starting over.
so it's been a while. and my life is completely different then the last update. It's almost been a year since that update, can you imagine that?
Thomas and I broke up a few weeks after my last post. I thought it was the distance that truly ended us, but a few weeks after my theory changed. I think Thomas had a lot more animosity towards me then I thought, not sure why. Not sure if I'll ever know. So we broke up and talked a few weeks after, then he cursed me out and I haven't talked to him since.
But after the break up, I began to pursue a friend that I was interested a little bit more then a friend. Brian Nicoletti. He's amazing and we've been together since Thomas broke up with me and officially dating since February 2010. We're good. That's all that needs to be written for now.
SCHOOL, oh how I wish I was in school. Post has a hold on my account that inevitably kept me out of school for a year, and I hope not any longer. I'm not doing pre-med anymore. I'm not going to Post anymore. And I'm actually excited to get back into school to LEARN, and not just to get my degree and peace. I'm doing business entrepreneurship. I'm natually good with business, I got it from my mommy, and it interest me a lot. I'm excited I took the time off to get my priorities straight, and now I also know. SCHOOL SCHOOL SCHOOL. I cannot let anything come in the way of that once I'm back in. No boys, no girls, no drama, no excuses. I know where I want to be in life within the next few years, and I'll be damned if I do not reach my goals.
I started this up again not because I care about who reads and doesn't read it. I did this because I wanted to start documenting my life, writing down ideas, thoughts, anything. I feel as if I changed a lot this past year moving on after Thomas, realizing that just because of a break up doesn't mean the world over, and there always might be that one person you never expected to be there ready to catch you. Brian honestly has changed me. I'm a lot more of a relaxed person now. I have goals and aspirations that people might think are crazy, but he has so much faith in me that I truly can do whatever I want. He showed me how to be me, why should I care about others opinion on me? ... I should't. As long as I'm still polite and respectful and do the right thing, whatever anyone says does or comment about doesn't matter. Brian loves me for me. He likes me more when I'm not wearing make up and my hair is a mess. He thinks I'm gorgeous when I'm just in my pajamas. I don't need to impress him, as long as I am me, he loves me. Having the security feeling is an amazing thing and I cannot imagine it any other way.
My best friend Lindsey came over today to ask me about relationship advice. She's been dating her boyfriend for four and a half years. Now that's longer then any relationship I know nowadays. She's not happy though, she loves him but she met him at 14-15 years old. Lindsey was never able to be a wreckless teenage girl. And now that we aren't teenagers for much longer we need to realize whats going on. She a brilliant, and driven girl and she needs someone who can keep up with her and motivate her to do everything she can. Because honestly, that girl can do whatever she wants. The spark has dulled and mentalities have changed. Relationships don't always work so, how do you know when you end it? or fix it?
A lot has been going on in my life but now I'm happy that I can get some of my thoughts straight and somethings out. This was the best place for me to vent.
I went from thinking I was marrying Thomas this time last year,
to a WHOLE new life with Brian Patrick Nicoletti.
I adore him, I truly do.
He really knows how to keep me smiling, and it's weird being in a relationship where I don't ever doubt if my boyfriend loves me or not. Now I'm not going around thinking "oh Brian and me are getting married ahh forever and ever". Ideally I'd love to be with Brian for the rest of my life if we can make it work. Yet, people always change and it all depends on wheather or not the changes are for good.
Let's see what happens in the next few weeks as 2010 comes to a close. Damn this year went fast.
End Note: I love Brian Patrick Nicoletti<3
Thomas and I broke up a few weeks after my last post. I thought it was the distance that truly ended us, but a few weeks after my theory changed. I think Thomas had a lot more animosity towards me then I thought, not sure why. Not sure if I'll ever know. So we broke up and talked a few weeks after, then he cursed me out and I haven't talked to him since.
But after the break up, I began to pursue a friend that I was interested a little bit more then a friend. Brian Nicoletti. He's amazing and we've been together since Thomas broke up with me and officially dating since February 2010. We're good. That's all that needs to be written for now.
SCHOOL, oh how I wish I was in school. Post has a hold on my account that inevitably kept me out of school for a year, and I hope not any longer. I'm not doing pre-med anymore. I'm not going to Post anymore. And I'm actually excited to get back into school to LEARN, and not just to get my degree and peace. I'm doing business entrepreneurship. I'm natually good with business, I got it from my mommy, and it interest me a lot. I'm excited I took the time off to get my priorities straight, and now I also know. SCHOOL SCHOOL SCHOOL. I cannot let anything come in the way of that once I'm back in. No boys, no girls, no drama, no excuses. I know where I want to be in life within the next few years, and I'll be damned if I do not reach my goals.
I started this up again not because I care about who reads and doesn't read it. I did this because I wanted to start documenting my life, writing down ideas, thoughts, anything. I feel as if I changed a lot this past year moving on after Thomas, realizing that just because of a break up doesn't mean the world over, and there always might be that one person you never expected to be there ready to catch you. Brian honestly has changed me. I'm a lot more of a relaxed person now. I have goals and aspirations that people might think are crazy, but he has so much faith in me that I truly can do whatever I want. He showed me how to be me, why should I care about others opinion on me? ... I should't. As long as I'm still polite and respectful and do the right thing, whatever anyone says does or comment about doesn't matter. Brian loves me for me. He likes me more when I'm not wearing make up and my hair is a mess. He thinks I'm gorgeous when I'm just in my pajamas. I don't need to impress him, as long as I am me, he loves me. Having the security feeling is an amazing thing and I cannot imagine it any other way.
My best friend Lindsey came over today to ask me about relationship advice. She's been dating her boyfriend for four and a half years. Now that's longer then any relationship I know nowadays. She's not happy though, she loves him but she met him at 14-15 years old. Lindsey was never able to be a wreckless teenage girl. And now that we aren't teenagers for much longer we need to realize whats going on. She a brilliant, and driven girl and she needs someone who can keep up with her and motivate her to do everything she can. Because honestly, that girl can do whatever she wants. The spark has dulled and mentalities have changed. Relationships don't always work so, how do you know when you end it? or fix it?
A lot has been going on in my life but now I'm happy that I can get some of my thoughts straight and somethings out. This was the best place for me to vent.
I went from thinking I was marrying Thomas this time last year,
to a WHOLE new life with Brian Patrick Nicoletti.
I adore him, I truly do.
He really knows how to keep me smiling, and it's weird being in a relationship where I don't ever doubt if my boyfriend loves me or not. Now I'm not going around thinking "oh Brian and me are getting married ahh forever and ever". Ideally I'd love to be with Brian for the rest of my life if we can make it work. Yet, people always change and it all depends on wheather or not the changes are for good.
Let's see what happens in the next few weeks as 2010 comes to a close. Damn this year went fast.
End Note: I love Brian Patrick Nicoletti<3