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So I have to get up early as fuck to go to court to see what happens to the drunk redneck who destroyed my car. I kind of don't want to go. In fact, I think I might not. I should be asleep but I just can't get tired this early. It's too bad. I get really panicky when I know I should be asleep but I can't do it. O well. Some days everything seems really wierd and surreal. I think today was like that cuz I did absolutely nothing and I just have time to dwell on shit and I just don't even get in the mood to do something good. It's like I just can't even remember the last time I felt truly inspired to write music. I think this house has an effect on me. It is sucking me dry. It's like Matt and Paul are not here most of the time, and my parents' energy of being total slackers is really rubbing off on me. I guess it's better than having parents who are all crazy and doing too much shit and expecting too much from me. I am just kind of pissed off right now because I don't want to go to the court thing. I don't care that much, and what if he doesn't show up again? All that getting up early for nothing. And the whole thing is that I don't even know where it is. My friend that got summoned as a witness lost his paper that had all the details, all we know is that its today. I know the place it probably is but this is going to be a pain in the ass. But later in the day things will be alot better.