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Well for those of you who don't know I had a panic attack to day all because of BRENT... So anyways my parnets want me to take a brake from him for a week and I told him I was sorry and he was like IT"S OKAY BABY I LOVE YOU AND I WOULD WAIT FOR YOU FOREVER and i was like awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww.
anyways this is the poem I wrote today after I had this attack.
*** Breathing...... still breathing...***
My phone dropped to the ground, your messages I found, My eyes filled with tears and here come back all of my fears of being alone and no one to love. Breathing hard, all out of breath how could this horriable pain become? My heart beating fast, taking breaths like they were my last sense of you and me flashing in my mind. Hands shaking to a beat that was unstoppable by me, you are my cure your the one I love for sure. Face starting to sweat my hands and feet went numb thinking to myself why the bullshit it's so dumb?! Trying to walk to safty as I start to get weak BREATHING....STILL BREATHING.... as I drop to my feet. My memory went blank don't remember a damned thing , waking up to someone yelling in my face " Brittany , BREATH, take deep breaths and breathe." My lips were numb my words were slurred my body was shaking and my vision was blurred. trying to breath with all my strength, feeling so useless and ready to faint. Calming down at last , my heart felt like it had popped
But .... BREATHING, STILL BREATHING.... the attack has s t o p p e d!!