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I just can't get over the fact that Dan's Mother is is passing away. After a long, hard fight with cancer, Elizabeth maybe has a day or two left. On friday afternoon I went to go and visit her and the family, its was nice and so terribly sad at the same time. Ever since that experience I can't get death outta my mind. She was so frail, weak, and tired looking. The morphine kept her looking kinda drugged up. Thank the Goddess for morphine, she may be dying, but she ain't feeling a thing. She's barely even there in the end. At least thats what it looks like. I remember watching my Grandpa die, such an effort just to breathe, eyes closed, his face lacking any life. Thats kinda how I feel, lifeless, blah, no energy. I've been very thoughtfull these last few days, too bad I haven't been motivated enough to write about the stuff running around in my mind.
So tomorrow is my 30th birthday. I'm glad I did it up with the girls a coupla weekends ago cause I haven't felt like celebrating nor has anyone else around here. How can you blame us?
Andrew should be here soon. Hes gonna be heading over to see Dans Mom. I'm not sure if I wanna go. I've already seen her, I should leave it to the family, and others, like Andrew who haven't seen her lately. Ya, I think I will just stay home. I dont wanna crowd the room.
So tomorrow is my 30th birthday. I'm glad I did it up with the girls a coupla weekends ago cause I haven't felt like celebrating nor has anyone else around here. How can you blame us?
Andrew should be here soon. Hes gonna be heading over to see Dans Mom. I'm not sure if I wanna go. I've already seen her, I should leave it to the family, and others, like Andrew who haven't seen her lately. Ya, I think I will just stay home. I dont wanna crowd the room.