Gah
So, I'm done with high school. Forever. That is so wierd. I don't think that it has actually hit me yet. I feel like on monday I will just get up and go see everybody again. But I won't. The Senior Party was fun! I smashed my finger though, and my dad thinks its broken. It's completly purple and black.
I'm ready for something new now. Anything new to distract me. Why do I keep on doing these things to myself? I went to River today to kind of have my final talk with Kari and Lauren. It did not end how I would have wanted it too, and basically, it's poor Josh. Look what Nicole has done to him. She forced him to do things that he didn't want to do. He thought that she would dump him or whatever if he didn't. That pisses me off. He is such a fucking little liar. And I don't want to think about him anymore. I don't want to love him anymore. But I can't stop myself. I feel like I need to talk to him one last time to get some things out of me so I can move on. Every time I look at a boy, I think about Josh. I can't even honestly imagine me with somebody else. It will be a month since we broke up this week.
All of his friends grew kind of hostile at me wanting to talk to Josh. But I'm not doing it to hurt him, I'm doing it for me. I hope that this way, I'll be able to let it go, and move on. I guess he cut his hair. Thats kind of funny since I wrote on his myspace how bad I thought his long hair and in a pony tail looked. Gah! I just want to erase him for a while. And nobody will answer thier phone
This is so dumb! I just graduated! I have so many things to look forward to in my life. I just feel stuck in this horrible point right now, and I can't get out.
I'm ready for something new now. Anything new to distract me. Why do I keep on doing these things to myself? I went to River today to kind of have my final talk with Kari and Lauren. It did not end how I would have wanted it too, and basically, it's poor Josh. Look what Nicole has done to him. She forced him to do things that he didn't want to do. He thought that she would dump him or whatever if he didn't. That pisses me off. He is such a fucking little liar. And I don't want to think about him anymore. I don't want to love him anymore. But I can't stop myself. I feel like I need to talk to him one last time to get some things out of me so I can move on. Every time I look at a boy, I think about Josh. I can't even honestly imagine me with somebody else. It will be a month since we broke up this week.
All of his friends grew kind of hostile at me wanting to talk to Josh. But I'm not doing it to hurt him, I'm doing it for me. I hope that this way, I'll be able to let it go, and move on. I guess he cut his hair. Thats kind of funny since I wrote on his myspace how bad I thought his long hair and in a pony tail looked. Gah! I just want to erase him for a while. And nobody will answer thier phone
This is so dumb! I just graduated! I have so many things to look forward to in my life. I just feel stuck in this horrible point right now, and I can't get out.