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oh, stolen moments on John's computer to update LJ. it is odd odd odd to be w/o computer. I'm addicted to it. I actually breathed a sigh of relief when I signed on just now. and here I am, online, and nobody's around to talk to.
I'm doing a MILLION times better with the whole loneliness problem. I'm starting to be really comfortable with not having anyone around to tell every aspect of my day, be it Courtney or anyone else. And because of that, the things people do that might otherwise upset me seem to roll right off. I can feel myself changing again. I'm getting stronger, taking pleasure in doing exactly what I want to do when I want to do it because there's just me. This is how life should be when you're 20. Just indulge, don't think too much or invest emotionally in anything too deeply. Maybe I should start doing yoga. All this sounds cheesy, even to me. But I'm laughing again.
I'm doing a MILLION times better with the whole loneliness problem. I'm starting to be really comfortable with not having anyone around to tell every aspect of my day, be it Courtney or anyone else. And because of that, the things people do that might otherwise upset me seem to roll right off. I can feel myself changing again. I'm getting stronger, taking pleasure in doing exactly what I want to do when I want to do it because there's just me. This is how life should be when you're 20. Just indulge, don't think too much or invest emotionally in anything too deeply. Maybe I should start doing yoga. All this sounds cheesy, even to me. But I'm laughing again.