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its hard to work with an ice pack on your knee. but it helps me. so i deal.
my grandmother fell yesterday, she is in the hospital, she cracked a few back bones. she'll have to be fitted with a brace that will pretty much keep her from moving for a little while. and yes, this is the same grandmother with the dying kidneys that wont take one of mine.....
i'm so tired of all the new people at work. i counted 6 new cashiers today, and i know there are more. we have 2 newbies in my department, and newbies all over the store. its just annoying to look around and realize that absolutely noone knows what the hell they are doing or why they are even there.
drew called me the other night. he woke me up but i lied and said i was still awake. i dont think he bought it. but he didnt seem like he wanted to let me go. but i had to go. i had to work early. i felt what he felt.
lance told me again that he did love me. loser. liar. that was what i said. he doesnt love me like he should. noone does. i didnt even provoke the comment. he said something about having to go to savannah this weekend with his girlfriend and wishing it were me instead. i told him he knew how to fix that. but i dont know if i meant it. i doubt i could stay with him forever were he and i ever to be together. i dont know that i'm cut out for forever. i think i was born to be a spinster. the cool older sister, the cool aunt. but never the cool wife or mother or grandmother. just not me.
i am in pain. it hurts to bend my knee. atleast i have a stable back bone on which to rely.
deep breaths ana, deep breaths....
my grandmother fell yesterday, she is in the hospital, she cracked a few back bones. she'll have to be fitted with a brace that will pretty much keep her from moving for a little while. and yes, this is the same grandmother with the dying kidneys that wont take one of mine.....
i'm so tired of all the new people at work. i counted 6 new cashiers today, and i know there are more. we have 2 newbies in my department, and newbies all over the store. its just annoying to look around and realize that absolutely noone knows what the hell they are doing or why they are even there.
drew called me the other night. he woke me up but i lied and said i was still awake. i dont think he bought it. but he didnt seem like he wanted to let me go. but i had to go. i had to work early. i felt what he felt.
lance told me again that he did love me. loser. liar. that was what i said. he doesnt love me like he should. noone does. i didnt even provoke the comment. he said something about having to go to savannah this weekend with his girlfriend and wishing it were me instead. i told him he knew how to fix that. but i dont know if i meant it. i doubt i could stay with him forever were he and i ever to be together. i dont know that i'm cut out for forever. i think i was born to be a spinster. the cool older sister, the cool aunt. but never the cool wife or mother or grandmother. just not me.
i am in pain. it hurts to bend my knee. atleast i have a stable back bone on which to rely.
deep breaths ana, deep breaths....