I need to get out!

[colerlone]

What do we want out of ourselves? I want to lose this dependency on other people. I am such an extrovert, it kills me. Its like nothing is going good unless someone else is involved. I am tired of the cruelty of love. I have such a deep love for so many people, there is no way to express it all. But i think some of it is undeserved and unfair. i read through postsecret.com and so much of touched me. I could feel my emotions and mind crying. Some were so funny, some because of how sad and pathetic it is that you relate to it. Everyone needs somebody. When i am at school, i feel like i dont have anybody really close to me. I dont want love, i dont want companionship, i want a friend. Someone to share everything with. Someone like me. Thats a hard request, dont know why, but it is. Some understanding and listening. to share their day and night problems and solutions. everyone here is so shitty! everyone who isnt wont get close because they are in a relationship! Im not looking for a girlfriend. Actually, maybe im not looking. i havent found. i just dont belong with all of the people here at ISU, id ont relate to 97 percent of them, im not the bar type. not the frat type. not the abercrombie sandals and shorts all year guy. I feel like a bigger school would have more. When i go to IU, theres people there that make sense. who knows, fuck it. Ive had a decent year this year. not too bad, ive been sick half the time though. Dont know why, im never sick. Classes are alright, but they still stress me out, im scared im not ready everyday. Ive met a couple new people, which is always nice. but someone to tell every dirty little secret would be great
with love,
cole