form (In case you don't believe me about the confidentiality thing, here's the source code.) Thankfully one of you already has pointed out something I didn't realize. When my wife says something that I think is cute/silly/funny/whatever, I need to keep it to myself. I had no idea that people perceived I was ragging on her. In my heart I never meant anything negative (this is one of my favorite traits of her personality), but how does that matter when people think you don't take your wife seriously?
You might think I don't care what other people think about me, but that's just not true. Despite what the church might like to believe, perception is everything. Turning off the world to Christ by accidentally saying or doing dumb things is the last thing we should be doing.
So... I don't know how to say this otherwise, but I'm sorry.