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things are really fucking weird. Me and Brent broke up Sunday morning.
it was the best break up to be expected, we are still good friends and have seen each other every day-as of now. I'm not sure if thats a good thing or not.
I'm living back at home, which is so much better than i thought.
I'm going away to college in August, Johnson and Wales in Charlotte. i can't fucking wait! i still need to get started with all that shit of applying and loans.
I'm doing pretty well and trying to look on the positive side, but i still have my shitty, sad, upset, teary, weak moments.
i just hope everything works out for the best.
I've been seeing my sister and friends more and thats nice, it keeps my mind off things for a little bit.
i just have NO idea what the fuck i am going to do once Brent gets another girlfriend. it will not be good, hopefully by the time that happens i will be long gone and in a better place. i really can't imagine myself liking or loving another boy as much or another guy being like Brent. i don't think thats possible.
i can't wait for the future and whats to come, i just want this chapter of my life to hurry hurry by!