summer lovin.

[colerinja]

it's been a long long time (27 weeks LJ tells me) since i've updated.

so here goes.

It's summer, and:

tom and i went to seattle. it was vacation. it was part not really vacation, but it was nice. i like exploring.

i've been on and off productive, writing taking bikerides etc.

i have put together things to submit that i have not sent out.

i do not have my heart set on grad school right away.

i am the dancing queen.

i miss my little sister, and she is not little anymore. i will get her drunk when she is in town. i will get drunk too, maybe we will cry and i will write a poem about it.

my dad wants us all to go out singing/dancing when we have family vacation in the dells.

i have almost been married a year.

i am a hermit, and antisocial.

i am working hard(er) at learning polish. opportunities are arising, i don't want to jinx them.

i am becoming TEFL certified and it is _____________.

i on and off miss people desperately but do nothing about it.

i want friendships to happen organically that will not.
i do not know how to create friendships.

i have been married for almost a year and still love my husband very much.

i might be moving to poland.

my big sister moved to wisconsin. i have not been to visit.
she is doing extremely well in wisconsin. her husband not so much?

jones has sode made with sugarcane. it is like crack water. it makes me hyper. like when i was seven and ate sugar packets on the playground.

i know more grammar than i thought i did.

i know some polish, but will refuse to speak it.

i have worked at meijer for seven years now.

i am shy/nervous to a fault.

catherine got married, meaghann got married, cathy d. will be getting married and so will megan u.
i will most likely have to miss both due to aformentioned opportunities arising.

out of everyone i'm not sure who i love anymore, and who means anything. i like to think everyone, and that it is mutual. i'm starting to believe no one, at least that it's not mutual.

that was cynical. mostly i want to matter to people and don't believe i do.

insecurity never disapears? or just not yet?

that was an observation, not fishing for compliments/reassurances. i'm also considering the where the fault lies.

i have too much free time during the day, not enough at night.

i love hanging out with my aunts.

i love love love being tan.

tom and i have been watching: x-files, dark angel.

i do not look forward to the idea of parting with my books, even temporarily.

i cannot stop buying books.