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So. Halifax on Saturday to visit Bif, Foxx, and Britt. That sounds like a plan to me, aside from the fact that people will have to drag me from Cone while avoiding kicks and scratches. As stupid as this sounds, I don't want to leave his side. At all. I suppose this is one of those "Where have you been all my life?" things, I'm not really sure. We've only known each other for a few weeks, though I know for a fact that I want to keep in touch with him for quite a bit longer than that. Speaking of touching and involving me, he is the only one entitled to do so. You guessed it: we're together now. I didn't update about it yesterday, though we've been dating since then. I'll spare you the details, but the way it happened was really adorable. Not my embarassment nor the fact that I just blurted out that I had feelings for him when he was giving me advice, but the way he was all, "so I think this is the part where I ask you out" and the way he wasn't afraid or ashamed of returning his feelings, not even in public.
Why this amazes me so much is that I'm pretty much a nobody, while he's in a band that almost everyone has heard of at one point or another if they're 'up' with pop culture. Sure, our videos have been on Much, but ask anyone in America or anyone in Europe who LiveonRelease is and they'll have no idea. Some will probably say "...is that a show about basketball?" The point I'm trying to make is that when I was coming up with reasons as to why he would never date me about a week or so ago, one of them was the idea that he'd be embarassed to be with me. I never really think I'm good enough for anyone, and now that I'm actually with him, as morbid as this sounds, I'm waiting to wake up from the dream. I'm anticipating waking up tomorrow and having him regret his decision to be with me in the first place. Maybe it's just an old habit that I need to get over, who really knows.
Yesterday when it happened, I was the happiest girl around for a while. Today made almost a 360 degree turn for the worse, leaving me disheveled and confused as I found out certain bits of information about people that I've hurt in the process of becoming Cone's girlfriend. It was quite the shocker when I discovered that three other people had feelings for me. I absolutely hate hurting anyone at all, and seeing as I consider each person a friend of mine, I felt so guilty and terrible. Timing is everything, I suppose. Though it is selfish for me to say that I'm extremely happy that I'm with Cone and wouldn't have it any other way, that's about the jist of things at the moment. I was quite dejected, everything was bothering me, I got in a fight with several people, and then he returned and talked things out with me. Everything was better almost instantaneously, he just has that effect. He made me laugh and also realize that this might have been a bad day, but there will be plenty of better ones to come.
I just hope I can be as great to him as he is to me.
Why this amazes me so much is that I'm pretty much a nobody, while he's in a band that almost everyone has heard of at one point or another if they're 'up' with pop culture. Sure, our videos have been on Much, but ask anyone in America or anyone in Europe who LiveonRelease is and they'll have no idea. Some will probably say "...is that a show about basketball?" The point I'm trying to make is that when I was coming up with reasons as to why he would never date me about a week or so ago, one of them was the idea that he'd be embarassed to be with me. I never really think I'm good enough for anyone, and now that I'm actually with him, as morbid as this sounds, I'm waiting to wake up from the dream. I'm anticipating waking up tomorrow and having him regret his decision to be with me in the first place. Maybe it's just an old habit that I need to get over, who really knows.
Yesterday when it happened, I was the happiest girl around for a while. Today made almost a 360 degree turn for the worse, leaving me disheveled and confused as I found out certain bits of information about people that I've hurt in the process of becoming Cone's girlfriend. It was quite the shocker when I discovered that three other people had feelings for me. I absolutely hate hurting anyone at all, and seeing as I consider each person a friend of mine, I felt so guilty and terrible. Timing is everything, I suppose. Though it is selfish for me to say that I'm extremely happy that I'm with Cone and wouldn't have it any other way, that's about the jist of things at the moment. I was quite dejected, everything was bothering me, I got in a fight with several people, and then he returned and talked things out with me. Everything was better almost instantaneously, he just has that effect. He made me laugh and also realize that this might have been a bad day, but there will be plenty of better ones to come.
I just hope I can be as great to him as he is to me.