what am i on?
I'm not really on anything. I swear I haven't done anything in so long. I think it might just be stress and junk but the other night I had this crazy ass dream that John Travolta gave me Lou Gehrig's disease from this whitish stuff that he had in my I.V. call Lookrieg. That was fucked. Then I had sort of a re occuring dream. Like the place as the same but I there for a different reason. I dunno it was this weird church thing but it was a library. I'm trying to get into this place so I climb the ladder next to the building cuz there's no doors. Then once I do that I see a staircase behind what would be the front entrance and I try to get on the staircase but I can't cuz I'm afraid of heights and I can't jump to it. Then after I get feed-up with everything, I realize I'm inside the library trying to get out. That's weird.
Then last night I had like 3 dreams in one. They all melted together. In all 3 of the dreams Dan left me. He physically got up and left, walked out and he was gone and I knew if was forever. That's not the weird part I worry about that all the time with shit being the way it is. The weird thing was that in one of the dreams John and I got back together. I dunno it was strange. We saw one another and talked for a minute then we were hugging like we haden't seen each other in years( we havent) and we were just talking to each other that way. We were saying shit like I can't believe ur gone, and I love you, and Wow! I'm so glad ur back. The strangest thing I remember was I said "God! I've missed you so much." Then John told me "I know, it's been harder then you know." Which kinda struck me odd in my dream because I always remember John telling me " I love you, more then you could ever know." Then a week later he talls me he doesn't think he loves me anymore. But that's another story.
I don't know what's going on. Those are really weird dreams and I wish I could understand them.
Then last night I had like 3 dreams in one. They all melted together. In all 3 of the dreams Dan left me. He physically got up and left, walked out and he was gone and I knew if was forever. That's not the weird part I worry about that all the time with shit being the way it is. The weird thing was that in one of the dreams John and I got back together. I dunno it was strange. We saw one another and talked for a minute then we were hugging like we haden't seen each other in years( we havent) and we were just talking to each other that way. We were saying shit like I can't believe ur gone, and I love you, and Wow! I'm so glad ur back. The strangest thing I remember was I said "God! I've missed you so much." Then John told me "I know, it's been harder then you know." Which kinda struck me odd in my dream because I always remember John telling me " I love you, more then you could ever know." Then a week later he talls me he doesn't think he loves me anymore. But that's another story.
I don't know what's going on. Those are really weird dreams and I wish I could understand them.