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okay so.. im feeling little bit better.. i have so mane regrets about last night.. fuck. so yeh yesterday was the *winterball* i got ready with the lovely jenny, krystyle and alley.. it was fun... SPARKLES!!! wow it was so fun.. so then we get to the winter ball.. and it was boring for like the first 30 mins.. then it got fun.. i got a dance with him* on the first slow dance.. = ) then the last dance i had the chance to again but i ruined it cause im a screw up like that. fuck fuck. so yeh lots of stuff good and bad happend.. so much emotion. shit fuck. i need to stop swearing.. ive sworn alot in the last little bit. shit fuck c-word. but im done here..
- i had boobs. [haha]
I KNOW: that he will never be mine.
I WANT: him.
I HAVE: alot of regrets.
I WISH: i could be with you. touch you. kiss you.
I HATE: alot.
I MISS: ...him...
I FEAR: never having someone to call mine.
I HEAR: the tv.
I WONDER: if things will ever go right for me.
I REGRET: a whole lot.
I LOVE: him.
I ACHE: all the time.
I CARE: about things too much. i care about him alot. i care about everything.
I ALWAYS: wish and dream.
I AM NOT: happy.
I SING: when a good songs on or when im happy.
I CRY: alot.
I DO NOT ALWAYS: like myself.
I WRITE: whatever.
I WIN: always.
I LOSE: everything that i want. [i screw things up.]
I CONFUSED: everyone.
I LISTEN: to anything.
I CAN USUALLY BE FOUND: at home or with the friends.
I AM HAPPY ABOUT: nothing.