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i was just thinking about all the decades or eras of a lifetime and how many friends and loved ones come and go, and how rarely you ever know that it is the last time you are going to see someone. all the moments in life that are worth remembering but you never realize at the time that it is a moment to remember. and what hurts more the friends you miss that are still there but just are not part of your life, or the friends that are no longer here. in the end regarding anything i realize all i have of a lifetime are memories, and those memories are always fading with time. what is it really all for, what do we leave behind, it is never more than a few generations before anyone forgets you ever exited at all. how many times do i watch some documentary where a construction crew or something stumbles upon a completely forgotten Saxon or Dark Ages cemetery, and the archeologists come in and they find a bunch of graves but there are no markers at all and all the bones have long deteriorated away from the acidic soil and nobody has any idea who was here at all. people completely lost to history, really what is the point. just let me be forgotten already.