I feel much better.
The last time I posted, I was in a pretty shitty mood. Now, after identifying all the factors contributing to my bad spirits and working toward fixing them, I feel very relieved. First, the family issue. I finally talked to them today and that helped make me feel better, since I had angrily been avoiding phone calls with them. On the romance issue, the main problem had been stemming from the fact that two text messages I had sent had not been replied to. It's also sorta weird because the two of us see each other all the time and hang out in the same group of friends. So it does take more force to get things in motion. I was very confused and stressed when I wasn't getting a reply about the two of us planning some alone time, but now after talking, I think the whole thing was just a misunderstanding. I guess it's not necessarily a bad thing for a relationship or a potential relationship to move slow. It does seem more meaningful this way, yet it is still very frustrating, especially when you thought you could practically read the other person's mind but then you are put into question about how they feel about the two of you. Also, I feel less flirty than I used to when the two of us are together and more mellow. Could this just mean that the relationship is progressing? I still feel very attracted, but not in a flirty way. Does that make sense? I'm finally discovering how complex love and relationships can truly be. Right now, I'm just excited to write than the causes of my bad mood, including the two issues above and the fact that the last two days haven't been the most fun anyway, have been defeated by me and my determination to return to my usual chipper self. :)