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i dont know when the last time i updated was.
it doesnt really matter tho... cuz the ppl i want to know my dirt... already do... so there isnt really a need for this thing any more anyways.
uhhhh.... so after me and corey broke up.... i went a little ape shit. felt un needed... un wanted... un pretty... pretty much terrible... and the first thing i wanted to do was get back together with him... not to sure why... because all we ever did was play games. we never said what we were really thinking... or how we really felt.... because the few times we did that... the other one of us would get upset or pissed... and we'd fight... so i guess that its better that we broke up anyways.... he has a nw girlfriend now... and is really happy... and treats he the way everygirl in the world wishes to be treated... so he found his real match... and thats wonderful! im not being sarcastic or anything. just waiting for my turn.
anyways... back to apeshit... i did a few things that im really not to proud of. hooked up with people just for the sake of hooking up... telling myself that i still got it... and that i am wanted. went a bit farther than i usually would have... and that pissed me off. im better than that... im smarter than that... and im worth more than that. so what the hell was i thinking?
so then i decided i wanted to be with someone who was sweet and simple, and completely innocent of all charges. then i wouldnt feel the need to do things that i dont want to... and i could have a cute young type of relationship that was conetrated more on the menta aspect of it rather than the physical.
that didnt work out.
so now im drifitng along... knowing that i dont need anyone.... and i am perfectly wonderful just being myself. things will happen when they are meant to. :) so i dont really need to be rushing relationships or anything.
so thats good.
i have my two best friends that are there for me nomatter what. i can call them whenever and know that they will offer me comforting words and tons of wisdom. what would i do with out them? i dont want to know.
so 2006... we always make reselutions promising to keep our rooms clean... or lose 10 lbs... or be nicer to ouur families.... well next yr... i just want to be myself... and let things fall into place the way god feels is right.... yes... i said god.... thats another thing... i want to beleive in god... and trust in him.... thats gonna be hard for me.... really hard.... but im gonna try.
it doesnt really matter tho... cuz the ppl i want to know my dirt... already do... so there isnt really a need for this thing any more anyways.
uhhhh.... so after me and corey broke up.... i went a little ape shit. felt un needed... un wanted... un pretty... pretty much terrible... and the first thing i wanted to do was get back together with him... not to sure why... because all we ever did was play games. we never said what we were really thinking... or how we really felt.... because the few times we did that... the other one of us would get upset or pissed... and we'd fight... so i guess that its better that we broke up anyways.... he has a nw girlfriend now... and is really happy... and treats he the way everygirl in the world wishes to be treated... so he found his real match... and thats wonderful! im not being sarcastic or anything. just waiting for my turn.
anyways... back to apeshit... i did a few things that im really not to proud of. hooked up with people just for the sake of hooking up... telling myself that i still got it... and that i am wanted. went a bit farther than i usually would have... and that pissed me off. im better than that... im smarter than that... and im worth more than that. so what the hell was i thinking?
so then i decided i wanted to be with someone who was sweet and simple, and completely innocent of all charges. then i wouldnt feel the need to do things that i dont want to... and i could have a cute young type of relationship that was conetrated more on the menta aspect of it rather than the physical.
that didnt work out.
so now im drifitng along... knowing that i dont need anyone.... and i am perfectly wonderful just being myself. things will happen when they are meant to. :) so i dont really need to be rushing relationships or anything.
so thats good.
i have my two best friends that are there for me nomatter what. i can call them whenever and know that they will offer me comforting words and tons of wisdom. what would i do with out them? i dont want to know.
so 2006... we always make reselutions promising to keep our rooms clean... or lose 10 lbs... or be nicer to ouur families.... well next yr... i just want to be myself... and let things fall into place the way god feels is right.... yes... i said god.... thats another thing... i want to beleive in god... and trust in him.... thats gonna be hard for me.... really hard.... but im gonna try.