Our hands can be bound, but open our hearts and fill up the emptiness...
Well I have no real reason to update but I guess I will out of pure boredom. This weekend was alright. Friday, I went to the punch house :o) and a couple of people were there for a little while, kellie went to bed and me and emily stayed up and had an arts and crafts session! he he he. That was interesting... Saturday was Bre's party and then everyone slept over her house, kellie, kristin and I all slept in the car b/c I didn't want to sleep on the floor or else I would have had a stuffy nose from the kitties and the car is just soooooo snuggly! That was a good evening... Sunday was mother's day and kristin drove us all to get some cards and such for our mothers, I got a dozen garden roses and a cute card for my mommie.
I got home and everything was fine until I talked to my parents. He walks in the door and thinks that what he says isn't going to affect people. I wish he didn't fucking have to snap at me constantly, he walks in yells at me and tells me how lazy I am, how much of a bitch I am and so on. Well fuck him. Then fucking 2 hours later he comes to my room to fucking apologize and saying he was wrong and that he didn't mean to snap at me I was just the first person he saw. Okay ya, you think that by just saying sorry you can fix all the times you screamed at me for no reason and made me feel like a worthless piece of shit, no sorry I am fucking tired of it, he needs to quit with the fucking apologies and stop fucking doing it to me. He's not even worth my time to complain about anymore. My mother definitly doesn't help at times but whatever she is just trying to cover her ass. I am just going to friggin block it out. Fuck them.
I have to go to a chiropractor now, it's ridiculous, the guy want's me to get adjustments 3 times a week. I don't want to drive to westboro 3 times a week so he can adjust my back and have it ache later. O well I guess it's life, my mom is making me go and I guess I understand it just sucks.
Well that is enough complaining I don't even want to listen to myself anymore. Sorry about my annoying bitchiness :o( It's aweful how all I ever do now is sleep, I come home from school sleep, do homework have dinner then go to bed again. I always feel tired but I guess it's nothing maybe I just need something to boost my energy.
The gay prom is next weekend and I am kind of excited about that, I think it should be fun. At least I hope it will be. And I am really happy for Micheal and Jason, because on May 22 they are getting married and they invited me to go to their wedding!!! I am really excited about that, it will be so great to see them happy and even tho it's a family event, they are the fun part of my family so it should be alright.
I got home and everything was fine until I talked to my parents. He walks in the door and thinks that what he says isn't going to affect people. I wish he didn't fucking have to snap at me constantly, he walks in yells at me and tells me how lazy I am, how much of a bitch I am and so on. Well fuck him. Then fucking 2 hours later he comes to my room to fucking apologize and saying he was wrong and that he didn't mean to snap at me I was just the first person he saw. Okay ya, you think that by just saying sorry you can fix all the times you screamed at me for no reason and made me feel like a worthless piece of shit, no sorry I am fucking tired of it, he needs to quit with the fucking apologies and stop fucking doing it to me. He's not even worth my time to complain about anymore. My mother definitly doesn't help at times but whatever she is just trying to cover her ass. I am just going to friggin block it out. Fuck them.
I have to go to a chiropractor now, it's ridiculous, the guy want's me to get adjustments 3 times a week. I don't want to drive to westboro 3 times a week so he can adjust my back and have it ache later. O well I guess it's life, my mom is making me go and I guess I understand it just sucks.
Well that is enough complaining I don't even want to listen to myself anymore. Sorry about my annoying bitchiness :o( It's aweful how all I ever do now is sleep, I come home from school sleep, do homework have dinner then go to bed again. I always feel tired but I guess it's nothing maybe I just need something to boost my energy.
The gay prom is next weekend and I am kind of excited about that, I think it should be fun. At least I hope it will be. And I am really happy for Micheal and Jason, because on May 22 they are getting married and they invited me to go to their wedding!!! I am really excited about that, it will be so great to see them happy and even tho it's a family event, they are the fun part of my family so it should be alright.