when your backs against the wall, and there's no one left to call, call me
well i can barely get this out. it just hurts so much. but i know i have to. there's just no other way.
I feel like I've just broken up her. But she doesn't know.
I just can't see her for a while, if ever. It just hurts me too much.
Today I drove home the long way, crying the whole time.
And that wasn't even enough. There's another pool of tears on my desk now.
Losing one of my best friends is hard. Losing one of 1.5 years, who I cared for immensely is even harder.
What do you do the night you break up?
You had planned on seeing each other so much, and now the person that you spend the most time with has suddenly vanished.
I look at pictures of her and listen to sad songs.
We have a lot of memories together. We've been all around with each other. And its almost always just us.
That's what makes it so different. There's no going on as usual without her.
Life will take a long while to fill her gap.
But that's life.
And that's how it goes.
since you've been gone, i can't breath for the first time
tonight i asked her it all. just to stamp out hope, i guess.
i asked her if she ever liked me, she said, however unconvincingly, that she always had a boyfriend, so she never liked me. so there you go.
i asked her flat out if she'd date me, she at first sort of answered in a round about way saying i would be on a waiting list (to date her). then she mentioned college. i told her college could change. finally, after she emerged out from under the blankets she covered her face with in order to avoid the question, i asked her whether it was a yes or no. she said i can't date you.
now, she didn't say she didn't want to, she said she couldn't. thankfully, though, i am taking this one at its logical value. she's not willing to date me.
I mean it makes sense. A gorgeous girl like her doesn't belong with someone like me.
We went to safeway, where this 25 year old or so looked her up and down while she was walking in front of me. He then saw me glaring at him, he figured out i was with her, and we didnt break eye contact until we walked past each other. He was still looking at us in the queue. I mean she's just that high up.
Still, I just don't know why it couldn't have worked out. I have never liked anyone more. People tell me not to do everything she says, but i figured out i do it because i just like doing things for her. so there you all go.
i would have treated her the best i ever could have.
that's all i can offer.
Maybe that's the reason. She deserves the best of everything. And maybe my best wasn't up to par. And that's fair.
She deserves to be as happy as possible. As long as she's as happy as can be; I suppose I'm happy too.
On our way to the place where told her how much i fancied her, she told me flat out "I think I'm going to date Paul (this guy she's been talking to)." That was a bit of a hard blow, but hopefully it will work well for her. In the end, that's all that's important.
Her dog and I bonded today. I talked to him and told him to watch out for her. I told him that she's beautiful girl and that sometimes, they have the most problems.
As long as she gets what she wants from life, I'll be fine. I'm just not going to be able to get what I want. But that's the way the cards were dealt.
So now for the perfect song.
Giving you now the freshest music from Liverpool, here is an excellent song, perfectly describing the situation. This is so new, in fact, that I had to write down the lyrics myself. I saw the artist playing in a support slot at a very intimate London gig. Being in the front row at this gig, you could feel his energy; he mesmerized the entire room. Just him playing from his debut album made for quite an excellent opener.
Here is an upbeat song about how sometimes you can't be with the one you love. Not as a negative consequence to any action, but merely as a result of life itself. Here is a song for those you wish you could still be with, but life simply won't allow it.
Here, now, is what will surely be the new James Blunt, Lee Broderick and his debut single "The Goodbye Song"
This song's about a beautiful girl
This song's about a beautiful girl
I met her in a place,
I can't remember the name
We hung out for a week or two,
going to the places that she knew
Talking to her friends
like I've known them for a while,
throwing her a glance
and a familiar smile
I loved her,
more than life,
more than life would give me
I loved her,
more than time,
with every breath within me
Time, will never do,
what you asked it to
No, time, will never do,
what you asked it to
Goodbye now to you
This song's about a beautiful girl
a girl without a care in the world
And I can't forget how she cried when I left,
how she wiped her soul on her sleeve
I loved her,
more than life,
more than life would give me
I loved her,
more than time,
with every breath within me
Time, will never do,
what you asked it to
No, time, will never do,
what you asked it to
Goodbye now to you
This song's about a beautiful girl,
a girl who questioned everything she heard
I told her I loved her,
she asked me my name,
I told it was Arthur, she laughed,
she said mine's just the same
And I loved her,
more than life,
more than life would give me
I loved her,
more than time,
with every breath within me
Time, will never do,
what you asked it to
No, time, will never do,
what you asked it to
Goodbye now to you
Oh, Goodbye now to you
Goodbye now to you
Goodbye now to you
Goodbye now to you