take it day by day
today i went job hunting, i am so sick of being broke. I need to have money again, i want to be able to take her out, and buy her shit. I've never had this before i was always well off w/ plenty of money for my ladies, not that she is my girl...we are just best friends that hook up everyday, and spend all of our time together, she is straight and i have been there and done that and it has taught me a valuable lesson- take it for what it's worth, don't push it and don't expect more than what they can give. Straight girls are so weird, sometimes they are bi, sometimes they are just curious, and then there is that one who drives you out of your mind. That was the last one, Aisling, lets start using names, she was my best friend w/ a boyfriend never thought of her sexually consciously. One night were driving around and im in the back seat w/ her, she starts caressing my hair by my ear and then starts kissing my neck and shit. All i can do is think "WOW"!!!!!!!!!!!! So thats where that started, and it lasted almost two years, she was a fucking psycho. For example she tells me two weeks ago after we've broken up that finally realized she is gay-
1- Obviously, you don't go down on the same sex almost everyday for two years if you are just curious.
2- I knew that already stupid.
3- Wouldn't that have been nice if she had known that a year ago, what a god damn retard.
So anyway, now i recently started talking to one of my good friends from highschool, one of the fucking coolest people i have ever known. We were just hanging out one night at my friends house and she sent me a text message asking me if i'd hook up w/ her- hmmmmmm....okay!!! Now not only is she beautiful and by beautiful i mean gorgeous, she is smart and just understands life so well, more than anyone i have ever met. But anyway so we started hooking up and it's amazing, i love kissing her, touching her, sleeping next to her, even just sitting in the car w/ her.
A few of our friends, well really one had a problem w/ this but i think she's over it and if she isnt oh fucking well, get your own life. And some how like any information in plainedge everyone found out or heard about it, when the only people i discussed this w/ was nick and aimee. Two people who do not talk to anyone in my group from highschool, but fuck them too. Except peaches i love you.
But now what, do we just hook up until one of us finds someone new? Do we continue to do this until one of has the balls to ask the other one to be together...are we together? I don't know, it's so weird but great all at the same time...im not going to let myself fall for her though, i want to but i can't be that weak.
I hope one of the places i looked for a job at calls me i am so bored w/ being home all day.
Anyway can't have an entry w/o giving a shout out to a-dawg...peace out a town down!!!!!!!!!
1- Obviously, you don't go down on the same sex almost everyday for two years if you are just curious.
2- I knew that already stupid.
3- Wouldn't that have been nice if she had known that a year ago, what a god damn retard.
So anyway, now i recently started talking to one of my good friends from highschool, one of the fucking coolest people i have ever known. We were just hanging out one night at my friends house and she sent me a text message asking me if i'd hook up w/ her- hmmmmmm....okay!!! Now not only is she beautiful and by beautiful i mean gorgeous, she is smart and just understands life so well, more than anyone i have ever met. But anyway so we started hooking up and it's amazing, i love kissing her, touching her, sleeping next to her, even just sitting in the car w/ her.
A few of our friends, well really one had a problem w/ this but i think she's over it and if she isnt oh fucking well, get your own life. And some how like any information in plainedge everyone found out or heard about it, when the only people i discussed this w/ was nick and aimee. Two people who do not talk to anyone in my group from highschool, but fuck them too. Except peaches i love you.
But now what, do we just hook up until one of us finds someone new? Do we continue to do this until one of has the balls to ask the other one to be together...are we together? I don't know, it's so weird but great all at the same time...im not going to let myself fall for her though, i want to but i can't be that weak.
I hope one of the places i looked for a job at calls me i am so bored w/ being home all day.
Anyway can't have an entry w/o giving a shout out to a-dawg...peace out a town down!!!!!!!!!