I have a few answers.

[colebumble_bee]

You are escaping your future, not embracing it. You are scared of what lies ahead of you and holding tight to what is about to lie behind you. Sometimes when you hurt someone so much, and you love them, you can socially distort reality and you either leave in order to refrain from continuously hurting that person, or you stand and try to change yourself, them, the situation but in the end, the same stuff happens over and over and you hurt until you can longer feel your own heart beat.

Make me feel like a beggar
Make me feel like a thief
Make me feel like a battle, that cannot end in peace
Make me feel like running, as if Ive lost my nerve
Make me feel like crying, tears I dont deserve

Please bleed
So I know that you are real
So I know that you can feel
The damage that youve done
Who have I become
To myself I am numb, I am numb, I am numb

Is this really living? sometimes its hard to tell
Or is this a kind of gentler hell?
Turn out the lights
And let me stare into your soul
I was born and bled for you to hold

Please bleed
So I know that you are real
So I know that you can feel
The damage that youve done
Who have I become
To myself I am numb, I am numb, I am numb

Never said thank you
Never said please
Never gave reason to believe
So as it stands
I remain on my knees
Good lovers make great enemies

Please bleed
So I know that you are real
So I know that you can feel
The damage that youve done
Who have I become
To myself I am numb, I am numb, I am numb