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and i say baby___yes i feel stupid tO call yOu, but im lOnely. and i dOnt think yOu meant it when you said yOu cOuldnt lOve me. and i thOught maybe if i kissed, the way yOu dO, yOud feel it tOo. He said im sOrry, sO sOsry.
ok so today's easter.. YAY. lOl fOod. neways yea above is juss some Maria Mena lyrics that have been on my mind. ok recap of the weekend.
Friday--Hung out with jimmy ALL DAY.Lord i was so excited. i've missed him so much. n then i chilled w/ mark n manny on Thursday night.. seen Sara Sammi A, lil Nicole n Meka n Jazzy FreSh for a minute. lol. wow do i miss you guys. then friday night i went over adams when he got home... Lord i love him and his mom.. theyre juss great people... and Adam.. IM HAPPY YOURE HOME. WE ALL MISSED YOU.coney island--the incredibles-- ur mom n her skinny head n big black bootayyy lol. the whole thing was amazing.. and ive missed you. the REAL you.
Saturday-- hadda wake up @ like 8 cuz i hadda eye doc. appointment @ 9.15--->i gotta get glasses yo. but theyre so cute theyre tommy hilfiger n theyre awesome, n i dont need to wear em all the time.. juss for driving n stuff.then i went to the regular docs. it was amazing. i was talkin to the nurses about God n she gave me this story from a friend that sent it to her talking about how the evergreen trees know its easter cuz they sprout yellow crosses @ the tops of em.. n its true. then i hung out w/ mark (A.K.A. SPITBOY) Jimmy n ALicia @ the mall. i felt bad alicia did not feel good @ all. yea Jimmy was bein a lil dumb.. but i was overreactinggg. Lord Jimmy if you read this to tell you the truth i was so ready to just kill you or something... but i decided im not ready to lose you yet.. i love you too much. and yes sorry for my bullshit. yea but we hadda good time n we seen aMANda. yea that was a trip. lol then we juss chilled @ my house for a lil while.. me n alicia hung out watched HannaH.. lord that was great, makin easter eggs...watchin dora n peter pan.. everything. thanx baby i know you didnt feel well.
Sunday-- got up n went to church.. Lord they got me in heels. SERVICE WAS UNBELIEVABLE. it was the best service ive gone to ina long time... and i finally got Larry, mom, dad n Steve all there. i was so happy even if they didnt participate... the only one that did was my dad.. figures right? thats why i love him. now im kinda juss chillin here after we ate dinner w/ michelle n her boys Josh--whos goin to China in May,Jake--whos Marleys dad.. the cutest lil girl EVER,Brad--whos juss sweeter thana mug lol, n Tim-- who wants to buy a "i love my penis" shirt, and is currently wearing one that says DOM PHOK. lmao n Brandy, Brads gf's here too.. its sweet im really happy to be here right now.. todays going really good.
Jimmy-i gotta say something to yOu if you read this. im sorry we fight im sorry we argue sometimes im sorry for being the way that i am and sometimes that happens to be a bitch. but theres two things you HAVE to understand about me... 1) im a very jealous girlfriend and 2) i love you VERY MUCH. i get jealous because when i see you lookin @ any other girl like yea sometimes ill laugh about it but i mean for that second your attention was on her.. n i think in the back of my mind that you might be comparing me to her. i know youre not, but idk i love you so much... i havent cared about any guy like this in a LONG time.. not even JeVonie.. n if you read back to past journal entries... Lord knows i thought i was in love with him. HE IS NOTHING COMPARED TO YOU. you still tryed bein nice even when you knew you were in "the doghouse" lol. you care about what my parents think, you brought in the groceries... idk what i would do without you. the little things that you do make me love you more and more everyday. thats why i get so mad when you look @ other girls.. because for that one second.. they had the attention of the greatest guy in the world.. and i wouldnt want you to be anything but mine. i love you so much baby. you seriously never have and never will have any clue as to how much.
x0__Nicole
COMMENT N ILL LOVE YOUUUU FOREVERRR. HAPPY EASTER. :D
P.S.MICHELLE BOUGHT ME THE JOSH GRACIN CD. HECK YES.